dilemma

shucks.. this afternoon after i took a nap, i wake up with a msg fr my assis manager asking me to go back to work. hai.. maybe it is cos i have jus woken up.. so not in the right mind. i agreed to it! shit... now i m seriously having second thoughts... i mean this is e most shitty place with lots of politics...

on one hand, i m telling myself that i have to bear with it for only 2 and a half months. on the other, i don't know if i can handle this. gosh she already sent me a schedule.. i guess i don't really have a choice... i really feel like finding an admin job. but feel so lazy to go find.. i mean this job has drop on my lap. if i don't take it i will have to go through the troubles of finding another job... ahhh... wat should i do???

i don't want to be stressed out by work and go home crying every night. i don't want to deal with some awful ppl. i really want to be apathetic towards everything at work.. but honestly i don't know if i can do so... recently my life have been smooth sailing... (as in no big dramas happening) if i take it up, everything will be like the past again... ahhh........