Yesterday went to watch hide and seek with sl. It was a great movie. V scary and exciting. It is a thriller. V nice show! Really nice being out to watch movie. on e way hm, we saw xy and her bf (adam) Well he seems to look better on photo. Hee.. that is wat me and sl tot.

Anyway today o'level results. My sis did well. Don't know whether to slap her or to clap for her. To slap her cos she send me an sms saying she win me v happy and an sms showing off her results. Clap for her cos she did v well. I know i should be happy for her. To some extent i m. But couldn't help feeling worried and scared for my results. And worse still e comparison from my mom. Feel v pressurize. But honestly i can't do anything abt it now. I hate being compared! Hate being compared to anyone! Y couldn't my sis did maybe jus as well as me. Feel so.. Inferior and afraid. Imagine she is celebrating and next wk i may be crying... Feel so worried. I sound so much like an evil sis. Hee.. Maybe this will become my motivation. I remember y i did well in sec sch. Cos my dad one day told a long distance relative that my sis is smarter than me, that i m quite dumb. My dad said that cos he was unhappy abt my psle results. I know it is supposed to be harmless, but i felt hurt. Really motivated me to study... Hai.. So worried..