Today after work at la. went to have dinner with mom and buy contacts. Well i m goin to talk abt my family problems again. hee.. i know some ppl say nv wash ur dirty linen in public. I personally don't agree to this at all, cos i don't feel that i sld hide anything from my close fren, and since this is my diary, i will say watever i want.

Well mom asked me if i would be fine if she divorce him. I told him calmly i would be fine. haha.. mom was shocked, she asked if i m really that hard hearted, i told her if that is e way to make him learn i will jus agree with her, i don't want to let him ruin my mom's, my sis and my life. To some extent i m being v selfish i know, cos i don't want him to ruin my life, but seriously i don't know how to help him. E only way i could think of is to cut of his hands, which is not possible rite.. I believe there r 2 kinds of ppl in this world, e first kind is when warned abt it's danger they would not go near to danger, e other kind is those who will only learn when they fall really badly, my dad is e 2nd kind... my dad need to suffer terribly, b4 he knows he is wrong.

hmm.. u know in shows hee.. e family always help e gambler to pay his debt no matter wat, but in real life, when u feel someone u love hurt e family this way, u jus want to stop him from hurting e family. And seriously it is really naive to think that he will learn, after u helped him pay off some of his debt, because old habits die hard.

Hmm.. i don't feel sad at all. Jus feel that i will try my best to deal with watever comes. Seriously i m not afraid, i jus want this over and done with