Seems like some ppl already get their letter from ntu abt university entry. Anyway i didn't get one. Feeling worried and yet helpless cos i can't do anything abt it. Kind of regret that i didn't work hard enough this 2 years. Starting to regret now is very late, no choice already! Anyway now all i can do is see wat road god gives me... And i will jus walk that road. Feeling rather angry at myself for not working hard. Letting those ppl, who appears not as good as me (hee.. so shameless to say this) to beat me. Well it is over.. So wat if i feel jealous and angry. I jus have to live with that fact!

Argue with my mom last nite. Cos i want to go register for a place in SIM in business. Have to gurantee myself a place to go at least. The registration date is ending soon. So if i don't register and i can't get into local uni. then i m dead. Will be a wandering spirit this year. My mom said things like she rather me retake the a'levels. Well in the first place she was the person who discourage me from retaking! Wat the hell! Then she said that my mind is already set on business so i m acting this way! Wat the hell again! My mind is not set on business! If i get into teaching or engineering then i will accept that path! I have to admit my heart sways to business more than anything else, but, registering now is jus to buy a security that i will at least have a place to go to if application fails! She thinks it is so easy to get wat u want! Please la.. I m not god! If i could i would turn back time! Listen to a stupid frens opinion on y business is not good. As if her frens r engineers and they know y engineering is good! I m not going to care abt her.. If she is unwilling to lend me money to go to sim. Then i will take up a student loan! And work part time to support myself. I don't need her for everything! I still have enough savings for the first semester. will work hard for it!