Today my sis li jia chu zou... I shall start from e beginning..

I was taking a nap till 10pm. Heard my sis and mom arguing abt sth. Don't really know wat they were arguing. It seems like they were arguing abt a red pen. Hee.. Don't know la.. Jus remember my mom ignoring my sis, and she getting v pissed off. Then saw her left home. I kind of blur of wat is happening. Jus woke up feel v goggy and sleepy. Then i remember crying cos hate it when they argue. when they exchange so many hurtful words. Hee.. Anyway in a moment of anger, my mom jus didn't care abt her. Think she was worried but didn't admit it.

Called my sis and message her but she didn't reply. My sis took her bag and phone when she left. Anyway went to the room and checked saw her fav bear and pillow. Hee.. used that to trick her back. Told her that e bear and pillow misses her. Anyway it kind of work cos she replied to my message. She told me she was at e playground. I didn't know if i should go down. Cos i have to calm my mom down, and yet worry abt her. I don't want to seem like i m taking sides. And i believe that she will come back la. Then when i decided to go down she came back.

They have a cold war, but everything seems better now.

Earlier in e morning lp, sl and i were having a conversation abt bringing children up. And i say i hope that i can take care of my kids, or let my parents take care of them. Cos i don't want them to one day blame me for not taking care of them when they were young. Maybe sl and lp can't feel y i feel so strongly, cos their mother r housewives, and have stayed by their side all the time. They don't know wat it is like to wake up early to go to someone's place, and hoping so much that ur mom can be with u. And i heard how pain it was for my mom to leave us at someone else place. oh ya the point is, my sis said sth v hurtful to my mom. She said sth like u didn't look after me when i was young and.... I don't know wat else she said. Hee.. my mom told me that she didn't look after me when i was young too but i didn't become naughty either. When she said that i tot that it is true la.. I don't blame her, afterall it is hard for her to leave me at someone's place too, and she have to support the family too. But i always feel so sad when she left. When i was 3 she sent to a daycare centre, and i remember i always sat at a corner and cry. Once i lied to her, almost made her lose her stop to work so that i hope she can be with me longer. Hee.. but it didn't work.

Hee.. conclusion is i honestly don't want to look after my children and become a person who knows nothing abt the soceity, but i also don't want to leave my children in e hands of anyone else, and give them bad memories from their childhood. There is perfect solution to this problem. I think that all mothers in this world r great! Whether they r housewives or working moms. I believe that they jus want the best for their child. So let's salute all mothers!