Recently saw xin hui's msn nick. It says her sis is pregnant. Upon hearing that feel happy for her and yet, depressed over the fact that things change so quickly. Ok her sis is not v young. But i still remember sec sch days when she said that her sis and mel's bro ever dated b4. It makes me reminished the past, and think that things change so fast. I wish i can go back to my sec sch days, where everythings seems less complicated, seems more innocent.

Today met pamela, she is working as a marketer, she is doing something completely unrelated to wat she have studied IT. Well it was really nice talking to her, we gossiped a lot and chat a lot in the library. hee.. I really terrible can gossip with anyone. Anyway she only re-enforced my feeling that i m getting old.

Hee. Rather worried abt my future. I most probably can't get admitted into a local uni. And even if i do i will have to study something i don't like. If i go SIM and study my degree may not be that recognised, and that will be a big problem to my future. Hee.. haven't study already worried for my future. But i realise a lot of ppl r not doin job related to their degree, and not earning much either. This is e consolation to myself. Hee.. Regret not working hard for a'levels now i wished i can turn back time. But unfortunately i can't so i can only move on, in denial as my frens would say ( well to me moving on in a more optimistic view ba...) I believe if u want to study anything u like u can study anywhere. But please! don't let ur pride get in the way of ur future. I mean wat u do in the future may not got anything to do with wat u studied. And honestly be realistic in watever u do. Don't always think that u r so great and everyone wants a piece of u. Have a backup plan, cos in life u can't always get wat u want jus by wishing or dreaming. Dream occationally, but at least be able to tell e difference between ur dream and wat u really can do. Honestly if u do well in the future no1 will care where u got ur degree from. Don't say anything unreasonable jus to win a fight. U know deep down inside, y u r saying such things.

Anyway abt the point where i feel i m growing old. I seriously feel that way. feel so worried. Soon relative will irritate me abt having a boyfriend. Honestly i have been single too long, quite scared of having a boyfriend! Hee.. And then irritate me to get married! Wa.. i used to had a nightmare that i was a runaway bride! Then later irritate me to have children. After watching a woman gave birth to a child during bio lessons 4 years ago, i m rather afraid of giving birth, giving birth seems like a scary thing. Ok i m terrified of my future. Haha... Hopefully i will be a successful person in the future. Good wife and good career woman, ya i m greedy i want the best of both worlds!