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haven't undated for awhile. basically cos nth interesting is happening in my life.. hahaha.. i have too much time on my hands. (not really la was supposed to be studying, but well got too much time to think abt too much things) Last mon me and sl went to sing ktv. was practicing for her bday singing competition. hee.. anyway quite fun.. got to sing lots of song..

this few days have been in a bad mood. but well i seriously can't understand y i m in a bad mood. cos i got upset over the slightest things, the bad mood could be triggered by anything meaningless someone said. well. jus don't feel too right. maybe cos this few days locked at hm to study. don't really have a life. at least when i was working, i was interacting with ppl. now i m only interacting with books or at most my tuition kids, which doesn't make good interactions.

Been thinking abt some things. i really don't like socialising with strangers. but throughout ur life, you would have to socialise with strangers. ur first day of sch in pri sch, sec sch, jc.. will in the uni for me u can jus don't make any frens if u don't want to. and then at work... during those period of time u might have gotten close to many ppl, but how many of them r truly sincere to u. was counting how many colleagues were supposingly closed to me when we were working and how many r still close to me. well all i can say is very few. hahah.. and furthermore now that we r not working or schooling tgth we don't have much to talk abt. Don't ur think that this process is really meaningless?!

Some ppl get tgth to have fun tgth. well i suppose i like having fun with this ppl. but i really wonder if they r ppl whom i can go thru thick and thin with. well they come rescue me if i have a problem. some ppl like making this kind of frens. frens to go out with to play with. but seriously wat's the pt. i don't want to befriend insincere ppl, who r only with me for a motive. i think i m a loyal fren. i will go all the way out to help my fren. but that is provided they r loyal to me too. i m not goin to help someone who only uses me cos i m easy to manipulate. no way! been realising how some ppl r so self centered. always expecting others to give, but wouldn't give anything back in return.

Another issue. some ppl well we jus can't c eye to eye to. some ppl who r really different fr u. some ppl whom will make ur blood boil everytime u c them. so wat is wrong with disliking someone. seriously u can't make everyone like u. i wouldn't say hate. cos hate is a strong word, and well unless he or she is ur 杀父仇人 ( sha fu chou ren, someone who killed ur father) u shouldn't hate anybody. disliking someone i think means, everytime u c him or her u get irritated by his actions. he or she might not have done anything, but well. u jus get irritated nonetheless even to the point where u get disgusted by that person.

how u react to the person u dislike is another issue. most of us i guess would most likely talk bad abt the person behind his back. hahaha.. and well show that we r irritated in front of that person or maybe jus keep silent unless that person do sth to make u want to slap him/her. well talking bad abt someone in this case wouldn't exactly b backstabing. backstabing is wat u do to ur fren not wat u do to ppl u dislike.

somehow i have and will try to be very rational. i wouldn't dislike someone w/o a reason, or try not dislike someone w/o a reason. but sometimes really when that person is around naturally ur blood starts to boil (火上来）oso don't know y. no matter how much u try to control urself u couldn't help it. so sometimes, i don't think u can blame anyone for disliking someone. it is not a choice we choose. they jus naturally pissed u off.. will wat i have jus said is to defend my fren. so stop seeing her as an evil person for disliking someone. at least she is honest with her feelings. unlike some hypocrite.