jus some thoughts abt cny

hee.. i know i previously mentioned that i don't like cny these days... but for me it is already a tradition. visiting relatives and stuff, though they r boring i m used to doing it. i have to admit to some extent i don't enjoy doing it, but too me.. family is very important. though i might not be close to them no matter wat they r my family. so i have to make it a point to be there during chinese new year...

actually i m quite disgusted by wat one of my cousin did during cny. i didn't c her throughout this cny not even at her parent's place. this cousin is married for 3 yrs le... and fr wat my relative said they have been avoiding cny cos they don't want to give red packets... hee.. i seriously didn't observe that until this yr. actually i have so many relative, so who don't give me red packet i also don't know.. hahahaha.. anyway i think it is quite disgusting la.. cos the whole family is there but they r not there, moreover it is not like they r earning v little. it is like so stingy for wat.. only one year once ma... and it is not about giving hong bao. it is the atmosphere. i don't like my relative much. i wouldn't say i hate them, jus that not v close to them.. but i like the atmosphere.. the whole family gathering together, niece and nephew, uncle and auntie, cousins and even the maids gathering tgth to do housework, they seems to have fun tgth... how can they not be there how can they miss the "warmth" of the family. hee..

my mom was saying this youngsters so self centered.. now that they form their own family all they care abt is their family and friends... to some extent i kind of agree la.. i wouldn't say i m not one of them... but fr wat my cousin did.. i realised, i don't want to be like her... i don't want to lose my roots, i don't want to miss my chance to get to know my cousins more... gosh i m so easily swayed.. one moment i m having extreme feelings abt cny.. and now.. changed my mind so easily.. haha.. hopefully won't become like her.. even if i have to zuo xi during cny.. i will do it more willingly..