Trip to europe

Urgh!! My independent trip to Europe is all ruined!!! My Mum is coming along. Honestly feel a bit irritated and yet a bit relieved. Relieved that at least i will have a companion throughout the journey, irritated that all my plans and imaginings are ruined.. Hahahah.. I wanted to be independent for once!!! Honestly feel a bit stressed goin overseas with her. Actually lately with jus she and me in the house i feel a bit being driven up the wall, i really feel a bit irritated, but no choice... Jus when i tot i could "escape" her for 2 wks.. ahhahahhaha..

Not that i don't love my mum.. I do. But with her constant nagging, sometimes i really feel that i need my space. Especially lately, i jus want to be alone, i got no idea y.. Jus feel that to always console her on her insecurities is making me feel a bit tired. Having to take care of her emotions is a bit overwhelming at times.. Later she gets inferior i have to console her..Travelling with her will make me feel a bit tired, cos i have to constantly look out for her and entertain her i guess. Y m i always the one being stuck to her? hahahha..

But ok la.. with her around can go to more places and also someone to take care of me. Somemoer she old already, my time left with her not a lot also. Sometimes i wish i have more siblings. then my burdan would be lighten. I honestly do not not love her.. It is just i need a break. Honestly is it normal to feel this way? M I being unfillial? I hope not.. Gosh.. I should drive this evil thoughts away! Ahhh.. I m such an unfillial daughter!