the pot calling the kettle black

some happenings yest. but first me and sl went to buy party accessories for her bday at daiso. we went to imm, supposingly to buy concert tic. but well somehow ending up not buying tic but shopping. quite fun! i can't wait for her bday.

ok ok.. story starts. yest, my sis came hm crying. she is having attachment at some firm (publisher) studying mass comm so well i couldn't really understand.. hahaha.. hmm.. i know my sentences don't make any sense. firstly, she didn't like this company and well have a lot to bitch abt this company. then the next day she was telling me abt being able to go for parties. then yesterday she was crying cos the company was goin to shut down. in jus 3 days, i have seen her emotion change drastically. fr hatred, to not so much hatred, to sorrows. so i seriously couldn't understand wat was happening and wat she was upset abt. well so i asked her.. but u know my sis, not exactly good tempered. hahaha.. so i kind of step on her toes.

she explained that it will affect her grades a lot if the company shut down. then she will have to do some street directory thing. actually her company is not really shutting down. jus downsizing and moving to another building. but well somehow they r leaving the interns at the old place or sth. i already told u it was complicated. so don't ask me to explain. anyway i couldn't understand y she was so upset. helping out with the street directory is fine to me la.. cos a lot of ppl during attachment will do unrelated stuff oso. but she explained that her grades matter a lot in this course and e internership is huge stuff. ok that i understand. actually i m more of a person who take things in stride. so i couldn't understand wat she was panicking abt, when seriously there is nth she can do abt it. somehow was of her sentence was she wouldn't understand e politics r not like ur stupid laura ashley. actually this sentence hurt me a bit. i was like wat the hell. so u think u r so great is it? everyone must be fighting to hire u. here i m trying to help and console u is that wat i get in return. and well miss know it all. u r the greatest i bow to u! (sarcastically)

hahhaha.. after i calmed down i realised a few things. firstly, when someone is angry they say mean things and hurt others unintentionally. but she is angry with them not me, so y must she hurt me. but on account that she is my sis and i suppose it wasn't intentional i shall forget abt it. and i oso kapo la ask her so much when she is already upset. but i m jus concerned abt her ma!

secondly, my sis and i r v diff people. she is v ambitious, cares a lot abt her grades, cares abt losing to others. i guess typical leo. and well i being a typical aquarius, more laid back attitude towards this stuff. and hence i couldn't understand y she was upset. as i a person who will jus let take things in stride.

thirdly, to some ppl it is a small thing to others it might be big. well one man's meat is another man's poison. jus because i couldn't understand y it is a big issue, it doesn't mean it is not. and i should respect her and not judge this incident. now i could understand how she felt when i was crying to her and complaining abt my colleagues. to her it might be a small issue to me it is large.

lastly, and most importantly, when she cries i will be upset too. seriously when i see her sobbing i wanted to cry too. but i don't really know why i felt like crying. hahaha.. i guess it jus pains me to c my little sis so upset, though i don't know wat she is upset abt. i don't think she will read this. but i jus want her to know we will be supporting her and i really love her a lot. hee.. in a way i guess she is a lot like me. we r both not gd at expressing feelings to each other, and we r kind of afraid of ppl's concern. i guess she was afraid of me being concerned abt her hence she was so fierce to me. but jus by being fierce to me u won't make me be less concern abt u. cos u r my sis. i will irritate u until u die. hahahhaha...