Jus read ziwei's blog. It really makes me think abt how things do not turn out e way we want it to. And how we as human persist in letting things go our way.

Personally i m rather sturbborn. When i can't have my way i would get angry and upset, and act in a way i nv knew i could act. So i can understand e feelings of things not goin ur way.

In love there is no right or wrong. Although i have nv experience boy-girl love i always felt that way. U can't understand why u like that person or even when u like that person. Love is jus so blind. When u love at times u may find it hard to let go. it is always hard to let go. Eg.. i know this is a stupid example but i have to say. When my mom asked me to give my doll house away to my cousin i cried and threw a tantrum. Didn't bear to give e things that i liked most away. Even towards non-living things ppl have such strong feelings. Much less a person.

Like wei ming said love is a gamble, if u gamble u may win, if u don't u will surely lose. But i have to add.. at times this gamble hurt ppl. People u love e most. Letting go is v impt. In my life i have learnt to let go a few times.. (not refering to e doll house thing hee..) I always find it hard to let go. But after i let go i felt so relief.. I felt so light ( i know i was nv heavy, since i m so thin and an umbrella can make me fly, but that is not wat i mean. And pls i m not on drugs when i say i feel light, nv support drugS!) I felt like e burdans r all gone. Can't really understand y i can't let go, after i let go. Felt so stupid to have held on

To Ziwei! ppl say things brainlessly when they r upset. When u r hurt by wat someone say u would naturally want to hurt e person in e same way. Human's instinct of defense. Some weird instinct but it exist. When i m angry i always remain silent, if i can la. So that i won't hurt e ppl around me. When i say things when i m angry and hurt e ppl, i usually end up feeling v guilty. Ziwei so don't take wat e person said to heart ok? And this person who hurt u is most probably dying of guilt now.. He/she oso had his retributions so forgive him la.. I know it will take time for ur wounds to heal. I don't know if saying this will help but cheer up!

Today work OT. Hee.. sorted some parts then lp left first. then after that they teasing my mom. Then my mom also left. Left me alone doin. then when i finished realise that toh e boss who ask me to do have left. Hee.. But ok la.. OT one hour hopefully can get money for OT. Ppl there r really nice! Chat with lp while working, of topic v entertaining and interesting. Hee.. then end up laughing a lot. Big pimple on my face so pain!

Hee... recently brainstorm some silly things with lay ping. If ur want to read it can go to www.caszdimension.blogspot.com Hee.. it was really fun..

Just read my fren's jean blog. Her blog ah.. really make me wanna cry. She so poor thing! If i were ever to experience so many setbacks as her in my life. I don't even know if i can live. Jus want to say don't be sad. Although we may love the wrong people in our lives.. but it is more important the lessons and experience we have gained through them. And if u cannot look on the bright side at least try not to think abt it.

Really thankful for laypings shrimp roll. Haven't tasted them but should be quite nice.

Life has been ok for me. I think i like working life better than studying. Although u work hard throughout the day but at least when u get home u can completely rest don't need to think about homework or other things..

Oh ya today i saw my jj fren kang jie! he is in e army as a clerk. He botak! He so funny! Keep standing in front of me then i was thinking this guy so weird one act like he know me. Then it is actually my fren. Hee.. realise i can be quite blur. But it was a nice surprise to c him. Haven't seen him for long time. so exciting to c ppl u haven't seen for a long time!

Well i m here to update my blog. Anyway last mon went to watch a movie with my frens. Suat ling and i arrived earlier to have our dinner. After that even when e movie was about to start mei hui, joyce and frens were not here yet. So we decided to buy the tickets and go in first. When we got in the cinema was very empty. Hee.. And it was already 6.45 the show should have started anyway. It was v weird. I had a suspicion that we were in the wrong theater. But the music playing was correct. The music to the movie. Anyway, i messaged mh to c where she was and she said she was in the theaters. I was shocked i don't c her anywhere. Sl wanted to ask the couple behind but they were getting kind of intimate. they were all over each other. Anyway sl decided to ask e person who tears the ticket. the person told us we were in e wrong cinema. Anyway we went to e right cinema in the end. Hee.. rather funny..

Doing spring cleaning. Really hate it! Hai.. don't think i can be a housewife in the future hate doin household chores. So sickening! y must new year come. the only part that i enjoy is eating the goodies and receiving red packets. Hai..

Hee.. have not update for a period of time. some funny things happened. shall update this when i have e time.. hee..

Irresponsible and spoilt ppl

Hai.. like my tittle said. Have to deal with these kind of ppl all e time. This time this person is my sis!

I borrowed a sleeping bag for my sis camp from joyce cos she needed it. (thanks joyce) Anyway that she didn't wash the sleeping bag. She said that she plan to wash it this wkend. (well it had been a wk! She had so many days to wash!) Anyway now joyce have to get it back cos she has a camp on sat. Well so have to speed wash! don't know if e sleeping bag will dry in time. Anyway she asked my mom to wash. So pissed off! Wth! Don't she even know how to be grateful. Not that i m expecting anything much. I don't even expect a thank u from her. Jus feel that hao xin mei hao bao! Next time i will not help her! even if she is crying and begging me! Sorry joyce for e inconvienice it has brought u! In e end i m e only one feeling guilty that i brought so much inconvienice to joyce! Hai.. help her become feel guilty for something that i have not done! hai..

clear side view of prince 

hee.. pouting prince 

not v clear but well my prince 

My prince! 

e movie poster 

My lao gong.. and other stuff

Today is my 2nd day of work of sorting.. hee.. it is boring. Well but the pay is quite gd for a brainless job and well e ppl r quite nice. So glad that i have lay ping for company. Or else i will die doin this job. Have to slp early but well.. hee..

The other day went for e ntu talk. Human resource management seems like an interesting course. But i don't think i will have good enough results to go there. Anyway it was so fun with yik, xw, lp, amy and yan hua. The few of us really can crap rather well. V entertaining. Hee.. i think xw passed her bad luck to me on that day. But anyway xw since u have given me ur bad luck, stop worrying so much abt bad things happening.

Ok abt my lao gong! Hee.. i had eye contact with him, but he quickly looked away. He was so cute! Keep dazing and giving that dreamy look. Hee.. ok i shall stop keep ur guessing who he is. he is won bin! ya that korean star! hee.. He is so handsome with flawless skin, and a cute smile. Really love him a lot. wish he was mine. Being too greedy and it will nv happen. hee.. jus let me dream. I will stay happy in that dream! Hee.. e security guard that worked at e steven chow premiere was there too... wish i were him. I shall become a ba gua mag reporter then can c him more often!

Lay ping help me to take a few pics of him today. Thanks lay ping! She say that this is the first time she "chase a star" hee.. Well her skills r quite gd quite pro! hee.. show ur e pic later. My hands keep shaking can't take good pic. hee.. Actually to c him i was a bad girl. I skipped work. Hee. i lie to them that i m goin to sch and i went to c won bin at imm instead.. hee.. he super handsome!

Maybe i will regret this entry a few years later when i no longer love him. hee.. but luckily there is always the delete button! hee.. ok la.. if i regret then say la.. i love my lao gong!

This blog is to keep in contact with frens

Hee.. e purpose of this blog is to keep in contact with my jj frens in case in e future i get too busy to meet them. it is also to keep in contact with my sec sch frens. though i talk on e phone rather often with them. at this point of time i haven't gave this address to anyone yet. hee.. ok i m getting crazy.

Today is liling's bday. happy bday!