Tmr will be starting sch and will be starting work.. Feel rather nervous. Don't really know wat to expect. I don't want to give up! Hope everything will go well. Hope i don't spill anything or drop anything tmr. Pray Pray. Hope i can cope with working and studying.. Please god don't let me feel so tired so easily. Please give me e strength not to give up. Please let everything be alright..

Was v tramautised today. Ok i will start the story from the beginning not e tramautising part..

Went to junction 8 to go for e gigi leung autograph session.. She is really a pretty girl! Too bad i have a lousy camera.. Anyway sl and i had a lot of fun..

Later we decided to take 156back from junction 8. So we boarded the 156 bus. On the bus there was a bangaladash worker. U know those bangaladish workers all usually wear the same clothes. White blouse and 3quads.. I didn't notice him at all. Then later sl noticed him cos he kept looking at the maid who was alighting. Then later rather scary thing is he kept turning his head and looking at us. He was sitting the seat adjacent to us a few seats in front. We knew he was looking at us cos there was nobody behind us, and e nearest person in front of us was the ppl sitting parallel to him. He started to move a few seats back.

Later we devise a plan of how to shake him off. Sl and i said that we would alight at a more crowded stop. But i told her i don't want. cos i was afraid he would follow us down.. Then we couldn't get help from e bus driver too cos if we were to get to the bus driver we would have to pass him by first. Cos e bus's last stop will be at clementi mrt station. So i told sl to let him get down first b4 getting down. E thing is he could have gotton down earlier than us, but he kept waiting for us. The bus driver turned behind to look at us, as almost everyone has got off except us, but we jus sat down there till he left b4 we get off..

Later we were standing at the head of the bus stop. I suggested we wait for the guy to board any bus b4 goin hm or else if he follow us up a bus, it might be dangerous, as bus stops around our houses ur usually quite ulu, quite quiet. He was standing at the end of e bus stop near mac at first. Later he headed for us. So sl and i quickly walked towards mac. We realised that he looks at every girl.

Later i told sl, let's go to mac, then wait abt 15min then go back to e bus stop to c if he left. Then another scary thing happened. We saw him pacing outside mac after awhile. Luckily clementi's mac a lot of exit. We faster escape through e most crowded one. By this time i think we were really afraid..Even if he was not following us this bangaladash worker must be so sexually deprived, cos he looks at every woman young and old. A sexually deprived man is a scary man. I told sl that he was fang shen, cos only sun then they can come out, then so scary so many bangaladash, then it is like when we c anyone similar we would run. My hands were kind of trembling. I called my mom to come to central, but if anything were to happen by e time she came it would have happened. Too bad there wasn't any policeman in sight.

Later we went to the interchange, i told sl we take 173 to my hse then from there she take a cab hm. Then i called my mom to wait at e busstop we r alighting. Then we saw a bangaladash wearing white blouse and 3 quads. We started to panic then go to a crowded place to hide, luckily it is not him. Sl was like oh no we r stranded in central. In e end we took 99 to my place. On e bus we started talking then forgot to press e bell for our stop, fortunately someone was boarding the bus.

When we reached e busstop at my place, my mom was not there.. Was rather angry. Cos if things were to happened it would have happened by the time she came! Anyway while i was accompanying sl to wait for a cab, we talked abt our bad experience with bangaladash. Sl said that when she was young her mom brought her, her sis and her bro out. Then later came a truck of bangaladash workers, then they started making a pass at her. Started wolf whistling! Yucks! She is already married with 3 children lor, so sexually deprived till this extent! Then i told her when i was pri sch staying at my aunt's place, opp her place there was a construction site, building a condo. Then every time when i m downstairs maybe goin to buy sth or heading for e mrt, these bangaladash workers will start wolf whistling at me. Really disgusting lor! I was only a pri sch kid lor! Wth!

Another experience i had was oso when i was pri sch, i remember me, my mom, my sis went out. on board e bus there was a bangaladash worker sitting at e side. U know those sbs double decker bus, then at level 1 got those seats near e bus driver. I was standing at e door. Then this stupid bangaladash was sitting there pretending to slp. I stood there so i held e railing. Then he kept holding my hand on e railing. Then of course i moved my hand somewhere else,then he started to hold my hand again. Then i was rather pissed off, so i went to e other end railing, u know to the other side of e door. Then an old lady boarded, when she came she stood at e place where i previously stand, she placed her hand at e place i place my hand b4. Then e bangaladash worker touched her hand too. But this time auntie was not like me she didn't move her hand away. So in e end he happily touched, then when he stop pretending he was sleeping and looked up he saw that he was holding an old lady's hand and got a shock! Hee... It was quite a funny sight.

Next experience is my mom's, last time we were walking through a crowded place. There was quite a lot of space beside my mom. But this bangaladash worker purposely walked and hit my mom's boobs! WTF! My mom was v angry but couldn't do anything! If some stupid bangaladash hit my boobs I would scream for help immediately and send him to e police station!

When i told my mom abt wat happened she told me that maybe that guy is a dynacast worker and recognise me. I doubt so lor! He was looking at every woman. And dynacast bangaladash r all rather nice ppl. Though they r rowdy but not as disgusting as e ones we saw. I realise there is a differences btn bangaladish. Usually e most disgusting ones r e ones who works at construction sites. E ones amy my mom's office is ok...

Went to work as usual. Later mh called me to tell me that she have concert tic to the zpop concert. She gave me the contact no of e person and ask me to collect tic from that person. Well she gave me the wrong no, so i have trouble contacting the person. I think e person got quite pissed off keep hanging up on my phone calls. Anyway i manage to get the tic from the correct person later on. I collected the tic at tampiness mall.

Later went city hall to meet mh. Well we went to ate at the food court and she passed me the presents from china. Thanks! Really like it.. We catched up a lot. After that we headed to suntec convention hall for the concert.

When we reached there we were 2hours late. The signboard outside told us to go hall 402.. But when we reach hall 402 there wasn't anyone. I told mh the concert over liao.. Hee.. But actually the signboard gave the wrong info. It was at hall 601-603.

When we arrived outside the hall. We saw joyce's fren raymond. We were not supposed to enter by there cos that place is for $30 tic holder while our tic only $20. But raymond jus tear our tic and ask us to faster get in. Hee.. My reaction quite fast. Cos at first we were still telling him that this is not the correct hall. Then when he wanted to let us in, i faster told mh, ya ya this is e correct hall then pull her into the hall. Hee...

When we came in ah sang was singing. Hee.. so we sat on the floor and talked. We heard fan wei qi, 183club, jiang mei qi, Tanya, joi tsai, jj.. JJ's performance was v special he went on stage to play e piano and he did the beat box. Later after gigi sang the president came. As we were at the back we managed to get a glimpse of the president. This mh still so funny.. Wanted to shake the president's hand. So when he came mh kept grabbing e president hand then don't want to let go.. Haha.. Then i laughed too hard.. Lost my voice in the end. I didn't lose my voice cos of screaming for e artiste, but cos i was chatting with mh over the loud voice from the artiste, and cos i laughed at her when she grabbed the president's hand.

The last performer was ah mei. After ah mei. We went hm. We walked to esplanade to board the bus from there. On our way to esplanade we kind of get lost. After renovation the path towards esplanade really special and nice.. Lots of painting. As it was too late we had to take a night rider home. Basically we chat all e way home. So fun! Really haven't had such a good time le.. Really should have gatherings more often.

Mh and i talked abt death.. Most christian believe that death is a happy thing. Cos ppl go to heaven. I don't think death is a happy thing. Death is fearful, cos it is unknown. We won't know wat will happen after death. Some ppl believe life after death. Maybe this is a way to make us feel better abt dying. I m afraid of ppl around me dying. Cos the thought of missing them, the thought that i won't get to c them when i want to, hear their voices when i want to. When i have a problem they can't give me advice on wat to do. That is e fear. Mh say she fear of dying cos she can jus imagine e grief and pain the ppl living will feel. Death is a painful thing to the living people. I remember when my uncle pass away my cousin acted like a kid. When someone die, u jus wish u can go back in time. Go back to a time when these ppl r still alive. I don't want to grow up! I don't want things to change. Xiao Zhu's father pass away recently, when i saw him on tv, his eyes were swollen, really feel sad for him. The world wouldn't stop moving jus becos one person is gone. Life have to go on.

Today was suppose to be my last day of work. Anyway bought curry puff and cake for the ppl of QA office. Well anyway bought 9storey kueh for mr ng since he is a vegetarian.. The stupid yip then make a comment say how come mr ng got special one.. Then i say cos he vegetarian.. Then later realised he ate a lot of e curry puff.. Including my share. Honestly he is a disgusting man.. He is really petty and stingy. Well he is stingy to ppl but generous to himself, He is an extremely selfish man. Completely disgusting man!

Anyway mr ng offer to treat me to lunch, but feel a bit pai sai.. so I refused.. Kai kai and jiayi bought me present to give me.. Hee..

Anyway today was supposed to measure e parts using e profile protractor after lunch, but 2 serviceman was repairing it, so couldn't do it.. Then when mr toh saw that i wasn't measuring e parts, he kiddingly threaten me if i don't finish it by today i will have to go home by midnight, and told me if i don't want to stay till midnight have to come tmr.. So no choice coming back tmr. Since i couldn't be irresponsible to throw all e work to come other ppl. Then when they know i m coming back tmr they start teasing me! Hee.. Ai yo.. always have this kind of luck! Say last day then will have to come back e next day to do some work. Then everyone will be so shocked! Hee.. Mr ling treating me and sl to dinner next next fri. So happy. They r really nice ppl. Well.. ok except some..

Feeling weird today. Feel a bit depressed, a bit tired, a bit guilty. The guilty part i really don't know cos i didn't do anything wrong recently. Hee.. But jus have this weird feeling. Maybe cos i m planning to pon orientation tmr, and yet not go to work. Seems like they r rather busy at work. Feel a bit bad when i have to tell them i m not goin to work tmr cos of orientation, but now that i m planning to pon orientation i m not goin to work either. Ai ya it is a complicated feeling. A feeling that i can't comprehend.. Hee.. Maybe too tired ba.. I can't be like some ppl who won't even feel a sense of shame when they put themselves above others. Ai ya.. don't know la..

Went jp to chat with yik and xw. It was rather fun.. Nice get together.. Hee.. Xw and yik we talking abt being afraid to go to sch. Actually i was quite suprised that they r afraid of meeting new ppl too.. I always tot yik and xw adapted v well to our class, and especially xw will always be surrounded by ppl. Hee.. Don't be afraid girls.. I m sure ur will do well.. Will be able to make lots of frens.

Went to watch initial D... Really great! Edison Chen really handsome! The racing scenes quite exciting. The show was rather funny. Hee..

Oh ya won the monster in law contest. Hee.. Will be getting a bracelet and a keychain. Hee.. so happy..