Happy birthday to sl! Ai yo although we gain one year in age we r still young at heart. that is the most important part! Hee.. Hope ur bday wishes come true!

Today when i went to work, passed sl her present. I placed her present into the pure milk box, joyce gave me on my bday. Anyway sl tot we were passing her the shirt again. Hee.. kind of shocked.. But i didn't pass the shirt on la! Anyway gave her a purse and a book and a burned cd of a birthday song. So weird wanted to find normal bday song but all e bday song all v weird. In the end no choice so send her that song! Intial idea was find lots of bday song of diff language, but really can't find.

Well e office ppl were v nice to her.. Gave her pizza bread the size of a cake. anyway happy bday!

Recently feel that my family a lot of problem. Especially this month. First my sis left home, then my mom went crazy. today it is my dad's turn

I was sleeping, then i think he argued with my sis over sth. Then e next moment he woke me up to pack the room. Then he like crazy saw everything on table then anyhow throw on the floor. He even threw e digital cam on the floor lor. WTH! F him la! Hee.. Jus cos he is angry of my sis, vent his anger on us. Then also scold my mom! Wat's his problem lor! being lazy and useless my fault ah!

Honestly i nv want to walk into my mom's footstep. Marrying a bad tempered and lazy man! They say kids usually will marry someone like who their mom married. Hopefully not me!

Seems like some ppl already get their letter from ntu abt university entry. Anyway i didn't get one. Feeling worried and yet helpless cos i can't do anything abt it. Kind of regret that i didn't work hard enough this 2 years. Starting to regret now is very late, no choice already! Anyway now all i can do is see wat road god gives me... And i will jus walk that road. Feeling rather angry at myself for not working hard. Letting those ppl, who appears not as good as me (hee.. so shameless to say this) to beat me. Well it is over.. So wat if i feel jealous and angry. I jus have to live with that fact!

Argue with my mom last nite. Cos i want to go register for a place in SIM in business. Have to gurantee myself a place to go at least. The registration date is ending soon. So if i don't register and i can't get into local uni. then i m dead. Will be a wandering spirit this year. My mom said things like she rather me retake the a'levels. Well in the first place she was the person who discourage me from retaking! Wat the hell! Then she said that my mind is already set on business so i m acting this way! Wat the hell again! My mind is not set on business! If i get into teaching or engineering then i will accept that path! I have to admit my heart sways to business more than anything else, but, registering now is jus to buy a security that i will at least have a place to go to if application fails! She thinks it is so easy to get wat u want! Please la.. I m not god! If i could i would turn back time! Listen to a stupid frens opinion on y business is not good. As if her frens r engineers and they know y engineering is good! I m not going to care abt her.. If she is unwilling to lend me money to go to sim. Then i will take up a student loan! And work part time to support myself. I don't need her for everything! I still have enough savings for the first semester. will work hard for it!

Hmm.. The bangladish workers working there r quite nice. Today so funny. one of e bangladish ask me y i so quiet nv talk. Then i say nth to talk abt ma. Then he started asking me abt my family and stuff. The bangladish workers quite gd looking but i can't really tell e difference between them. Hee.. Then they so funny keep talking abt their country. I m like aren't they from e same country y always talk like they r not.. Ok la.. but i don't really want to work there permantly though they r nice.

I want a change of job!!!

Hee.. many ppl will be surprised to hear this. Cos i seems really happy there. E fact is i m rather happy there, until this thing that came up. Feel rather bu shuang!

The gm came down on mon, and say that e qa office is too crowded so made us go to the sec op side. When we first arrived at the sec op side, they didn't want us either. They say it is too crowded and they kind of argue. But no choice GM is e biggest. Anyway the sec op ppl, Specifically a Toh Suan Choo was rather mean! She told us not to talk at all, and separated us. Anyway so i was in this room with lots of bangladish workers, and a malaysian girl. The workers r rather roudy, but it is ok la. I don't like them to keep teasing mr ong, the guy who is a bit sissy. They keep scolding him in tamil, which i don't understand. And scold him ah gua (pls don't think i understand tamil, cos i don't when they say ah gua, it is really ah gua, not scolding in tamil, cos this lp and sl tot i become so super till i know tamil!)

Ok now abt this toh suan choo. She is merely an engineer. But she is arrogant and loud by nature. And she love pushing the blame to others. She first come in and told me not to talk (wth who to talk to lor! there only bangladish workers! I don't understand tamil can't communicate with them) then later she asked me rudely if was listening to a receiver (pls lor, blind ah, my receiver invisible one ah? And besides i most prob go deaf sooner when she speaks, than when i listen to receiver! Maybe her ears damaged le, so talk so loudly, and hallucinated that she heard music). Then she was telling that girl since i m hear she can command me and make her do wat she wants, so i can help sort her parts. Wth lor! I pretended i didn't hear her. Afterwards she started bragging abt how she always scold her boss. Then she say once in a meeting a big boss scold her, then she v angry then scold her boss, cos he caused her to get scolded. Then say that she demanded an apology or else she will quit. I was thinking.. who will want to keep u.. Quit lor! Better! Oh then she was saying that she used to work at QA then say she pass every goods and no complains. I was thinking no wonder she not working at QA now.

When i got home i told my mom abt suan choo. Then my mom agreed with me if she quit now no1 will care. that girl got attitude problem got a lot of problems with her boss. It is jus that in e pass she has a strong backer. Now she still have a strong backer but he is working at another branch le. So if she threatens to quit, it is sayonara to her!

I asked my mom the reasons that we need to get out of QA she said that the boss found the QA room too untidy. But i told her it is rather inefficient to work at e sec op side cos we have to move e goods up and down the stairs. Then my mom asked if i talk during work. I told her sometimes yes, then she say maybe some ppl complain. Wat the hell lor. These ppl have double standards! Their own workers can talk and laugh the whole day, and us temp stuff have to suffer this fate. It is not like we become less efficient cos we talk. Ok i admit it is our fault cos we talk, but i don't like how they handled things. They could have jus told us. Chinese saying "ming ren bu zuo an shi" People with a clean conscience will not do sneaky things. I don't know who is complaining secretly but, it is seriously disgusting. And don't come and play ur office politics on me! I m innocent! Don't do this stuff on me jus because ur don't like my mom or anything!

Hmm.. now with office politics, we can quit when we want to. But in e future seriously have to deal with it every day. hai.. this is life. Hopefully sakae have a place for me. Then maybe i will go there and work when sl finish her attachment period. At least now got companionship. If not then i think i will continue tolerating them.

Today went escape to celebrate mh and sl bday! Happy birthday both of ur! Had a lot of fun! Fun chatting with everyone, and fun from the rides! Hee.. although i get easily giddy from the rides.

Hee.. when we meet at the mrt station i went to scare mh. Walked up to her and say.. miss r u waiting for anybody. Hee.. she got a shock! Then later ah.. that xinyi late again! Hee.. we chat in e train like nobody's business. Know a lot of gossip abt ppl i have nv seen before... Haha..

When we reach escape we took e invertor first. Hee.. sl tot it would be scary and started screaming, but it was ok la v giddy only. then we went to take e indoor roller coaster, my leg keep bumping into xinyi's.. Hee.. so sorry! Took viking, it was really giddy...

And we had fun playing gold cart! At first I was supposed to drive but i was kind of afraid so ask sl to drive while i be e passenger. Then hee.. we cause traffic accident when we go up e slope we couldn't make it then keep sliding down. The person behind us bang into us, wa.. impact huge! Then e person behind the person behind us also bang into the person behind us. Hee.. but from sl experience i know where to accelerate le.. So the next time i drive i know. I think sl didn't feel safe in my hands! Hee.. Oh ya i bump joyce and mh, sorry sorry! oh ya e stupid guy in charge of the beginner track didn't let joyce drive. Then later he also said that joyce is fat! so bad! When we go to e advance track, we all drove! Hee.. I think we r all considered rather good drivers! Hee.. during parking during one race mh bang into me. Oh then during one race me and joyce keep trying to overtake mh, but she ah v greedy take both lanes. Hee.. then kind of cause some banging. but anyway j and i managed to overtake her. It is not because mh is slow, but it is because her car is slow. J and my car quite fast.

At night we went to have swensen at tampiness mall. Sy joined e 5 of us. Sy ah.. now really built lor! Hee.. don't know if she will be angry when i say that. Anyway had a fun dinner, catch up a lot! Oh then when we go to the toilet, e toilet choke ah. Then when joyce press e flush, water started coming out from the toilet then i saw e person in e other cubicle lift her leg up! Hee.. anyway we ran out immediately. Then we start talking abt toilet and stuff.. Hee.. Really funny..

So fun being with this group of gals. Funny things will always happen! Have to go out more often!

Today my sis li jia chu zou... I shall start from e beginning..

I was taking a nap till 10pm. Heard my sis and mom arguing abt sth. Don't really know wat they were arguing. It seems like they were arguing abt a red pen. Hee.. Don't know la.. Jus remember my mom ignoring my sis, and she getting v pissed off. Then saw her left home. I kind of blur of wat is happening. Jus woke up feel v goggy and sleepy. Then i remember crying cos hate it when they argue. when they exchange so many hurtful words. Hee.. Anyway in a moment of anger, my mom jus didn't care abt her. Think she was worried but didn't admit it.

Called my sis and message her but she didn't reply. My sis took her bag and phone when she left. Anyway went to the room and checked saw her fav bear and pillow. Hee.. used that to trick her back. Told her that e bear and pillow misses her. Anyway it kind of work cos she replied to my message. She told me she was at e playground. I didn't know if i should go down. Cos i have to calm my mom down, and yet worry abt her. I don't want to seem like i m taking sides. And i believe that she will come back la. Then when i decided to go down she came back.

They have a cold war, but everything seems better now.

Earlier in e morning lp, sl and i were having a conversation abt bringing children up. And i say i hope that i can take care of my kids, or let my parents take care of them. Cos i don't want them to one day blame me for not taking care of them when they were young. Maybe sl and lp can't feel y i feel so strongly, cos their mother r housewives, and have stayed by their side all the time. They don't know wat it is like to wake up early to go to someone's place, and hoping so much that ur mom can be with u. And i heard how pain it was for my mom to leave us at someone else place. oh ya the point is, my sis said sth v hurtful to my mom. She said sth like u didn't look after me when i was young and.... I don't know wat else she said. Hee.. my mom told me that she didn't look after me when i was young too but i didn't become naughty either. When she said that i tot that it is true la.. I don't blame her, afterall it is hard for her to leave me at someone's place too, and she have to support the family too. But i always feel so sad when she left. When i was 3 she sent to a daycare centre, and i remember i always sat at a corner and cry. Once i lied to her, almost made her lose her stop to work so that i hope she can be with me longer. Hee.. but it didn't work.

Hee.. conclusion is i honestly don't want to look after my children and become a person who knows nothing abt the soceity, but i also don't want to leave my children in e hands of anyone else, and give them bad memories from their childhood. There is perfect solution to this problem. I think that all mothers in this world r great! Whether they r housewives or working moms. I believe that they jus want the best for their child. So let's salute all mothers!

Last week, sl came for attachment! Yea so glad she came. That girl v blur ah. The first day of work when she go herself, she lose her way then ask strangers, luckily mr ling saw her and brought her to e office safely. Then the next day she forgot how to go again, then saw mr ling again, then mr ling pointed to her the correct way, she still pretend that she know her way. Haha.. she really v cute and funny. Oh ya sl told me a big gossip. sl saw a guy with xw. Hee..

Oh ya, when kenny called sl she didn't know he was calling her. Like me that time. When kenny call me xiao jie, i tot he was calling someone else, then when he call me xiao mei then i reacted! Hee.. so funny. Kenny call sl xiao jie she also never react.

When we went home yesterday a guy from the office gave us a lift. The jap guy from e office helped us open the door, then when we were in the car he introduced himself expecting us to introduce ourselves, but the four of us blurly sat there, and didn't say anything, jus stare at him blankly! Hee.. so funny! Hmm.. think that the jap guy a bit weird don't really like him, cos he kind of look perverted, like those di gou. Hee..

Lots of funny things happen in our office but i can't really remember hee.. when i can remember i will write more about it.

Happy april fools day!

This is the first time i confess to 2 guys i like them, and e confession message is not even typed by me! Hee..

Anyway today is april fools day so lp suggest we trick the guys. Hee.. Lp suggested tricking wei jie. But i refused, cos i m v afraid wj will think that i m in love with him for v long, I m rather scared that he will take it for real. So i suggested tricking wei ming instead. Since i know wei ming like someone already, and i know he will never like me, and he also knows that i will never like him. So we sent him a message about i like him and whether we would be my boyfriend ( wei ming v despo, so we know that weakness so messaged him! Hee.. to wei ming: don't be so love sick anymore!) Anyway since he is in the army he can't reply immediately.

After thinking for v long, lp still feel tat it will be more fun to trick wj. I relented after lp persuaded me for a long time. I made lp promise to add a happy april fools day at the bottom of the message, and made her promise to help me out if they start teasing me and him. So we sent him a message. Anyway i think wj seems shocked haha.. although his reaction was haha.. i not falling for the trick.

Well i message wm at night telling him that i m jus kidding and playing an april's fool joke on him. That guy act blur lor. Next morning then say he only received the message in the morning. Don't pretend lor! i know u received! Hee.. can't believe he took it for real! Anyway really funny!

If i have offended anyone from my april fool joke sorry! blame lp too! Hee.. Anyway i have already planned my next year april fool joke hopefully can carry it out... well anyway hope everyone had fun this april's fool