Dvd recorder, work and stuff

Yea!!! i managed to fix e dvd recorder. was damn pissed off this few days.. couldn't figure it out. jus feel like throwing the damn thing. yup yea yea.. can record shows now.... ahhahahahah...

Gosh i was quite upset that day cos realised i m being underpaid. as in not really underpaid, but actually i can get much more paid. next time i will definately ask for more!!! anyway ya.. felt a bit gek sim.. but this job is better than la.. can slack more and well less tiring on e legs.

Anyway today i super slack. got a problem with e system. so i watched a video. since they ask me to sit there fa dai. might as well watch my shows while waiting. i have a rm by myself. don't ask me y so good. but ya.. completely no1 to supervise me. but i m not a terrible person unlike some ppl. i only slack when i ask them many times if they have things for me to do and they say no.. hahahah.. it was so funny. i think they find me irritating. cos everytime when i stand behind them and ask if there is anything to do, they will say don't stand behind them like a statue. so i went down to my little office to wait for them. e pregnant lady even funnier when she was around she told me to read a book if i m bored.. hahahahaha.. and imagine the pregnant lady is e head.

e other 2 acct stuff says that e pregnant lady treat me quite well. i have to admit it is quite true. but i realised it is cos i will talk to her and well stuff.. i mean i think this is v impt when u work. u need not be a capable worker but u need to know how to talk to ppl. the pregnant lady is not so nice to e other girl. cos well e other girl is oso not nice to her as in doesn't talk to her much. There r only 2 kinds of ppl. one who use mouth to work and if u don't know how to do that u must be v capable in ur work.

oh ya this co v scandalous. hahahha.. i suppose i m kaypoh i only worked for 2 wks previously and i already know lots of gossip. like got 2 sales stuff who r both married to other ppl but they r together. wa lao.. damn luan gao lor!!!! disgusting. Then i oso know who everyone hate. the sales manager and e mkting guy. hahahahha.. I oso know the sales manager is only a manager cos he got backing. his dad is rich. hahhaha... oh ya e sales manager is completely useless he delegates all his work to his sales stuff, then things he is supposed to do he hand it to someone else. then everyone wonder what does he actually does? well our conclusion is his job is to act busy.. hahahahha... really la.. he v ah gong one. then everyone give him attitude. then he doesn't act like a manager at all. hahahhaa.. actually he completely match my first impression of him when i look at him he looks like a playboy then got those rich kid look. i tot this guy must be useless a flower pot. and i was so right. gosh, my first impression is somehow always right. hahaha

oh ya last sat went out with hq, yik and elin. ok elin was unplanned for. suddenly walk then saw her. hahahha.. anyway it was quite fun la. though i can't rmb wat we did... it is always fun being with them. when we were at crystal jade the chicken was half cooked and hq food got ammonia smell. anyway it was quite terrible. later i was talking to hq then mid sentence i burp!!! so pai sai.. hahahah.. but it was good hq was rather tired and e ammonia smell woke him up... hee... anyway i think everyone seem v tired that day. everyone of us seem to be stoning.

shopping for present.

went shopping with elin yik and xw yest to get someone's prez. anyway nv knew shopping could be so not fun... hahahhaha.. when it is not shopping for urself it is really not fun! we were supposed to buy hq a bday prez. so half the time we had trouble pulling ourselves out of the ladies dept to go to the men dept to buy things...

i nv knew guys prez could be so hard to buy. whenever we had anything kiv i would suggest we buy it.. hahhahah... escaping fr my duties. anyway legs were really about to give way. until abt 8pm we couldn't get anything. we didn't even had dinner... we only had dinner after we got the prez...

anyway it was fun to be out with the girls. elin really can't rmb our jc stuff.. hahahah... was super tired on mon cos of the shopping.. gosh walking zombie these days. especially since it is raining i don't want to go to work!!!

Busy, call centres r irritating

went out on sun last wk with mh, joyce and sl. it was supposedly to celebrate mh and sl very belated bday. so anyway evon was not coming but didn't sms to say. before that me and sl went shopping. and again i bought a lot of stuff.. I really think it is the work stress causing me to spend. or maybe my wallet is bringing me spending abilities.. hahahha.. my mom say that there is a superstition where if this wallet is helping u make money don't keep changing it. so i supposed this wallet is making me spend! i think i have to change a new wallet so that i would spend less.. hahahahah.. i m blaming on everything else except me.

wanted to go jack's place! but it has already closed down!(i mean the orchard branch) super duper sad! so we went billy bombers. the portion was quite huge and when joyce complained that her steak was not cook enough they gave her a completely new set.. the food was ok la.. but jack's place would be better!!! had a pleasant day...

oh ya yest i called up visa/master, nets and amex merchant service to check abt the installation of the terminals at a new location. the dbs one was quite nice. but he was rather blur. fortunately i called back to check. nets was ok.. amex was the worst! i think they outsource their call centres to india. hee.. i m not sure though. but a indian lady speak to me and i was freaking pissed off with her. i don't have anything against this race, but it jus so happen that this indian lady spoke to me so i guessed they outsource it there.. anyway ya.. she was freaking rude in a polite manner. and she had my name so she was repeating my name in every other sentence!!! damn irritating la... it was like okey miss amanda we will fax it over. so miss amanda wat u r trying to say is u don't need this. ok miss amanda... it was like fuck u fuck u fuck u. stop repeating my name!!!!! and even more stupid thing is that i m calling to enquire abt things. but it is like she is asking more questions than me. i m answering more question than she is answering my questions. the worse thing is i couldn't even bud in cos she was going on and on... seriously if she was speaking to me in person i would have slap her! and also she keeps rephrasing wat i said, it was really pissing me off. it was like she doesn't ans my question but jus rephrasing my questions. The funniest part is that when i asked her if there would be any charges if i install the amex system but don't use it yet.. Then it was like she keep asking me y i would want to install then not use it.. hello, u know wat is prepartory work, must prepare the system and get everything goin b4 using it. in e end she didn't answer my question jus transferred me to another centre. then the stupid person at the other centre irritatedly told me she couldn't answer my question and transferred me back! i really want to complain to amex about it! damn. I seriously know y call centre ppl get yelled at! they r freaking stupid! as in like all 3 none of them could properly answer my question and yet they have to be so freaking rude. gosh... i was asking them quite nicely, but towards the 3rd or 4 th question when they were treating me like an idiot i was really pissed off. it is like pls appreciate ppl who speak nicely to u...

Work

a few days ago i was still complaining abt not much work to do. today a small mountain is building up at the side of my desk. hahahah.. then b4 i left the lady told me she already have wat i will be going to do next wk planned out. ai yo.. good la.. but well there is also a lot of things that i have not finish doin. though she keep telling me i can do those later. there r at least 3-4 things i m going to do later.

hahahah.. it is like i realised i do things really slowly. as in i will really take my time to do it. then when she say must finish this b4 goin hm... suddenly my fingers become faster.. hahahahha.. but well i like taking my time, though a mountain is building up.

oh ya yest v funny. cos the pregnant lady everyone dislike her. as in she is the head or sth. then anyway yest they say they were goin to go out with Christian for lunch. then the lady asked me if i want to go with her. so i said yes. then after that she keep asking me if i want to c if Christian's car got space for me. hahahha... but well actually i don't mind eating with her. it is jus lunch. honestly i m used to eating lunch alone during laura ash, so i don't feel weird eating alone. then like i previously said everyone dislike her as in the other 2 girls don't really like her. so they keep asking me how was lunch with her. whether she got talk to me. i was like ai yo.. of course we got talk la. abt sch and laura ash and stuff..

I suddenly realised if u r at the top u r really lonely. the ppl u r in charge off wouldn't like u, wouldn't like to lunch with u. cos they like gossiping abt u and the company. so when u r around they can't gossip. then also i can go out for lunch with the lady and not feel awkward cos i m new. so she can ask abt sch and stuff. but i jus wonder how fast our topic would run out. hahahah.. i suppose very soon.

I realised a lot of ppl at the top know how to cope with ppl disliking them or having to be alone. i guess that is the bad part about having a high position. when i m working i really feel that i m here to work not here to make friends. so i can be super fake to those ppl at times.


oh ya i think i mentioned b4. there r 2 ppl in e mkting dept. a lady and a guy. the lady is the guy's superior. anyway, the guy was disturbing me. keep saying hi amanda, hi amanda whenever i walk pass him. then that day during lunch his manager told him not to disturb me... hahahah.. then he dare not disturb me anymore. then today i was in e photocopy rm printing things. then i was signing. then the guy was there, then he asked me if i need help. then he keep reinforcing that he jus wants to help not to disturb me.. hahahahha.. i really scared him i guess. hahahhahah... but i seriously don't like to talk to guys. especially ppl who r a nuisance.

fish with co.

today was rather unwilling to go work. but went anyway. was looking forward to meet them at night

it was really funny mh and sl were at kino. i was at popular orchard changing my assessment bk then i went kino find them they came popular to find me. in they went topshop ask me to find them. then i said i go zara first. they don't want to keep missing me so came zara find me.. hee.. so funny la...

that poor xy had a bad day. left her wallet in office. then well we went fish and co to eat. supposed to shop. in e end we jus had dinner tgth. was really full! had seafood platter. anyway we kept refilling the drinks and talking... mh really have a cute family her ah ma and mom so cute. they went orchard to meet mh sis for lunch. then after they took train hm. they v blur. take the to jurong east side. so ended up at jurong east. the funny thing is fr jurong east u sld change to clementi. in the end reached boon lay then they realised wrong train. hahahah..

after we met joyce after work to go hm tgth. ended up talking till quite late. so nice talking to them. so fun and funny... They always have really funny stories to share. i really feel happy being with them...

we had our first impression of one another, but we realised we r not wat our first impression seem. we like each other so we became good friends. hee.. i guess ppl who hate each other at first and grow to accept each other then they will be close friends and good friends. because only when u find someone who can accept ur faults and u in turn can accept their faults, only then u will find true friends. of course u have to give and receive. when u give, of course u will expect to receive. if u don't give u won't receive. so if u don't try to keep in contact with ppl, then well u won't have frens.

I really feel very touched and grateful to have my sec sch frens, pri sch frens and jc frens and teresa with me. i can't imagine my life without them. they say as u grow older u have less fren. cos growing up complicates things. u will have keep ur guard up, be less sincere cos u know how the way the world works. oh ya.. thanks all my frens for being my frens. tolerating my weird temperaments, tolerating me.. i know i will never be near to perfect and i m full of flaws, in fact if u look closely u might feel that i don't have any good points. hee.. but thanks for being there for me. i really don't know y i m so lucky to have good frens, though i m so weird. hee...

oh ya today we were talking abt work. really everyone agree le. working ppl all very free. they love engaging in politics. and they get angry at each other for the slightest reason. ai yo.. so weird la.. it is like u r here to work not play politics. i don't know if i can deal with it in e future. now i always tell myself jus bear with it going back to sch soon.. in e future wat m i goin to tell myself? can bare with it for the money? jus bear with it for the kids? ai yo... wat r adults thinking anyway??? the tot of goin to work makes me sick.

Caring too much...

hmm... rather unhappy lately, might be due to work or pms.. i would have to say to some extent better than laura ash. well there r pros and cons... very hard to explain...

I realised there r 2 kinds of ppl. ppl who care too much, and ppl with bo chap attitude. it is seriously hard to gauge who will succeed in the end. cos luck and fate comes into play at times. all i can say is i fall into the first category. i m, most likely, a person who takes this world too seriously. at times i really hate it. like this job for eg... i really don't think i m of any help. and i really feel so upset! I really hate asking ppl for things to do. then when their instructions r not clear i can't ask them again, bcos they r really irritated, they r too busy to slowly give me instructions, but if they don't give me instructions there is nth i can do.

it is like i yue bang yue mang. like they ask me to do sth didn't give me proper instruction in e end i do wrong they have to do it again. then it is like if they use the time they spent giving me instruction to do the work itself it will be a whole lot faster... gosh i really feel so redundant there and i m really feeling very guilty but i can't do anything to help. i feel so helpless!!! I m super upset. i feel so useless!

I think work is so different to studies. studies u r held accountable to yourself. so even if u choose to do badly that's ur own business. btw that is a stupid choice, cos u r only wasting ur time, money and effort, but then that is ur choice. but work is diff, u r accountable to the company. u know how kua zhang is e acc dept? it is like u have to shred the paper if u photocopy wrongly, in case ppl steal info or sth. the responsibility of working is quite huge.

sometimes i really wish i m those bo chap ppl. can take mc as and when they want. slack during work hours. those ppl r really li hai. can do all these without feeling guilty. like my ex manager said u r paid to do work. so even if u r going to go off soon, u should work hard. though that is of course from the point of view of a manager, but well... i guess it applies to me too.

actually i m rather upset with this colleague. she ask me to do work, she jus impatiently give her instruction. i will take precaution not to do wrong things. so i would usually repeat to the person on wat she said. then everytime i repeat her instruction she will be like ya ya ya. then in e end i surely do wrong de lor! then the thing is u scold me ok la... then must be so sarcastic. i know she is busy. but don't she knows by not giving me proper instruction she is jus doubling her work. i jus wonder y some ppl have such a problem explaining sth so easy...

the weird thing is when other ppl explain to me i can understand and do it correctly. but when it comes to the work this lady gives me i jus can't do it properly. so is it really my problem or her problem. i really wonder. even the person with higher position than her ask me to do things i oso understand le.

This thought came to me. It does not solely applies to that lady. A person who have problem delegating is not a good manager and leader. i mean if u keep all the work to urself and is unwilling to teach ppl abt ur work. then u will have to run a one man show which will be taxing to u. Furthermore, a manager is definately not a person who is running a one man show. even a sole proprietor delegates. In conclusion, this person will nv acheive anything great. the funny thing with this ppl is, they r unwilling to let ppl help but complains when they get too much work. ironic isn't it? this applies to my assis manager too. i guess the theory doesn't really applies to her. cos the only reason she complains is to show off she got a lot of work to do. when u start working u really meet with all kinds of weird ppl. I don't like working! i observe too much, m too sensitive!


Gosh that day my tuition kid scared me. she started crying.. ai yo.. i didn't scold her ah! i swear i didn't. she cried cos she got the comprehension completely wrong. it was like she was sitting beside me then she turned her chair away fr me. i knew sth was wrong. then her fren say wen hui looks like she is goin to cry. then wen hui burst out crying. ai yo.. i was really panicking. i nv taught ppl until they cry b4.. i really wanted to cry when she cried.. i know i m so useless. hahaha.. luckily she stopped after a while. so afraid that her mom would fire me. that day she and her fren said that i m v lenient to them... ai yo.. that's y they getting naughtier.

gosh gosh... i really feel so useless. i m not cut out for an office job. neither m i a good teacher.. ahh.. wat can i be in the future?! seriously i jus wonder how ppl survive on office job. an office job is super boring! service line is super tiring. i want to be a tai tai.. hahahhaha... gosh... i really jus think my existence is jus wasting of oxygen food and water. Furthermore i eat a lot and still bag and bones. i m super waste of food! ok la.. at least i m compact so won't waste much space... hahahahaha...

anyway this guy in my office v irritating. keep saying hi amanda. then i will jus ignore him cos i know he is teasing me. then cos i didn't ans him he keep trying it over and over again. hahahah.. until today his manager told him not to disturb me.. don't think she don't know... oh ya the general manager is young, pretty and married... gosh.. y do some ppl have it all?! really leh.. it seems like all a manager does is sign documents and go out chit chat with ppl. ai yo..

ok ok i m rambling too much. i jus need to fa xie.. anyway this is my journal. i want to laugh at myself one day when i read this. hahahhahaha...

shopping queen

yesterday went sushi buffet with sl sakae really sux. but ya... we had a great talk over lunch. she bought me lot's of stuff fr hk... so i was quite happy. anyway i spent a lot yesterday!!!! i bought a lot of tops for work today. cos can only wear formal stuff and well to be on the save side have more shirts.. bought like 3 or 4 shirts.. quite happy. the shirt i bought from zara was really expensive!!! and i bought a short sleeve jacket that i really like but well really expensive.. hahaha.. i m such a spendthrift. i bought books too. but feel so happy shopping.. really the best way to destress...

anyway there is a cleo promotion kose having their moisturiser at $7. i used it yesterday and found it really quite good. gosh super tempted to buy. furthermore they r having discounts this month for their anniversary. but one bottle cost $100+... really don't know if i will bear to buy it.. i need to buy fancl washing powder too!!! they too r having a promotion.. damn damn... no money liao already spent a lot yesterday. it looks like i m goin to spend somemore.. ahh.... so idiotic.. but i caluculated this month i will ear $1000+ so i could spend right? jus spending future money. hahahah.. oh no... when did i become so terrible. i hate it!!! or ya furthermore we have the gst thing this month we r supposedly $200 richer.. ya la.. i shall jus buy it since promotion month.. oh no and the $200 was supposed to last for 2 yrs.. i m spending it like right away.. gosh gosh.. i guess i can only go window shopping this month.. don't ask me out please.. or else i will be broke soon. i don't want to see the money in my bank account go down!!! ahh.. i m crapping.. hahahaha...

first day at mini cooper

yup i m working there now.. really grateful to yin yin for helping me get this job. must treat her to lunch one day...

anyway the job is quite ok. more like an admin job. cos i spent most of the day in the photocopying room photocopying stuff... now i m pro at photocopying.. hahahaha.. but actually quite ok la.. i quite like photocopying. cos can stare into space while photocopying. hahahaha.. basically the place is 2 storey. i bet ur ever c it when ur pass by redhill. the mini cooper showrm is 2 levels. the 2nd level is the office. but i think cos the person in charge of me is pregnant so our office is downstairs. anyway have to keep goin to the 2nd floor to get stuff fr the other acct assis. then it is like walking to and fro can also be quite fun..i think i at least walked 5-6 times.... but at least i get to walk around. hahahha.. the toilet is damn cool. oh ya actually with more work i feel better as time pass faster. i was shocked at how quickly time passes. i tot time would go slowly when u r doin admin. but maybe it is the first day that's y time seems to fly to me. anyway the accountant is jus beside me so i can't slack or fall asleep, though after lunch i was quite sleepy

This job is so much better than laura ash. at least at the moment. at least i don't have to care about the politics or live in fear almost everyday wondering if i will get into trouble soon. though i try my best to do well at laura ash, but somehow i always feel laura ash is quite strict. as in u could be penalized for any small mistake u make and that is really stressful. and when e managers and full timers r not around i m the "biggest" feel like the responsibility can be quite big. since i will get scolded for anything they do wrong. and furthermore, we r all students and thus a playful gang, would get into trouble easily and i can't stop them from getting into trouble.

life at the moments/ feelings about things

last tue after work went to tuition my 2 pri 2 girls... ai yo... although they r really cute, sometimes i really will lose my patience tutoring them. i don't know whether it is due to being too tired. it is like one of them jus refuses to try. she jus look at the question and say i don't know.. then when i explain to her without even thinking for a second she kept saying she don't know. honestly i was really angry though i didn't scold her. cos i really hate it that u r giving up before even trying. and here i m trying my best to explain to u, but u refuse to listen. i was seriously angry. the other one while i was trying to teach this one she keep asking me questions... ai yo.. teacher only have one mouth and one brain. i can't explain 2 diff questions to 2 diff ppl at the same time...

i realised.. when we were young, we don't really care about the process of learning, we jus care about the answers. it is jus like the two of them. don't even think or listen to me carefully, jus wanting to get the answers correct. i honestly don't like ppl who have nv learnt to listen. to me, these people are not caring enough, more self centered, more impatient. when i m saying this i m not referring to the 2 little girls. cos the girls r still young.. i m sure they will grow to listen when they are older.

second thing. i m going to quit la and go somewhere else to work. i don't know whether it is me or the ppl. i m quitting so i feel that everyone is so nice to me. hahahaha.. i jus feel that my burdan has lighten. really like talking to the manager and designer. they r very interesting and sincere people. frankly, i don't like the way some new comers work, but i suppose cos they r new so they don't do things too well. i heard that the newcomers were a bit upset that the managers like us more than they like them, but well. u can't change the fact that at the moment we do things better than ur. and the managers don't like ppl who complain. that's wat i have learnt very well so i jus keep my mouth shut though i feel like complaining. actually other than the schedule the reason i want to leave might be a change of environment. seriously v bored with the things here already. and ya.. i seriously hate the assis manager. really feel like slapping her recently. the most fake and awful person i have known!!!

recently things happened at our shop. then she die die must know wat happened. it is like ppl don't want to tell u have their reasons. then y u die die must know. not like it is about u. then she went to ask the girl. when the girl refused to tell her she keep bugging the girl. keep asking her are u ready to tell me now. fuck u la.. i will never be ready to tell u till u land in the coffin. then she keep saying i m concerned about you. ya right! more like u want to know for gossip sake. i seriously think she got a mental problem. jus bcos she is the assis manager she feels that she have to know all the gossip of the part timers then try to bribe us to tell her by giving us presents. shit la.. i would rather tell the manager myself than tell u and let u spread rubbish about me!!! really can't stand her. i jus feel like rolling my eyes when she is around recently. super angry... hopes she get into trouble. oh no, i m so evil!!! but watever la!

exams stuff

have to choose the subjects i m goin to take next yr soon. gosh i m really worried. cos to graduate u have to pass at least 11 subjects to get honours classification. and i think i will fail managerial econs. so it means the four subjects i m about to choose i must be confident to pass them. gosh super worried now. i m really quite sure i will fail me. cos i really didn't know how to do the questions although i cracked my head to do it. anyway watever it is have to work harder next yr.. it is my last yr. i must at least get 3rd class honours or else wat is the point of studying here. and i won't be able to find a good job in the future.. gosh gosh... i hate thinking about the future. my future seems to be going to sux!

ahh.... hate life! life sux.. been spending a lot recently.. trying to make myself feel happier fr spending.. but seriously i don't know if i m seriously happy. i have to say i m not sad la. nth to be sad about. but well i m not exactly happy either. jus feeling v bored of my life at the moment. though of course i don't want my life to be interesting either. i m really such a ma fan person!!! but recently it is really weird.. i tear when i watch almost any show which is a little touching. i cried when i watch jia you jin shun.. ai yo.. i feel so auntie!!!!

yea... sl is back!!!! super happy! jus so glad to c her.. can talk non stop.. but of course can't go shopping non stop... hee.. but i don't know.. hope my life progresses smoothly...