My last piano lesson for now..

Hmm.. Decided to give piano up temporary... Feel very depressed today.. when i went to my piano teacher's place, i really felt like this is going to be the last time i am playing this piano, playing this tune, last time for her to scold and nag at me.

Actually I like playing the piano a lot.. But after 9 years of not much improvement and now with lesser time, it is becoming a burden to me. Hmm.. I m taking acca soon. Next wk in actual fact. With jap class and acca, really feel kind of tired plus after work. Feel very upset and angry of myself of giving it up. But actually really no time to practice and after years of no improvement, it is getting frustrating and tiring. Sometimes when you feel so incompetent in something you like, it gets so discouraging. And practicing on the few notes you play badly, so many times, that you forget to enjoy the song. So tired of piano lessons so decided to give it up.

Still it is not easy to give up something you like that badly. No matter how many excuses i give myself to give it up i still feel angry and upset at myself. You will ask, then y do u give it up. But i m really really very tired, goin to lessons after work is so exhausting, and no time to practice, plus acca... In e end i chose bread over interest. To give up something i like to take up something i don't like tat much but something that is more practical. Give up on practising, give up on dragging myself to lessons after a tiring day of work. When did i become such a quitter. I really want to take it back up after i complete e acca course, but i really don't know how long that would be. I still love playing the piano though i m super bad at it... Hate life when you never seem to have enough time. Somehow as you grow older you seem to give up things u like for practicality. Damn, i m becoming the person i hate. hopefully i will remember this post in 3 yrs time and take up piano again.