Feel so depressed.... Hee.. jus finish watching e korean show stained glass... e ending really made me feel depress... A lot of things have happened recently... I seriously feel so depress... Maybe i jus recover fr my illness, so still feel a bit weak and tired. so get so emotional so easily... But i seriously feel so unhappy with life... Feel like there is no hope in life... Realise maybe i have given up living properly fr a long time already. don't feel motivated at all.. i don't even feel happy going to taiwan. gosh i really hope i get out of this emotion quickly... i don't want to ruin e trip for other ppl... And gosh i need e energy or else i can't work at all... hai... somebody get me out of this! Really feel so empty...

Really really pissed off.. so angry tat i feel like cussing and swearing! damn it! if my entry gets to vulgar pls forgive me i m really pissed off.

Damn it.. someone complained to the am abt me and clara. complained that we didn't pack e store when she ask us to.. wat the fuck! we got packed lor. at first cos it was only 10min left to us knocking off. and well she was smiling when she ask us to pack. so we tot she was kidding... unfortunately she was not. wat the hell. when we got in we did pack. i have to admin not v clean. but it was only freaking 10min wat do u expect me to do...ssssssshit. if u have a problem with us say it to our face la... Anyway am was unreasonable too. didn't listen to my explanation jus jump to conclusion. watever lor.... i did wat i have to do. believe it or not. shit la.. wat kind of am is she... jus judge ppl on 1 side of the story. seriously the person who told on us might be kidding... so take it so seriously for wat. jus now do payroll oso treat me like criminal. hello i can't ot ah? damn it... if you don't believe that i ot, then don't give me the hours la... i m not a beggar. i won't care abt $3. and besides i deserve every dollar of my work. some ppl jus sit down and do nth and expect sales to drop in their lap. but me.. i m considered the least slack one. if i m gone seriously it is ur loss. My fren is trying to pull me over to a skin care counter. the pay is better, work is easier. wat the hell. maybe i should jus resign and go over. go get a life la, stop bugging me.

A lof of things happened recently. good things and not so good things. haha.. ok i did many funny things due to my blurness.. i m sure a lot of ppl will be thinking as always when they read this. But seriously the blur disease can't be cured! i don't know how to get it cure!

Ok tell ur the funny things first. That day i was selling garments to a customer. cos we usually only have one of each size, so the manicun( the fake doll thing, i can't spell it) will be wearing one size, and if the customer ask for the size u have to strip the manicun literally. haha.. anyway so i striped the manicun, as the customer wanted to try on the blouse the manicun was wearing. later she bought the blouse. so i was clearing the clothes she tried on, but decided not to buy. i managed to tidy the place. but at the back of my mind i think i forgot sth, but i seriously can't rmb wat i forget. When i was walking out of the shop to the toilet, i realised the manicun was undressed. haha... oh gosh i forgot to dress it up. so imagine and bald manicun with her nipples sticking out. haha... oh gosh... anyway when i dressed her back up, when i was putting on her wig i put centre parting. then my manager say, the manicun is side parting, centre putting v ugly! then i say ok ma. then my manager ask me y don't i comb my hair centre parting... haha...

that day got new ppl so i taught them how to do stuff. i don't think i m a v good teacher! my colleague say that i m a v spontanous teacher, cos i will jus suddenly remember sth haha.. then will tell them.

Gosh there is this new guy.. he is kinda irritating! He is really rather petty. then unlike other guys he don't like to do manual work, he like to do sales. then it is like at times he jus cut in when you are doin sales and to be frank it is kinda irritating. but we oso kinda bad la.. a bit bully him. cos that day there was no customer, then there was only his customer. so me and clara helped him serve. as in he could have serve her all by himself without our help but we kapo go and help him. anyway the customer bought a lot so it was ok to share sales. the customer bought $1284. so 3 ppl share actually still a lot. then cos he was knocking off, so i helped him do delivery. so really he sld have shared with me. i deserve this sales as much as him.

Then today when i asked him to help me move carton. cos there was only clara and me in the shop so i asked him to move the stuff himself. then he told me wa.. after he share sales with me this is how i treat him. wa... super pissed off.. i rather not share if he keep using that stupid sales to attack me. then he quite unmanly. cos ahh.. sometimes we have to move cartons on the top shelve. then you have to climb on the ladder to reach the top. then he was like telling my other colleague, teresa u climb la.. u lighter fall won't so pain. then later ah heard a loud sound fr the storeroom. he fall off the ladder. that day when i was asking him to move some cartons up the ladder he was like y don't u go up the ladder i help u to hold it... i was like wat????!!! then he is super competitive in sales... then it was like i don't know la.. cos to be frank i m rather concern abt my sales too. cos i have nv hit target b4.. so i want to work hard to hit it. at least hit it once.

Hee.. now i want more shifts becos i will have more sales.. hee.. and oso more money la.. did sth quite wrong today.. i shouldn't have kapo. cos was curious abt my ex colleague pay.. cos she was always saying that her pay is higher than whoever.. so since she is gone. i went to open her payslip... oh gosh.. i hope my colleagues won't tell on me. i trust teresa la... cos she won't harm me for sure. but clara's bf who is oso working there quite big mouth one... if clara tell him i scared he tell the world! shit la.. now i don't know if i should remind her not to tell.. cos maybe she have already forget, then if i remind her she will suddenly remember. but if i don't i scared he will say mindless things... hai.. shit.. i should keep my curiosity to myself.. afterall curiosity killed the cat... shucks! oh gosh.. pray pray nth goes wrong.. i jus want peace!