Life/Friends & stuff

Lately, I don't know whether it is because I have too much free time on my hand, been thinking a lot..

It is really strange how some people we managed to befriend. People who might not like us at first, and we may not like, but overtime they start to grow on us and we got used to their eccentrics and somehow they become part of us. Some people who you never know whether they have ever treated you as friend and whether you are disposable to them.. Some friends who you know will never learn to trust you, and at times you will wonder if such a person is considered a friend.

I could not tolerate a friend who doesn't trust me, someone who suspects my loyalty. I could not tolerate someone who is suspicious of my intention when I show my concern. I could not tolerate a friend who have too much pride and is thus afraid of any frank opinion. I don't think friendship can be built on lies.

If I were to lost any friend on the above characteristics frankly i would be a little sad, but I will live with it.. Because maybe we weren't friends to begin with.

Frankly I am very grateful for friends who were always there for me. Friends whom I fight with but still together. Friends who might hate my character and guts at times, but still accepting, because they know it is never my intention to hurt anybody. Friends who never second guess me...What would I do without such people in my life?? I think I would die...

Miscommunication

As I started working I realised a lot of miscommunication comes when 说者无心，听者有意。Maybe sometimes it is the other way... I realised there are some people that are very afraid of misunderstanding or gossip that will arise from this miscommunication and there are people who do not care. I am a person who do not care. Not that I like gossiping, when we listen to info about some ppl, naturally if it is interesting or funny you would want to joke about it. Frankly is that gossiping? When you mean no harm, but the listener take it to heart, whose fault would it actually be.

Personally I am a person who does not care about such misunderstanding and gossip, even if it occurs on me. If you have a certain opinion about me that you don't like. I don't care I am not here to please you. And likewise when I listen to stuff that is happening to people's life as long as it does not concern me, I would not have any feelings or even thoughts about it. Frankly I don't care, I can't be bothered with their life.

There are however a lot of sensitive people out there. Even sensitive friends. But I am offended when a friend is afraid that I would spread inaccurate information about people(in other words gossip) when I am teasing that friend. Frankly it never ever occured to me to gossip about that person. It is offending that a friend has doubts about my character, maybe he/she was just worried about gossip that might spread, but we nv had that intention.

I could understand that person's opinion, but I can't help feeling offended. But all is cool.. I am writing this to explain my feeling. I would like to disclaim that there is no hard feelings and I am just stating this opinion. I would forget this feeling once I post this entry, I promise. But just expressing my thought.

Memories

Was reading through my previous blog entries. Like from when I was 19 till now.. hahaha.. Feel a bit embarass by my previous blog entries. Hahahahahaha

Used to want to remember every small detail of my life. Actually anything that needs to be written down to be remembered is not that worth remembering. Because strong memories will always be remembered in your brain and those that are not worth remembering will not be remembered even after you write them down. And feelings will always be remembered regardless of whether you write them down or not...

As we grow older we get more used to the fact that certain things are part and parcel of life and we start accepting things that we would nv compromise to when we were younger. At almost quarter life. I would like to say I have grown up. Some positive feelings I would never forget even if I do not write them down. And I hope I would still be optimistic after 10 years from this entry. Hee...