weird dreams..

last night i dreamt that me and elin wet to eat donuts... the donuts were really delicious!!! bursting with chocolate!!!!

today i dreamt that liling is pregnant.. hahahahah.. really weird dream. i jus wonder if these 2 dreams mean anything..

work and stuff

gosh gosh i m freaking caught up with stuff at work. been a busy and terrible week.

last tue we had stock take at store. had to wake up super early.. anyway on wed have to stock take at warehouse. even worst. i have to go myself while the rest of them the full timers and managers can take cab! in e end my dad drove me there. again had to wake up super early...

yesterday was super weird la.. cos after we had stock take i went to lunch with the 2 managers and e designer. anyway they had a private and confidential meeting and somehow i was in the meeting with them too. they treat me to tea.. but well it was really weird la. cos i m jus a part timer. i feel that they trust me a lot, but well they r making me feel bad abt planning to resign soon. though they don't know abt my secret plan. but actually i really feel very stress working there cos i have lots of responsibilities. i m thankful for them of trusting me, but i really can't take working there.

anyway recently big things happened again. the country manager saw the part timers wearing shop's jacket and complained to the manager.. gosh super suai la.. the country manager only comes to sg like twice a yr. then can get caught... ai yo... those ppl involved received warning letter. gosh... i really want to leave this place for good.

work and stuff

damn really getting forgetful. almost forgot to bathe yesterday. until my mom asked me if i had bathe then i was like ya hor.. haven't bathe... anyway forgot to bring my promoter pass yesterday oso... damn getting forgetful...

yest at work. it was quite fun la.. cos got teresa around. anyway one of her guy fren bought her a bouquet of daises. wa.. so sweet right? so envious. but anyway that guy is a bastard la. so envious of the gesture not envious of that guy. anyway, that guy is wooing her although he already have a gf in jap. it is a complicated story. so i shall not tell ur. everytime she wants to give up on him. he will do things to make her stay on.. it is like stop being so freaking selfish can. u want the best of both worlds it is your business. gosh teresa seriously reminds me of somebody. so i must really pull her out of it. anyway i told teresa how i felt about her frens and that guy. teresa was like, if she ever becomes like them would i ever forgive her.. hahahaha.. that little girl. i told her of course i won't forgive her, unless she know her mistake and turn for the good. hee.. then i say if it ever happens i will keep scolding her. anyway her frens life really complicated de. so i don't really like her fren. they jus don't seem decent to me. really hard to explain la. i seriously feel the hotel line don't suit teresa at all. she is too highly principled (like me) to adapt to that line.

anyway yesterday was online and kok meng came and talk to me. hee.. i knew he was up to sth. as in he usually doesn't talk to me. so i bet he had sth to tell me. anyway after crapping for half an hour. he told me he got "love problem" it was sth like the girl he likes jus have a bf. gosh gosh. and i always tot guys were the one goin round hurting ppl. can't imagine him being hurt. don't really know how to console him. i m really bad at this. anyway ya.. everyone seems to be having problems lately. fortunately not me!!! i don't ever want to be like one of them u know. if falling in love means i will have so many problems i rather not fall in love. honestly, i m really happy with my life at the moment. i m really happy to be single. i don't want to be a love fool.

i suddenly realised i m really a very boring person. usually i don't have any big problems to share with ppl. abt love or anything. i know i like complaining. but my complaints r really boring oso. if i don't tell u anything about my "personal life" it is not because i don't want to share my secrets with u.. it is jus that i have nothing to share...

Absent minded me...

gosh gosh.. absent mindedness is starting again... maybe it is cos i m too tired fr work or sth..

yesterday when teresa and i went shopping. i bought shoes but after i paid for the shoes. i said thank you and left the shop.. fortunately teresa was with me.. she reminded me that i didn't take the shoes.. hahahahah.. e person was shock la.. pay then jus leave the shop without taking the item.

today even funnier. reach work.. was looking for my clothes on the rack. couldn't find my pants.. then i was like which idiot stole my pants ah.. idiot idiot. then i suddenly remembered on wed i took my pants hm to wash. i forgot to bring a new pair of black pants to work. ai yo!!! fortunately got laura ash pant fr last time so i wore it.

after that when my colleague were talking abt breakfast. i suddenly remembered that i bought bread yesterday. fortunately mom was not working today called her immediately to place the bread in the fridge.

then after that a cust came. she asked me to put her bags at the counter and i did. then when she paid and came back i gave her the items then say thank you thank you.. chase her away.. then she reminded me she haven't take her other shopping bags.. ahhahahahha.. oh no! i m terrible..

today oso v evil la.. me and a colleague were chatting at the counter. then we heard noise fr the fitting rm. then we were went uh oh.. then jus continue talking.. ignore the cust.. hahahahah.. damn bitchy la.. was like uh oh then don't help. so funny...

oh ya today michelle chia came to the shop.. hee.. didn't serve her.. didn't dare to. damn the manager nagging to me abt sales. everything is like before working here sux.. got too many things to do..

went shopping

had a fulfilling shopping trip today!!! bought lots of things. got a new wallet from mango jeans fr e base. t shirts from mango and oso a cardi fr mango and a pair of shoes.

went shopping with teresa today. chatted a lot, had a lot of fun. me and teresa concluded that we would most likely be friends for a long time. hee.. well.. i think true fren are even when ur have nothing in common your still have a lot to talk about and won't feel uncomfortable talking about it. in other words, we jus feel very comfortable in each other companionship. quite glad that i made a fren out of a colleague. like they always say colleagues should remain as colleague, could be close but don't ever be frens. so i m glad and grateful that i have a fren, whom i hope i will be in contact with for the rest of my life.

anyway saw teresa's shatec frens. boy were they different from her. honestly, i didn't really like them. they are like those partying type. and honestly after hearing some stories about them. i don't really like them. they strike me as indecent. maybe even slutty. yucks! maybe i m jus too conservative. but well they r definately not my kind of ppl.

today i satisfied my craving of crystal jade french toast... gosh it was really great. treat teresa to it. anyway, there was this lady beside me. keep striking up a conversation with me. i seriously felt very awkward. that lady was alone. anyway, ya she asked me stuff like u having holi is it? where u studying? it is like questions to ppl u met first time at a party. gosh, but she is jus a passerby u know. as in a stranger, who doesn't have to strike a conversation with me for any reason. anyway i replied her. but i don't know wat to ask her. cos she don't look young enough to be a student. and yet not old enough to be a tai tai. so i asked her r u waiting for a fren. hahahaha... gosh... though i must say the lady was quite nice. it was jus really awkward.

seriously, y do i have strangers(woman and aunties) striking up conversations with me?? do i look that friendly or that chatty??? even when i m crossing the road auntie will comment to me weather very hot ah.. hee.. ai yo.. very weird la! y can't i have cute and handsome guy talking to me on the streets.. hahahah... even if someone cute and handsome talk to me i will be scared away. oh no.. i seriously don't like talking to strangers.... be it male or female.

kids, cust and stuff.

today there was this mom with her son and daughter. came to our shop. well, the daughter was such a brat. seriously feel like slapping her. her daughter is abt 5 or 6 yr old. anyway, the store beside us sells dog shaped seats. that brat was sitting on it then "rode" it into our store. she will actually spoil and dirty the item and the promoter will have trouble selling it. later taka staff came to stop her she beat the staff.. then she came to our shop. she jumped on the sofa that is already wrapped for customer. then i gave her a sweet attempting to pacify her. she snatched the sweet. i seriously wanted to slap her. her parents r really lousy at educating their children. treat us like day care is it? leave ur children here to go shopping urself. sorry we r not a daycare centre. in the end the situation was that bad that security guard have to come to guard the kids. damn... brats!!!!

after that on the bus i saw another kid really a brat too. this lady was jus standing up so that the person beside her, sitting near the window could get off the bus. anyway, the brat ran to sit down, then refused to let the lady get back her seat. chased the lady away so that his father can have a sit. seriously feel like slapping them. gosh if i ever have kids i m goin to teach them well. if they r like that i will slap them like crazy..

today had a irritating cust... she was calling. then i told her we r laura ashley takashimaya. then she asked about curtain. it cost $198 or sth.. then it was like i told her all our curtains r $2000+ she kept insisting we have a cheap curtain. like wat the fuck! r u the one working here or me?! damn explained to her for like 30min that we don't have cheap curtain. i seriously couldn't tolerate her anymore so passed the phone call to my assis manager. somehow the manager managed to get her off after a while. so weird right?! call and enquire abt something, then keep insisting you are right. if that is the case y do u even call. if you are so confident of the price, then call for wat. wat a big fat idiot. call to argue with me is it?!

jap little boy

today, there was this kawaii little japanese boy. he came to the shop with his mom. at first i can wanted to look at him. somehow ended up playing with him. hee.. we kinda play simon says... not really la.. i was jus imitating his every action. then he found it very funny. he keep running to the left and right to see if i would follow and run to my left and right too.. hee.. ahh.. he is super cute!!!

oh this reminds me the last time i oso played hide and seek with a little japanese girl. that girl was really cute... she hides really well i couldn't find her at all... gosh.. y does it seems that japanese little kids r cuter than singaporean. ok la.. not really my niece oso really cute. but the kids don't seem shy playing with strangers at all.. hee.. ahh.. he is so cute.. if only i can kidnap him.. hee..

settlers, food.. fun!

today we went out. me, elin, yik, hq.. ya i know the four of us again. every outing that i blog abt is abt goin out with them.. hee.. but it is super fun to go out with them!

We went to crystal jade for food first. the set i had was great.. french toast and desert. i had red been paste pancake. but well.. i didn't like the red been paste thing much. it was too oily. the one at the crystal jade xiao long bao taste much better. not that oily..

after that we went settler cafe to play games.. played ugly sth and taboo. time passes quite quickly.. and ugly thing yik and hq were losing.. reaction a bit slow. me and elin really fast in snatching cards.. must bring us along on sales we definately snatch things really fast. we stole cards fr yik and hq right under their noses.

taboo was fun. had to pair up with hq. i think the both of us r the weakest link in the grp. then to pair tgth. we definately make a bad duo. as expected we lost to elin and yik. our punishment was hitting the forehead. fortunately 2nd round i paired with yik and we won!!! hahahahaha... taboo is a word game where one person describe a word and the other person guess the word. our description really funny. one word was joker.. then someone said. hq is a... then the other person guessed monkey? hahahahahha... then another word nonsense, the person describes houquan is full of? i guessed crap, and elin got it right! full of nonsense.. hahahhaha... other funny things can't be disclosed.. hahahhaha... had lots of fun!!!!

we went bukit timah for cheese prata after that had fried ice cream and it was dripping like crazy... anyway, it was ok la.. crap a lot.. hee.. funny day.. we must go out more often!!! we must go out soon. hee.. since yik start attachment i m sure she will have a lot to share soon. so we shall meet again! hopefully i can get lesser shifts... i really want to have fun!

book review time!

read two books recently

The undomestic goddess by sophie kinsella

This is one of my favourite authors... she wrote the shopaholic series and well lots of good books. can u keep a secret was really funny! i think she writes people in distress very well. hee.. usually the characters in her books are impulsive, panicky, high stressed. i guess i can really relate to that since i m rather panicky. and she really write them panicking in an interesting and funny way. hahaha...

anyway this book the undomestic goddess is about a high stressed lawyer making a big mistake. so she was kinda fired. she ended up in the countryside and ridiculously became a housekeeper. hee.. somehow a bit far fetched but well it is entertaining. a person who completely do not know how to do housework is a full time housekeeper. anyway there is a hidden conspiracy as to y she loses her job and she managed to uncover it. hee...

Seaming curves by Gemma townley

this author's other books were great, but definately not this one. Her other 2 books when in Rome and Little white lies were really interesting. Little white lies is where this girl lied about who she really is. she kind of took up another person's life, cos her life was too boring. hee.. anyway it was rather interesting.

Seaming curves was boring. the plot took too long to develop. and towards the end everything starts happening too quickly. not a good book. focused too much on details that does not need much attention.

Watched mean girls tonight. was rather good. Quite a nice movie.

Plastic bags.. work and stuff

Gosh since i have started working i have been complaining none stop here... hahahaha...

anyway was sick the day before didn't go to work. so glad that i have an excuse from work.

U know i seriously think i m a really unlucky person. maybe it is karma, since i m rather mean.. hahahaha... anyway today i forgot to bring my umbrella out. then it started pouring the moment i reached lucky plaza... "great" have to run in the rain... i bring my umbrella everywhere i go and e only time i forget to bring it, it will start raining. m i suai or wat? thank goodness i have a kino plastic bag with me. as most of u know. the normal size one is large enough to cover a person. so i ran in the rain with it. i must have looked pathetic. anyway, the kino plastic bag, miraculously saved me fr getting wet. i was dry head through. i was only wet at the arms and feet. kino plastic bag really useful.. hahahha...

anyway the plastic bag saved me twice. when i was on the bus i was sitting beside the window, right under the aircon ventilator anyway the aircon was dripping. thank goodness the kino plastic bag was on my lap, so i didn't get wet at all!!!! gosh gosh, i must not throw that plastic bag away! it is my lucky plastic bag.. hee...

damn today heard a bit news. apparently my july schedule sux. i have only one off day a wk. damn!!! i must go complain, or lie abt some things to make my schedule better. gosh, it is really the beginning of hell again.

sick... discrimination in whole a bad day

gosh 2nd day of work and i m sick! got a sore throat now.. don't know if i will be ok to go to work tmr. still have tuition at nite tmr. i rather go tuition than work. since tuition pay much more... shall c... it sux!!!! hopefully it doesn't develop into a fever.

anyway i really hate ang mo!!! hahahah.. they r known for being fussy. anyway this new zealand cust. that bitch! anyway she came to our store to buy fabrics.. after we cut and everything. she changed her mind and didn't want them. then give a whole got of crap about it being our fault wat refund shit.. all in all she jus doesn't want it. wat the hell. don't want jus say la... make a big fuss. get the taka manager, scold everyone... if u can't afford it don't buy... she should have know the price when she chose the things.. she was like it is too expensive. we didn't tell her the correct price. wat shit... when i was writing down u didn't say anything.. after u paid for it u realized it is expensive?! and y must u pay for it to realise it is expensive? then she was making a fuss about refund not getting through, then she didn't keep her receipt the last time. so this time she wants every manager to sign her slip to ensure her the refund will go through.. wat shit?! buy so expensive things then make a refund, nv remember to keep the receipt. r u dumb or stupid? seriously hate them.. they r jus trying to be a high class cheapskate.

if i discriminate against a race it would be the ang mo. ok i wouldn't say discriminate, more like dislike intensely. there r still some few good ang mos... they can be so unreasonable and demanding and act like they are more superior than us... like wat the hell...

yesterday heard fr mh that Australian dislike singaporeans. then i ask my fren y.. she say cos we r arrogant.. hello ur r like, not any better. and seriously y r we arrogant?? because we r smarter than ur, do better than ur in the uni? well then don't ur think we have a right to be arrogant? seriously don't respect any ang mo at all. good for nothings. ok la.. i have to admit not all. but the nice one r really nice and the bad one r really bad.

nothing much

well today went back to hell to work. hai.. first day so everyone still quite nice to me.. haha.. but well somehow, they planning to fire someone so they have to keep me around to fire him. or else they will be short handed. gosh gosh, so i will get more shift less rest. gosh.. that wasn't wat i hope for at first... should definitely request more off next month.. people who want to book me to go out for next mth book me now.. hee.. so that i can request off.. teresa seems to be in trouble. well, all i can say is someone is getting her into trouble. hai.. some things nv change... i jus need to tolerate.. till at most 2nd wk of sept.. can't wait..

wanted to go kino to buy some books. but then i went to orchard library and amazingly all the books i want to buy were there in e library. so i quickly borrowed them. really want to buy shopaholic and baby.. but it is really ex for a paperback book. the cost of it is equivalent to buying 2 other good author story books. so rather reluctant to buy it.. hai.. sld i? or sld i not? i have a feeling the price of the book will definitely drop.. hee.. well..

cockroaches!!

oh gosh.. one of the scariest and strongest insects of the whole universe! do u know a cockroach can live without it's head for at least 3 days.. freaky!!!

anyway recently there have been a lot of cockroaches at home... will no matter how much baygon we spray they can survive it! this morning saw the "dead" bodies of 3 cockroaches one at the master bed room floor, the other enter the dining table and in the kitchen. of course i will live it there since i would nv dare to touch the disgusting things.. anyway throughout the day i have been walking to these 3 places to make sure they r dead. armed with my baygon spray... anyway i saw a dead cockroach missing!!!!! oh gosh the one near the toilet is missing.. i faster go to the toilet to check if it is there.. since i m armed with my baygon spray i sprayed at it.. but it kept running... now all i can do is close the toilet door and pray that it is dead... gosh.. it was dead the whole day. how come it suddenly came alive??

i supposed baygon doesn't kill it. jus make it faint or sth. the packaging was bragging when it said it is the fastest cockroach killer. my foot! i think i might die earlier fr smelling so much baygon! gosh the cockroaches r really the strongest living animals.. hopefully they die off one day... pray pray the cockroach is dead.

The tenth circle

recently finished reading this book by jodi picoult. really interesting book. there are many twists to the story. basically it is about a 14 yr old girl getting raped by her ex boyfriend. and well how her father protect her. and a spoiler, the ex boyfriend somehow die. he committed suicide or so it seems.

well the book was interesting. because there is a lot of lies and deception fr the 14 yr old girl. the girl was trying to win her ex boyfriend back, and she was kind of behaving like a slut, but then she accused him of rape. i don't really know how to explain this, to me the girl was raped, no matter how she behaved. the book described her trauma really well, so i felt sympathetic for the girl. it really makes me think... how could anyone blame the victims for being sexually harassed.

i read a article in the new paper yesterday. it was kind of an opinion page. the writer was disagreeing with rules fr our neighboring country about girls dressing too little inviting rapes. apparently, some govt members of the neighbour country blame the victims for inviting rape. seriously it is ridiculous. how could anyone blame the victim. it is saying. u live in a big house so u r inviting me to rob your house, so if i rob your house, it is ur fault not mine. but well maybe we don't live in e other country so we don't know their cultures or values and well should not comment on that. personally, i think it is ridiculous.

anyway good book can go read. hmm.. but the story is a little slow. the plot takes time to develop. so have patience.

drama

it is really ridiculous how some drama plots can be.. u know going back into time. contacting ppl fr the past. jus watched this hk police drama. they killed off the characters jus in the 2nd episode. i guess the actor must be busy filming other stuff, so they have to kill her off faster.

but the ridiculous thing about drama is life can be equally dramatic. gosh.. i seriously feel like i have been living in a drama recently. have been blogging too much lately due to life being dramatic. but seriously it is only now that i have experienced the most ridiculous things...

the day before, my sis realised that her trip to australia for some sch thing was accepted. as in she have to go australia. and u know, she have to go aus next mon. then last mon, we realised our passports expired. fortunately visa application is immediate after u get the passport, and we can get the passport by friday. but this is not the most "miraculous" thing that happened. her attachment company wouldn't let her go, cos they r really short handed. big company. have only 3 ppl working. so yest my mom kiddingly suggested i go take over when she is away. u know wat this suggestion was accepted by the company today. to my horror it was accepted.

do u know wat this means, i might have to work in a company for 2 wks without any pay. i will jus be replacing my sis, who will be away is aus. ah.. but a bigger problem. i have to go back to laura ash to work next wk. so maybe sis can't go aus. seriously don't ur think this situation is ridiculous? how could the company accept the suggestion. that i go work there for free?! it is not funny u know. jus now sis was crying over the phone. i suppose she was in the bathroom. she is my sis.. it will kill me to c her cry. so i agreed. my agreement was that i will go to her office on my off days to work for free. gosh, is this love for a sibling or stupidity. i really wonder. ok we shall c wat the company does.. hopefully sis doesn't blame me for not helping her if it doesn't work out. gosh.. i really don't know if i want it to work out or not.

hair cut

went to have a hair cut jus now. went to lucky plaza with my mom to get a hair cut. anyway the lady who usually cuts my hair was not there.. but another lady oso not bad.

oh ya we had food at the indo restaurant. e food was ok... the salted fish really salty. i guess it is called salted fish for a reason. hee.. didn't do much shopping. jus bought some candy fr marks and spencers.

gosh jus now the agency called me to told me a job is being accepted. but i kind of have to reject her cos i m goin back to laura ash next wk. it is like in a dilemma. i really don't want to go back to laura ash to deal with all the crap again. but laura ash timetable more flexi. meaning i have more days off than an office job. so i can enjoy my holi. but standing the whole day is really tiring. ahhh.... i don't know wat to do... i guess i will be resigned to going back and work. cos it is a bit bad to last min tell them i don't want to work. i really don't know.. on one hand i want a change of job environment. on the other hand, maybe sticking to this place is not so bad.. there r benefits somehow. gosh the horoscopes r always correct. it predicted that i will be really undecided about jobs this yr. hai.. y is the good things nv true, but the bad predictions always accurate. ahh... if only sl was here.. she would make my decision easier.

day out shopping and yam cha..

we had dim sum at yam cha restaurant.. hahaha.. quite funny... we really do stupid things.. sometimes it is hard to believe we r young adults.. we really fight like little kids... but that is also wat is fun about being together.. hahahhaha.. The "we" r me, yik ling, eileen and hou quan..

firstly, hou quan have not been to chinatown. so it was like excursion u know.. cos we don't exactly know chinatown well. then well managed to find yam cha. the food was ok la.. but there was this really cool thing.. the electronic asking for service thing.. i don't exactly know how to explain wat it is la.. but after u press it there will be a sensor connecting to a place which indicates which table number needs service and stuff... quite cool. we were fighting to press the thing.. ok maybe i was the only one fighting to press e thing.. hahahaha.. bu gan yuan.. i had a press at it during the end, when we called for bill.. hahaha.. so fun..

oh ya elin was the only person not so full. elin is allergic to prawns.. but somehow we ordered 2 long of har gau and siew mai. so in the end, me yik, hq each have to have 2 siew mai and 2 har gao... the prawns swam in our stomachs for really long.. it was quite funny cos we were forcing each other to have food, due to being too full.

after that we took picture near the lift and gong thing. we were still discussing whether the door was fake or real.. then it opened.. really funny.. we asked hq to go into the lift to take pic of us.. hahahaha..

after that had dessert.. it was not bad... yik's steamed milk was nice. headed to city hall afterwards.. it was quite fun... bought lots of things at marina. then we headed for orchard.. surprisingly didn't get anything there.. hahahaha.. but really very funny.. can't really explain wat or why it was funny. but all i can say is i laughed a lot today.. hahahah..

Verbal violence
Well jus some tots abt it.. sometimes it is not wat u do to hurt somebody it is wat u say... somehow they say man suffer fr this more often then women. cos somehow woman r better with language. sometimes man get physical (as in physical violence) when they can't take the verbal abuse. i don't like any sort of abuse physical or verbal. well my thought is that don't hurt anyone with or without the intention to. kiddingly verbally accusing someone is ok... but well, when u r seriously mean and hurtful. then honestly jus go to hell. don't go overboard jus cos u think u can go overboard. u know my self defense tactics is not really good, but don't u feel guilty hurting me? and wat good do u have hurting someone so dear to u? there is only 2 ppl in this world who will care abt u no matter wat u do to us.. when is mom, the other is me.

random stuff:
i think i have a weird temper.. i personally don't think i m weird. but well my family members find me weird.. hahahah.. cos everytime i got pissed off with them i will jus keep quiet and well ignore them. but when i m ignoring them i m actually not in a bad mood or anything.. usually i jus don't have any emotion.. u know jus lazy to talk to them. but they will be really scared when it happens. and sometimes i think they really bai mu.. cos it is like i m keeping quiet for a reason, so jus shut up. don't keep trying to talk to me. seriously i m not angry. i jus don't feel like talking to u... if i m angry i will most likely cry, or yell at u.

something happened last sat, then it turned into sth weird.. hahahha... was rather pissed off with wat my sis say. it was sth stupid la.. cos we were reaching so i told my sis that we were reaching, then i went to press the bell to alight. then she started cursing and swearing at me for not waking my mom up, cos mom was asleep.. i was freaking pissed off. like wat the hell, u can't wake her up ah. then must she scold me for such a small matter.. i was quite pissed. so i jus walk hm at a fast speed ignoring them. then today my mom was saying my sis was complaining abt me. say that i need to see a psychiatrists. cos i have terrible mood swings.. wat the fuck! u pissed me off first.. then i was like ya i still need to go to mental hospital to check up. fuck u la! i know it sounds funny but when u hear ur sis calling u a crazy person u really jus want to go crazy and beat her up like nobody's business. gosh, i think i m going to be driven crazy by her.

Oh ya but sth my mom said jus now really touched me to tears.. recently, i wouldn't say i m depress la.. jus unhappy with the unfairness of this world. well i know there is nth i can do abt it. but i really hate it... y some ppl jus have the luck.. and when they have it they don't know how to appreciate it..y does the good guys always lose and bad guys somehow triumph?! i m satisfied with my life, but i can't help thinking wat did this ppl do to deserve their place now?! i hate resigning myself to this fate. not that i have an unhappy life. but i get angry with ppl who don't appreciate their life and r wasting their lifes away. oh ya recently been thinking abt wat i will do after i graduate. honestly, the tot scares me. i will most likely have a 9-5 boring job.. my life will be jus a routine.. the tot of that makes me really unhappy. oh ya and i m goin back to work. i don't really want to go back. so used to slacking but need to work to earn money. i don't know y i can't live without money.. hahahha... then i was telling my mom all this. then she was like don't need to compare ur life with those ppl whose life r better. no pt in doin that. and don't need to work so hard for the money. as long as u r happy. the way she was saying it was like she jus wants me to be happy, cos she can feel that i m rather unhappy with things. really very touched cos, i really feel like in this world there is someone who loves me a lot and is really concerned about me. if she could, i bet she will do anything to make me happy. and that person is my mother. when i think of my mom, i feel very blessed and yet really sad for her somehow i can't explain.. jus really xin teng her. i always feel that i can nv give her enough love and care.. hahahaha... gosh this is so emotional. don't like this.. hahahha...

ahh.. long long post.. well jus a record to me

dinner at st james power station

well to start off.. i didn't enjoy it at all. this is at the st james food station charcoal bar... the portions were small u have to cook it urself (similar to seoul garden apart from the fact that the food is better) and well service was really bad! we waited like 45min for the bill. the only good thing is that the food was practically free, since we had a $100 voucher.

well my sis was really mean to the cashier cos we waited very long for the bill. somehow i could understand that unhappiness after all we waited really long. but seriously she didn't need to get so worked up and be so rude to the service crew. maybe it is because i have been in this line before. so even if i get bad service, i would be tolerant, because i can understand them. there is a big problem with their manpower. and they need to get their workers more organized. everyone seems to be in such a fluster.

honestly i hate being out with my mom and sis... don't mean to sound so mean or anything... my mom being the ah soh.. sometimes will bring a lot of embarrassment to us. can c how my mom try to fit in with my sis and me (got generation gap) when we r shopping. hai... sometimes i really feel so bad, cos u know my mom will feel left out when we go shopping, but there is nth i can do to let her fit in.. hahahah.. cos our tastes differs so much.. then my sis being the attitude bitch, will always scold us for doing anything wrong. little miss perfect or should i say little miss fussy have a problem with almost everything we do. and seriously, it is not that nice being told off by a bitch. i m sorry the universe revolve around u.. everyone do the wrong things, u r the only one who does things right. fuck! damn pissed off! seriously i really have e urge to slap her at times.. can't stand her oh i'm so mighty attitude towards ppl, and even towards her family members. hate tat she is so self centered at times, and i don't think she sees a problem with her attitude. being confident is good but being cocky is jus plain irritating. gosh it will be a long time before i go shopping with them again. anyway didn't enjoy this whole day.. thanks to little miss "wonderful".

weird dreams

the night before i had a great dream... dreamt that i had desserts buffet. i had lots of sundae! gosh it was a really good dream!

last night had a nightmare. a ghost is after me.. hahahaha... then after that i dreamt that sl was back fr hk... strange dreams

goin st james power station for dinner tmr. my sis won $100 voucher... hahahha.. they told me it is a club... but i being a mountain tortoise (sua gu) don't know anything.. will jus follow them. i have no idea where it is oso.. hahahhaha..