Today unhappy things happened at work again. Hai.. Ok first let me say abt sth cute… Today a jap boy and his mom came into e store. Then they were playing new year song. Then e jap boy sang gong xi gong xi gong xi ni.. So Kawaii… hee..

Oh ya abt yest.. My cousins came till 2.. ai yo.. Then I have to go slp cos I had to work in the morning… I agree with xiwen Foochow ppl talk super loudly, wa they all sit around e table, then when u eavdrop on their conversation it is like abt so many diff things. Not tat I want to eavdrop they really talk v loudly. Then I can’t slp when I try to cos they were too loud. My cousins super beng. Underage drinking, hmm.. I like suddenly c so many felix in my house. Hee… Oh ya we watched e medallion on tv.. V nice! Oh ya coyette ugly is even nicer! But I don’t like e female lead voice cos her voice is super squeaky… Ai yo..

Today quite suai fell down.. I tripped over the telephone cord then turned 360degrees b4 falling down. Ok I m smart purposely turn so that I won’t fall on my knees. Hee.. then in e end I was lying flat on e floor. E position if u go star gazing. Haha..

Today got scolded by my manager. today we were supposed to go for break but there was not enough ppl we were quite busy. Then some ppl were slacking e ppl I told ur in my previous post. Anyway so we didn’t go for break, when e manager came back she scolded teresa. Anyway teresa ask me to go for break with evelyn. So I did. Anyway she called me, then I accidentally hang up on her. Then as I do not have caller Id I didn’t call her back. Anyway when I came back from break, farina and e few girls were asking me if they can go for break. Then I told them to go, but they threaten me that if joann e manager disallow wld I take responsibility, so I volunteered to call joann to ask. So joann allowed them to go break.

When joann came back e first thing she said to me scared me. She was like. Amanda if u call me again abt break I will give u a warning letter. Hee.. Of course I was v shocked. Then she told me y she said that. She asked me y I hang up on her. I explained to her like I did earlier in this post. Then anyway she told me that we sld decide who to go for break ourselves. Then she say y I called her when It was kind of not my business. So I explained to her abt the threats they gave me. Then she told me they didn’t dare call her cos she scolded them earlier, then I blur blur, became their sacrificial lamb. So she told me to be careful in e future. She say if they go off to break without permission then is not my business they will get scolded not me, then I say but it is me who gave them the permission to go, so I will oso end up being scolded. Haha.. but anyway she said sth like don’t help ppl get myself into trouble.

After that she said e fulltimer yushi actually have e right to decide. As I mention earlier I don’t like yushi. And yushi was like ya ya.. Then I was thinking she don’t have e guts to decide, I mean she was one of e few who kept asking me when to go break. Wat the fuck. Then there was one wrong memo this yushi started blaming me. She super disgusting. Always try to put e blame on others.

Anyway we had a list to call customers to tell them there is a sales soon. Then I asked joann wat abt those who didn’t come, must help them call. Then she was telling me to care abt myself first. Finish my job first, then let them be scolded by her if they can’t complete. Hmm.. They say joann is not a nice person. I think ok la.. At least she is a reasonable person, unlike e ex manager that I had…

Oh anyway I was gossiping with teresa. Realised she don’t like farina too. Cos she finds farina v lazy, which is true.. Today we r busy cos of her lor.. Can help but don’t go and help. Then talked to her fren on e phone.. Ai yo.. So disgusted by her…

My schedule is like so packed! Hate it lor.. told them I can’t work so many days but they put me a lot of days! Hai.. If next mth still like that I will quit lor.. I don’t care… Maybe cos got hongbao money le so don’t care. And my exams coming so I don’t want to work so much.. Hai.. But can’t blame them this mth not enough ppl. Hai.. But most ppl will be fired next mth cos after sales le..

Happy new year!

Hee.. Today went to my grandparents place, my niece and nephews so cute. My nephew super naughty whenever his dad scold him he will point at him.. Then he love playing with himself. He looks exactly like my uncle.. So chao lao rite?? hee..

My 3 niece so cute.. 2 of them keep sticking to me.. Then it is like really don't understand wat she say. But she really naughty oso. Play catching and hide and seek with her.. Haha.. so old already still have to play this kind of game. Goodness suddenly feel so old.. haha.. cos the kids i have seen from birth are now already so tall. And goin to be sec 1 soon.

Hee.. my grandma really got too many grandchildrens.. Today her grandson in law came, then she thought is stranger. After they left she keep asking us who he is, then tot another of her grandson in laws is my other cousin husband. Haha.. Then have to intro us to them as whose kids, or else she won't remember...

Oh ya my uncle got bitten by dog. Then he say dog year get bitten by dog really lucky. He still have to go hosipital cos of e bite. But e incident rather funny, cos his dog was sleeping with my cousins, so my uncle went to their room to check on them. Then he wanted to pat e dog. As he was patting e dog, my cousin toss and turned in his slp then hit e dog.. E dog tot my uncle hit him so go bite my uncle. haha.. The dog quite cute, v protective of my cousins. Will protect them when ppl want to bully them. Then even if my cousin beat e dog it won't bite my cousin. Hee..

Faced with some politics at work. Hai.. V Sian.. Ok will tell ur wat happened. That morning I went to work. No manager was around. Only me farina and yushi. Yushi is supposing rather motherly. She had lots of sales experience and jus joined la. Anyway she is a full timer, but well I don’t really like her. Cos e first impression I had of her is that she is v fake. Jus my instinct telling me not to trust her too much.

Anyway farina told me sth v weird that morning. She say if u greet e customer she is ur customer so if she buys anything it will be ur sales. Then she mentioned that someone snatched her sales b4. I tot this reasoning was a bit weird. I told her but it isn’t fair, wat if this person greet e customer but didn’t serve. I mean seriously lor.. Especially for some ppl there, they greet then started chatting with her peers. Anyway I was kind of helping e new comer with sales, so maybe it seem like I was snatching e newcomer sales, but I told e newcomer I got no intention to do that. And oso sales doesn’t matter much to me, cos after all part timers do not get commission so I was telling farina that it doesn't matter.. Ai ya.. Anyway farina work so many days she shouldn’t have to be worried not being able to hit target. She was completely weird that day.

After that in e afternoon e assistant manager came, she was in e afternoon shift. So anyway she was like Amanda did anything happened in e morning btn u and farina. I was so shocked.. Cos I didn’t find anything amiss.. Ok I know it happens to me all e time, I m so insensitive to my surroundings. Haha.. Anyway I told her no. Then she told me yushi told her that me and farina argued over sales.. I was like wat the fuck! I didn’t argue with her this morning. Why the hell is she trying to sow discord and making trouble. Anyway I told lynn (e assistant manager) I don’t know anything. So the assistant manager went to ask farina, cos she thinks that maybe e problem doesn’t lies with me lies with her..

Anyway farina told her I stole her sales. Said that when she was checking stock I served e customer she served then well I steal her sales. At first I didn’t know which customer. So I confronted farina. Farina then told me it is this ang mo who bought storage boxes. I remember the ang mo. She was looking at the boxes then asking me question, I couldn’t possibly tell her that sorry u r not my customer I don’t want to serve u. So I served her and of course wrote that it is my sales. I mean seriously I was squatting down and showing her e boxes. Seriously I vaguely rmb farina was in e storeroom at e pt of time. Maybe she was checking stock maybe she was not… But I felt rather pissed, cos obviously this is not my fault. Even if it is she sld tell me then we can share sales!

In this case it can be either yushi sowing discord. Cos she might thing me and farina had some unhappiness and so told e manager, maybe her intentions were good. I mean who knows. Another case farina was unhappy and told yushi things.. But anyway I m not trusting either one of them now. I think I was rather fake too. Cos I apologize to farina. Hee.. Ok la.. It was partly my fault.

Really this place has so much politics compared to sakae.. But it is ok at e moment. E best way to deal with politics, first don’t get too emotionally involved with the people there. Treat workmates jus as workmates. 2ndly, act blur.. Jus act blur to ppl, so that u won’t be an easy target, when u pretend not to know, ppl will not guard against u… 3rdly, jus treat whatever everyone says as gossip, don’t take any stand in any case, unless u r fully sure this person have a strong backing. Hai.. I jus want to pretend I can’t c all this..

Kind of miss sakae ppl. Cos sakae ppl r really nice and fun! Everytime I hear from april or huji about sakae will be so happy, cos really good entertainment. Hee.. but ok la I don’t regret changing jobs, at least I m slacking there. And sakae manager really sux.. haha.. Really hate the manager. Hope I m not the next target of their politics!

Today went to watch in her shoes.. It was really nice! Kind of reminded me of the 9pm show. Camaron diaz was like e ruyi in the ai de zhang men ren. I bought a pair of jeans! Hee.. hmm.. will be quitting my job in apr ba.. want to concentrate on my studies. Studies r more impt heck care this politics..

Oh ya i got a new hp.. hee so happy. last nite i had a weird dream. I dreamt that leehom e singer squeeze into the bus then i was like how come no1 take pic with him so went to take pic with him!!! It was such a nice dream... That day i oso had a weird dream. Dreamt that my hp got snatched! Hee..

Today went shopping! Was supposed to go steamboat with the gang one, but ah. There were 2 few ppl so it ended up being cancelled. Anyway went shopping with joyce. Hee.. she was supposed to just accompany but in e end she had a few buys 2.

Went we were walking to far east saw huji. Huji ah.. u really attentive haha.. can c me and recognize me with my new hair.. Haha.. anyway glad that u say it is nice. Haha.. I quite terrible bought 2 bags from fun decko, some face mask from the face shop. Eileen and joyce both recommended, so try try. Got money really ah.. Become more vain. Haha.. both a pair of slippers. My stupid slippers la.. Heel broke again, this time it is bad cos I don’t know where I drop it at. Haha.. so can’t super glue it back. I believe I m rather barbaric when I walk, cos all my slippers last barely a mth. Oh I bought a top too.. Hee.. Still planning to change my hp tmr.

Hmm.. My mom volunteer to buy me e new hp as my bday present, but I refused. Cos e phone is not cheap. 300+. Then my mom told me to repay her when she is old. Haha.. As if I m not planning to support her when she is old.

Hmm.. v weird. When u have e capability to earn u will stop wanting to spend ur parents money. At least for me la.. Eileen once say it is because we got e ability to earn so we will feel ashamed to ask money from our parent. Ya v true. I think it is oso bcos when we work we understand how much hard work we have to put in, and can understand our parents and so feel that we shouldn’t spend their hard earned money. Nowadays when I hear someone spending their parents’ money overly, I will kind of despise e person. Haha.. ok la not really. But u know will feel a bit, jus a little proud of myself for being able to support myself. I can understand how some of my frens who fully support their sch fees feel when they c me. Hee.. no wonder I can detect some despise when they talk to me. Hee.. Oh ya another trend I noticed. I realized that I spend money like water. I think I used to be quite stingy with money, I try not to go out in e past to save money, I can rmb in jc always run hm after sch. Partly cos don’t really like jc life and want to watch tv and slp, but oso cos no money. Always go jp have fast food sure spend a lot of money one! And my pocket money at that time super little. Anyway ya. I rmb that time sl (apr) and sy earn money then spend so much I was thinking ai yo terrible. Hee.. now I understand how they feel.. I mean my hard earned money of course spend as much as I want as long as I don’t spend more than I earn it is ok ma. Hee..

Oh ya another I noticed. I really hate crowds then wkends at orchard is super busy. when u walk down the street u will accidentally make eye contact with strangers. Whether it is female or male, ugly or good looking I will feel v awkward. Also don’t know y… It is not like u r checking them out or anything. Haha.. then some even diao u back. It is like wt.. haha.. it is like as if u v good looking pls lor didn’t want to make eye contact with u at all..

Oh ya oh ya me and j go pluck eyebrow at Hollywood secrets.. not bad! But v pain! Haha.. I was like breathing heavily when she pluck. Ouch! Hee.. then my eyebrow super red after that. This is my first experience. Hee.. but I think looks quite nice! But my eyebrow super bare now.. haha.. ok experience la.. Luckily my eyebrows not bushy or else ah.. sure pluck until cry. Haha..

Things at my family goin better now. They had a meeting the other day. Family meeting.. E contract kind of funny. anyway states that if he gamble again we r goin to disown him. and he have to go for councelling. He doesn't seems to keen on that idea. He went for one session then he felt that it is a waste of time. I can understand how he feels. It is e pride thing. But if he really wants to change i think he sld go all e way. He is kind of like on probation now. As in, in my heart, i don't trust him completely still, so he better prove to me that he deserved to be trusted. Actually when we had e meeting he told my family that he jus want to earn money cos he was sick a few times then can't pay e rent. But seriously the ends doesn't justify the means. His intentions r good but the way he chooses to do things is really bad. Now our family always have to watch this show on channel 8 abt gambling one. E councellor in e show was right. often e family of e person facing e addiction is more seriously affected emotionally than e dang shi ren( e person with e addiction). Hmm.. But i will jus take things a step at the time. c how la.. since promise to give him a chance le.. oso cannot don't trust him.

Today i read one disgusting blog.. It is abt we youngsters can't take hardship. We complain when we have to wipe tables and all that.. I personally felt rather agitated cos i don't think this is e case. haha..

I feel that not that we young ppl can't take hardship it is jus that we don't need to take hardship. I mean who is so sadistic as to when he don't need to suffer will purposely go and suffer right?? I think when we have problems we will face them bravely. I personally think working let u have more experience about wat the real world is like.. So it is okay to take a part time job. But when u feels that it will affect ur studies, then quit. Some ppl say wa youngster always quit their job cos they want to study, they r only using need to study as an escape. Hello! Do ur know how hard it is to work and study at e same time. It is not an escape. And besides we r giving up our short term benefit for a long term one. If we have good qualifications we will help e society drive e economy better. Be a stupid restaurant supervisor bring a lot of good benefits to e society ma? U must be kidding. And when we feel like we r badly treated of course we will move to places where there r better benefits. Not that we r not loyal, is jus that we don't need to be loyal to a place who doesn't value us.

Today at work.. Hai.. e assis manager kind of told me off for writing memo and writing my no. Wa lao.. Hai.. Ya la i derserve to be scolded. everyone seems nice at la.. But they don't seem v real. I think they quite fake one.. But ok La, better than sakae always get told off by e stupid manager. And have to c her almost everyday when working there.

Hai. he is like a time bomb living in our house. Today gamble off 10000+ again and ask for money from my mom again. I wish he is dead! He don't even dare say it straight in her face, ask my aunt to come get money from my mom. Wat the fuck! I told my mom not to give him any money at all. My mom is afraid of e loansharks. U know wat i hope he gets hacked to death by the loansharks! My mom told him she wants a divorce. He say sell e flat then get a divorce. My mom feels that if he doesn't do wat he says my mom will die. She will be stuck in this marriage without any money she will be stuck in this stupid black hole. Such a bastard. For the sake of money he don't want us anymore. I couldn't help thinking about e things in e past. U know wat i wish things were like in e past. Though he was a bastard he didn't hurt any of us. But now we can nv go back to the past. he even tried to make my mom feel guilty, my mom told him she is not dealing with him now cos she don't want our paternal elderly grandparents to know, cos they r old and dying, she wants things to be settled after chinese new year, but he told her ppl know she is not cooking for him and not washing his clothes, my mom was like don't make me feel guilty how wld they know, she nv told them. I personally think she sld tell them. I mean he doesn't even care for his own parents anymore. Let them die of a heart attack from these. They r not my mom's parents y sld she care. Maybe if his parents die due to this then he will wake up. I m so evil right? hope my grandparents die. If they r still alive there won't be a way out of this. How long is my mom goin to suffer. Y must she think of my grandparents let them know. My grandparents have live a good life. So many great grandchildren.. my mom still told me not to work and concentrate on my studies she don't want this to affect me. But how can i spend her hardearned money like wat he is doing. How can i do this to her.. U know wat i jus wish he is dead then everyone would be happy. i m so sick of life now... And u know wat he even thinks he is v smart he told my big aunt his frens praise him that he is v smart can win $1000 and knows how to gamble within his means. Wat the hell. Then he lost 10times e amt now. V smart! Dumbest man in this world. He wants to be a professional gambler. Hello go become a professional idiot more likely. even if he one day make it he would have lost everything! His family and everything.. No1 will support him. y e hell is he so obsessed with money. if u can read then read it if not nvm..

Had a hair cut today.. hair really short now.. I look so gong now.. That is wat short hair do to people i guess.. Sharks.. Today ah.. after hair cut went for dinner with them at central. It was raining but respose rate quite good suprisingly. Hee.. maybe cos it is near... had fun la.. Talk so much and ate so much.. E stupid ppl give us attitude lor.. Sy gave present to everyone cos she owes everyone present except xy.. Haha.. Actually she don't owe mh any presents, but she forgot.. then she told mh this is for her this year bday which haven't occur yet.. haha.. I completely didn't expect sy to give us presents!!! haha... cos she like owe us for super long liao. Anyway i told her e present i receive today is last year one.. So this year which is next month must buy me another one i don't care.. Luckily i bought present for her.. Almost didn't buy.. heng ah! I think all of us have mature in one way or another. OUr decisions gets more impt than last year.. Hee.. Will glad to be with them.. E reunion dinner b4 cny must remember to organise hor! We can go eat steamboat or sth..

Anyway realise sometimes name being on top of e list is not that good.. My name amanda always on top of almost everyone's list so i always receive a lot of forwarded msg. Things like if u don't msg to 7 ppl u will die.. haha..

having weird dreams lately.. Last nite dreamt that my family was happy again. Hee.. Really weird dream. Then i dreamt of e stupid disgusting bedlinen guy who like asking ppl disgusting things.. Hai.. really nightmare.. haha..

so pissed off! maybe it is cos i m not in a good mood today. so i feel like snapping at anything ppl say... today went to work at la.. V pissed off with the bitch.. I think i told ur abt her b4. Pregnant malay woman who steal my sales e other time. Anyway today e manager told me to arrange e fabrics. So i did as told.. Anyway i have finish arranging it so was doing doggy bag.. Anyway e manager left. Then when she saw me folding e doggy bag she was like wa haven't do finish fabric still dare to fold doggy bag. I was like wat the fuck. Then i was like finish already wat. Then she pick those can't see places. Then i was v pissed so i scolded in chinese chou san ba.. Bitch... She is always v sarcastic to me don't know why.. But honestly i couldn't care less. If she is so mean to me all e time i won't be kind to her next time.. Ok unless e manager is around hee.. Then she was powing one parttimer cos he made a lot of sales then she asked him to share e sales with her.. Wat the hell. Don't want to work but want to get money.. lazy pig. Fortunately she is going on her maternity leave soon. go la.. Better still if she don't come back...

So unhappy!!! Hai.. This few times my blog like becoming so unhappy. But i really feel so unhappy now..

Yesterday it was my dad's bday.. Hai.. Though i know i pretended not to know. Seems like no1 cares for him, well at least not 1 of my family member. Hai... Feel a bit sad for him oso.. But everytime i want to be nice to him i will remember how he hurt us, and seriously hai..

Yest talked to elin.. Hee.. V fun talking to her.. Hai.. this is really e most confuse and unhappy time in my life.. ok i know i say tat all e time.. haha.. Hai.. heard my sakae fren they training her to be cashier le.. She came in later than me but they still train her b4 me.. Feel so unfairly treated. Ok i know i m at fault too.. Cos i work so little, they wouldn't train a person who works so little. Hai.. But e reason i work so little there is oso cos of e manager.. hai.. Don't know la.. I know ppl reading this will ask me to quit since i m so unhappy. I really feel like quitting, but not in e mood to handle this stuff now.. I don't really want to deal with quitting..

I feel so fragile now.. Feel like i can start crying over v small things.. Feel like i m dying cos my heart ache so much that i can't breathe... I want to try to forget these things but they jus keep coming back after some time.. hai.. i lost e person who can cheer me up when she accompany me to shopping. hai.. when everything in my world is not fine jus talking to her makes me happy.. I miss her a lot.. jus wonder when she will come back to me..