hai... i hate working... really can't stand e work politics... It is like i really don't want to be involve... but somehow will get pulled down into things... everyone is so suspicious of everyone else... that even if u didn't do it no1 will believe u... it is such a bad enviro to work in. no wonder colleagues can nv be frens... please help me to stop getting involve in this... pls jus leave me out of things... i don't want to be backstabbed again... i don't want to be upset again.. hai... e only reason i m afraid of resigning cos i feel a sense of responsibility towards this job...

oh ya that day me and my fren (cal) went sushi teh to have food... anyway we were sitting at e counter... then there was a space beside my fren and a guy was sitting 2 seats away fr my fren. e guy was waiting for his fren. when his fren came i really got a shock.. hee.. it was jacelyn tay!!! and well she was sitting beside my fren... cool rite? haha... as always kapo amanda nv stop being kapo.. i listen on their conversation.. haha.. but well jus e guy toking.. actually can't rmb wat they talked abt.. but welll jacelyn was like jus agreeing with him.. hee...

oh ya i was rather stupid that day. u know e lift at my hm is like those dark water kind... centre can c ppl one. anyway i tot there was no1 inside e lift.. then when e lift door open i jumped in fright cos there was someone in e lift. haha....i think e person who saw my reaction oso got a shock!

Really damn sick of this world.. Really hate this world. i really hate working and e ppl's working attitude here.... sux!

some ppl r jus so 2 faced. say things but actions completely potray another side. And some ppl jus boss u around to do shit even when u r more senior than them. slacking using e com, throwing her work to other ppl. when there is any trouble nv fail to hold me responsible for it. Bitch! Fucking Bitch! Fortunately she is resigning.. i don't know how much i can take fr this bitch!

This world is so unfair i m so freaking tired of living in this world. everyone working is so freaking selfish and irresponsible. somehow u will always take e blame for things. it was like that bitch is a "junior" but well she get me to finish her task for her.. cos she knows e manager will blame e senior if everything is not well. hello it is not like i m getting more pay. don't u feel that u r a bit useless.. u r getting pay but u r not doin any work. wat a useless lazy bum. maybe i m stupid for being hardworkingl, afterall i won't land in heaven jus cos i m hardworking rite? well c u in hell then.

I can't stand it that wat they r doing is so wrong. but somehow they can make u seem stupid for being hardworking. i jus wonder how many ppl r laughing at my stupidity now. this world is so unfair. wrong things r right and right things r actually wrong. wat values r we teaching our children, y r we even teaching them these values when eventually they will jus become like us selfish and irresponsible. Adults r really e world's greatest liars! i don't want to become a liar! ya i m naive rite? stupid rite? that's y i hate myself!

i hate this world i hate myself. i wish i could become more apathetic to the ppl around me, more apathetic to my job. jus give a bo chap attitude. but i can't... i don't want to become the person i hate when i was young. that person who is selfish, who is irresponsible... i really have a weak character... i will nv succeed in life.... i will continue to be hurt by this world, and there is nth i can do abt it...i hate myself..

People where r ur conscience?! u know kindness begets kindness, treat ur enemies as friends. there is this 2 sayings.. but again there is this saying a tooth for a tooth an eye for an eye. this world is really conflicting.human beings will jus keep finding excuses for his behaviour. we r always rite. that's y there is a saying all mans r selfish well that's y i have to be selfish too rite? Again there is another chinese saying ren zhi zhu xin ben shan ( ppl r born kind) that's y we evolve into selfish adults rite? cos we r only born kind later we will do evil. i hate this world i don't want live in it anymore! i always live and try my best not to take any "revenge" try my best not to hate, but seriously it so hard. i believe in retribution that's y i don't believe in revenge, but well... all this r jus lies to make me feel that e world is still a nice place to live in. hee.. i m e world greatest liar! and dumbest person.

Reading this bk PS i love u by cecilia ahern... Really a good bk. only at chapter 6 and i m already crying... really touching. it is abt this lady whose husband die... how she cope with the grief. some parts r quite funny. v bittersweet... The process of healing fr sadness is really a long process....

watched a few hk drama. under e canopy of love, wars in law. really v nice!!!! hai... have to work tmr.. so tired jus thinking abt it... ok ok nth else to write.. bye

Work is getting super stressed! everytime i m v worried some customers will call up to complain. as in cos they buy big, so u know discount and stuff might have problems.. today really customer called. then those stupid junior every small thing oso call u for help. then they still like to bad mouth u behind ur back. it is like wat the fuck! havent i done enough for u.. it is not like i m getting a higher pay or anything, but my workload and everything is so much higher. shit la... i hope my customer problem will be solved.. i don't want to seem like i give him bad service! hai... stupid la.. hate working.. feel so stress!

Troubles always come together.. hai.. my mom say my dad wants to go gambling again... well... fine... i already feel so numb by it... didn't cry in front of mom... i want to give her courage so i didn't cry. besides i already feel so numb... but somehow when i m writing this tears can't help falling. shit la... whenever things starts looking better sth bad must happen. i m so tired. so tired of living this shit. it is like wat have i done to deserve all this. everytime ppl come looking for trouble with me. y? oh gosh i can't stop crying.. hai... ppl reading these must be thinking don't watch ur dirty linen in public.. seriously there is nth for me to be ashame of... at least i m living my life properly, i m working hard, living an honest live so wat's there to be ashame of. the only problem i have is that i can't escape fr fate. fate jus catch up with me everytime. well fine. if this is my fate i shall live it this way.