just some feelings

today went to ate with lp and sl at sakae after sch.. wa.. we chat for v long... abt the past and well jeff bday and some other stuff la... haha.. we were talking abt who we want to c, ppl fr our class with partners... personally i want to c yik, xiwen and elin with bf... wonder wat it will be like... haha.. i think lp wants to c the same ppl in love too... hee.. i jus want to c the above ppl xinfu...

then we were talking abt stuff la.. anyway i realised i nv feel like falling in love.. haha. as in i jus wouldn't think much abt it la.. and seriously i don't fall for ppl easily. the no of ppl like i like 1 hand still got a lot of space for calculations. hee.. jus don't think i m a emotionally needy person. i guess i m the kind of person who is more suited for single life.. hee..

U know there are times where ppl feel very emotionally vulnerable. especially girls ba.. cos girls are more emotionally attached. hmm... for me i supposed it is during dec. will feel super sad and depressed. cos i hate the new year... haha.. i know all good things must come to an end.. but i seriously hate christmas.. cos soon it will be the start of the new yr.. then everytime after the exchange present and things. when we go our own way will feel v kong xu (empty). during this period of time do not make any rash decision. cos seriously u will tend to regret it after this period.. hee.. seriously.. think clearly ok?!

oh no one less member in the single club.. haha.. in a sense it is a gd thing la.. hee... really hope that person and that person xinfu.. shall not anyhow reveal stuff.. oh ya... y m i the last to know ah? hee.. guess my reaction too slow ba. ppl sense or heard rumours le i still haven't hear anything.. but anyway it is good news. so even if it comes a bit late, it is still ok. i m willing to hear good news anytime... oh ya today heard a lot of news.. i think i m goin to faint.. haha.. maybe get heart attack. oh no so high now! haha.. jus want to say treasure ur time ba...

Red eye day!

woke up with a left red eye. ouch really hurts.. guess it is really dusty these days. have to go to work, but can't wear contacts. so i wore my new black frame glasses. hee.. i guess they were not used to me wearing glasses. and seriously the glasses were a bit huge. cedric kept teasing me that i look like ah wang. somemore cos i got fringe. haha.. then he asked me if i want a bicycle for my bday, since that is wat ah wang likes. haha... idiot. haha.. then after that when i was rushing for my jap class changed v quickly. although my specs were crooked didn't adjust it. they were laughing at me like siao. the glasses too big not my fault. hee...

Oh ya yesterday v suai. don't know y i think i and this cust mrs ting v you yuan. haha.. everytime i serve her she get so angry of me. she likes e executives to serve her. the last time i really made her super angry. then yest when she came i saw her, then she was like u r e one who made me v angry the last time. hai... not my fault... but well. no choice.. v scared lor.. feel like hiding in e store. i know she is a big cust, but wat to do she is oso kind of a bit snobbish, don't really know how to serve a snob. hee.. and no sales target don't want to give a damn abt her.

on e other hand, there was this regular who looked for me. so lucky for her. hee.. as in cos i only come back to help out this 2 days but she oso managed to get hold of me. yest she called e shop looking for me. but well i was around. so managed to fufill her request. mrs poon though she is rather fussy and slow at times she is a nice person.. v understanding. and she is seriously a regular lor. i can't believe the last time e am say that she won't consider her regular, she will rather consider another cust trudy as a regular jus cos she bought a few thousand dollars fr her for like once or twice. then i was arguing with e am. i say now of course she will come and buy, she is furnishing her hse, but after she is done with it, she won't come back. so she is definately not a regular. a regular is someone who buys frequently with relatively large amount. wat the hell. don't understand the meaning of regular ah?! wat a dumb am. jus bcos mrs poon don't like e am to serve her so deprive her the status of a regular, and refuse to give her, her privillages. if they lose this big cust, it is their loss not mine. and i predict they will lose this cust if this is their attitude towards them.

damn the bitch put cedric and roxanne night shift on my bday. they might not be able to come cos taka close at 10pm. hai.. sian... if roxanne don't come might nt be able to count on some other ppl to come. but watever la. though i will be a bit disappointed it is alright la. the worst part is she put herself morning shift so that she can come to my bday. wa lao. and i was praying she wouldn't come. hello don't u get the hint u think skin, ugly piece of shit. definately bring her pervert bf there. shucks! this 2 days i suppose she keep trying to talk to me. but i keep avoiding her.. haha.. cos when she comes close to u, u know she is goin to bitch already. then b4 that happens i faster change position. haha.. kind of pity her at times. she really got no genuine friend. hai... must tell her by buying gifts for people, doesn't buy u friendship. by being nice to people then u can obtain true friends. hai.. u think ur small gifts can bribe us meh? ur evil badmouthing of us, ur gifts is never enough to make up for it. so sad la. seriously u sld jus rot in hell. cos no1 appreciates u... haha.. oh no i m so mean!!! hai... vending my anger. shit la.. bday must act again!

oh ya today sl told me that the taiwan actress xu weilun passed away le.. she is e one who got fei wen with zai zai and lee wai. the cute cute one. kind of feel sad. she got into an accident on fri. due to internal bleeding she passed away today. oh gosh she is really young 28. makes me think. taiwan road really scary le.. want to remind those drivers, drive carefully. speed is ok but not at a point where u might have to lose ur life for it. oh gosh she is so young. i don't want to die so early...

Recent events

last fri kok meng called me. idiot la.. hee.. he asked me to guess who he was. i don't have caller id. and seriously i haven't heard fr him for like 5 years. of course i don't know who he is la.. anyway, he keep asking me to guess, gave me the hint that i msg him a few days ago. hee.. seriously i msg a lot of guys... of course won't know which one. i oso don't want to guess wrongly later bei tao chu hua (accidentally reveal things) not v gd. we talked abt the past. haha.. seems like other than his voice nth else changed much. as always he can read me like a book. i haven't changed one bit. (jus wonder if it is a gd or bad thing) anyway it was nice talking to him after so many yrs...

last sat went to my aunt's house to play with my naughty niece. hee.. really like her a lot. suddenly my cousins started asking me when i graduating. come to think of it, graduating next yr. so scary. then 2 of my cousins pregnant le. one boy one girl. i was telling my mom i must treasure the time i have playing with my niece, cos when she grow older she won't be so fun le. hai.. my mom told me not to worry still got other cousin kids to play with.. hee.. my cousin mentioned that i have to help her look after her kids till they r 6 or 7.. must tutor them, play with them. haha.. by then when they r 7 i already 28. so old le.. hee.. so scary... things start to fly. no wonder they say time past v quickly once u r 21. and technically i m not 21 yet.

recently been reminishing abt the past.. like wat i did with my pri sch frens, my pri sch crush... hee.. the stupid things we did tgth. then tot abt my secondary sch fren. really talk to some of them on the phone till so late. go out cycling, me teaching some of them how to ride bike. the sec 4 camp. and of course my jc frens. the mass dance we had, go jurong mkt eat food, studying tgth.

memories are so precious. somehow we have drifted apart, with my pri sch frens, sec sch frens and jc frens... more of less... things will never be the same again. even if we do the same things together with the same people. as we grow up, we have our own life to live. we will always have a new group of friends, and somehow we will have more common topic to talk about with this new groups of frens. people change, environment changes. at times i don't like this fact. cos no matter how much we changed i feel that i have not changed at all. everyone seems to have move on but i live in e memories of how they were b4. Though i know our friendship will not change, and we may not have time for each other, but i couldn't help feel that i want to go back to the past. hee.. at the point of time that those things happened, i didn't feel exceptionally happy, but now that i think of it, i feel v happy. Don't forget me ok? don't forget the good times that we had together, we might not be best friends now, but ur will always have a place in my heart, so i also hope that i will have a place in ur heart. think of me occationally... because i will think of ur occationally too.. hee.. most importantly try to meet up no matter how busy we r ok?!

Today i had cf with colleen. she and melissa told me that she is goin to attend a fren's wedding on sat. wa.. i was super shocked. hee.. they r like 23 or 24. marry so young for wat. then she was warning me soon i will have a lot of friends getting married too and in the future all the gatherings i have with my friends will be at weddings. hee... wa.. so scary. haha.. i asked her if her fren was pregnant then she say no.. then i say then y does she want to get married so early? siao ah? haha.. the only reason y anyone (i think) will marry early is bcos they r pregnant. then i told her in e future if any of my frens tell my they r getting married so early i will ask them if they r pregnant. those frens who r below 20 and r getting married. don't even need to ask. must be pregnant! or else must be bei nan ren pian ( get cheated by man) haha... so scary! i don't want to have gatherings at wedding dinner so soon! hee..

some jokes to share got this fr an email

1st thief: Oh! The police are here. Quick! Jump out of the window2nd thief: But this is the 13th floor.1st thief: Hurry! This is no time for superstitions.

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Girl: Do you love me?Boy: Yes DearGirl: Would you die for me?Boy: No, mine is undying love--------------------------------------------------
Man: How old is your father?Boy: As old as meMan: How can that be?Boy: He became a father only when I was born--------------------------------------------------

Waiter: I've stewed liver, boiled tongue and frog's leg.Customer: Don't tell me your problems. Give me the menu card.------------------------------------------

Teacher: Simon, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same asyour brother's. Did u copy his?Simon: No, teacher, it's the same dog!--------------------------------------------------

Father: Your teacher says she finds it impossible to teach you anything!Son: That's why I say she's no good!--------------------------------------------------

Manager: Sorry, but I can't give u a job. I don't need much help.Job Applicant: That's all right. In fact, I'm just the right person in this case. You see, I won't be of much help anyway!--------------------------------------------------

Teacher: "How do u think Shakespeare wrote such masterpieces?"College student: "With a pencil, madam, either a 2B or not 2B."---------------------------------------------------

"Mum, teacher was asking me today if I have any brothers or sisters whowill be coming to school.""That's nice of her to take such an interest, dear. What did she say when utold her u are the only child?""She just said, 'Thank goodness!'"--------------------------------------------------

Teacher: "Where were u born?"Student: " Singapore, Sir."Teacher: "Which part?"Student: "All of me, Sir."----------------------------------------------------

Teacher: "Chong, u missed school last Friday."Chong: "You're wrong, Sir."Teacher: "Wrong, how is that?"Chong: "I was absent, yes but I certainly didn't miss it!"----------------------------------------------------

A teacher was asking her class: "What is the difference between 'unlawful'and 'illegal'?" Only one hand shot up."Ok, answer, Joan," said the teacher."æ...unlawful' is when u do something the law doesn't allow and 'illegal isa sick eagle."---------------------------------------------------

Doctor: I have some bad news and some very bad news.Patient: Well, might as well give me the bad news first.Doctor: The lab called with your test results. They said you have 24 hours to live.Patient: 24 hours! That's terrible!! What could be worse? What's the very bad news?Doctor: I've been trying to reach you since yesterday.-----------------------------------------------------

Patient: I'm in a hospital! Why am I in here?Doctor: You've had an accident involving a train.Patient: What happened?Doctor: Well, I've got some good news and some bad news. Which would you like to hear first?Patient: Well... The bad news first...Doctor: Your legs were injured so badly that we had to amputate both of them.Patient: That's terrible! What's the good news?Doctor: There's a guy in the next ward who made a very good offer on your slippers.-----------------------------------------------------

Patient: How much to have this tooth pulled?Dentist: $90.00.Patient: $90.00 for just a few minutes work???Dentist: I can extract it very slowly if you like.-----------------------------------------------------

Teacher: "How come you do not comb your hair?"Ah Kow: "No comb, Sir."Teacher: "Use your dad's then."Ah Kow: "No hair, Sir."----------------------------------------------------

A boy came home from school with his exam results."What did u get?" asked his father."My marks are under water," said the boy."What do you mean 'under water'?""They are all below 'C' level"


Hope ur enjoy it. when i have time will post an entry abt wat i have been doin recently haha...

jaja's bday

yesterday wrote an entry but somehow it got deleted!!!!! angry must write again. yesterday me and erin worked b.. then somehow we lost each other at far east. they feel that lynn is picking on erin. to some extent i agree.. but sometimes.. if u really do things well ppl oso can't do anything to u...

last nite after work me and teresa took a cab to pasir ris chalet to attend jaja's bday. angela was supposed to come with us. but she don't want to c lynn so didn't come in e end. when we reached there it was abt 10.30pm. we stayed till 11pm to catch e last train. when we came. this lynn's bf kept looking at us. jus wonder wat she told him abt us. anyway he give me the creeps. don't like him. by instinct he is not a gd guy. i told cedric this. then he was like that's y they r a couple. don't like that this guy is (da liang) looking at u up down, but u know don't talk to us jus give u e look. i bet lynn must have told him we r don't have bf v poor thing. haha... watever la. having a bf like him, can go knock wall and die.. oh no must liu some kou de.. later suffer retribution get a bf like him.. ai yo.. i take back wat i jus said.

oh ya e food was not bad.. maybe jus cos i love chicken wings la.. anyway, after eating e 2nd chicken wing teresa and cedric told me that it is not really cooked. but i didn't care jus ate 5 chicken wings anyway. today suffered stomach v pain. today i blamed them for not telling me the chicken wings were uncooked. then cedric and teresa said that they did remind me.. haha.. i don't remember if they did remind me. i supposed they did la, but i was too engrossed in eating didn't hear them. ahah... oh ya cedric bua tahan my chi xiang ( the way i eat) then i purposely eat and talk and face him at the same time. all e food splutered on his face.. haha.. but today i scold him told him that his chi xiang v ugly oso! then we were like arguing who worse. shall let teresa be the judge. haha..

oh ya then teresa went hm with roxanne, elaine, jiayi so left with me. then cedric and e couple same way. but b4 that cedric promised to acc me to mrt. so in e end cedric asked them if i could follow them to bedok then take train. they agreed. but v weird lo.. when go hm, she must ask me again. she really want me to owe her favours. she give me the feeling that she is reminding me that she is doin a gd deed.. but well jus pretend pretend to beg her no harm. maybe i should have jus walked hm.. haha...

oh ya on e street me teresa cedric were walking togth. me and teresa walking side by side. she near drain i near street. haha. teresa was saying if i push her she will be in e drain. then i told her don't worry i will save her.. but she jus say she will pull me along into e drain. haha.. after that i told her if she push me i will lose my life. cos the street have oncoming traffic. ahha..

oh ya when i reached bedok mrt i v blur.. i fr one hand of the exit walk to the other hand, cos i was following the crowd. i still tot wa.. so late so many ppl take mrt. then realised i followed wrongly. haha.. dumb amanda! almost missed e last train in e process of following strangers!

today is my official last day. but i m goin back nxt nxt wk to help! yea... bought farewell gift for everyone spent abt $30.. but ya they r nice to me must be nice back. got farewell gift a hello kitty music box and biscuitts.. they didn't remove e price tag! like want me to know how much. hee.. oh ya wanted to scare cedric today stand behind e door waiting for him for a long time.. but stupid cedric came to work late! no chance le! must scare him another day! elaine was really nice gave us cookies and book. her bk v useful.. after that when i go jap class immediately used it. thanks guys! ok gd bye for now.. can't rmb wat else i wanted to talk abt. hee..

continued

please read previous post. this is a continuation. somehow can retrive my previous post. so i can't continue fr there. anyway was bitching abt e bitch. now shall talk abt sth else.. ahhaha..

oh ya last sun i tricked nicholas into helping me. haha... we ok i suppose i only me, was supposed to clean the fabric rack. haha.. cos i was working night shift. and somehow that bitch will assign a lot of stuff for us (night shift) to do. i finished doing one rack when nic and e rest of a shift went for break. then when nic came back fr lunch, i asked him to help me cos e fabric rather heavy. i m feeling kind of weak these days. though my stomach recovered, i m still only bag and bones. oh ya anyway nick was helping me, then i had to go for lunch. so i told him to slowly do e rest, i will continue when i come back. in e end he finished doin everything. haha.. then when i came back fr break, he was like amanda u tricked me, that was not wat i was supposed to do.. hee.. but well when i told teresa, we kind of discussed that, that shouldn't be the attitude. y should e a shift slack and b shift work like hell. don't know wat the bitch is thinking.

Anyway that day bitch tried to kill me again. haha..she brought this enormous stack of cushions fr the store, then she told me to display them. but it is like e cushion rack already have more than enough cushion. if i stuff somemore cushions there the display would be horrible. but anyway she took them out, then she jus went for a meeting after that. wat the fuck! leave me to do all her dirty work. in e end i talked to teresa again. she told me elaine the designer was e one who visual display e cushions, and kept all those cushion. sometimes i really think she v bo liao. nth to do find rubbish to do. haha.. reminds me of wat cal say abt her. cal used to say when jo e manager is around she will become v hardworking. she will do a lot of manual working like sweeping, wiping arranging things. haha... then when jo is not around she will abuse her power. u should c when jo is around. so funny.. other assis manager discuss plans with the manager, this assis manager sweep, mop, dust, and most importantly steal sales fr part timers. crap la. wat a figurehead. heard she steal sales fr alex. wat the fuck. she seriously must have done a lot of good things in her past live so she is so lucky. she don't deserve this luck. so happy that i m leaving this shit place...

oh ya now for another blur thing i did. i think all e silly things i did, i can accumulate it and compile it into a book le. hee.. everyday we r supposed to key things into the japan web inventory system so that we can be updated abt how many available items we have. we r supposed to key it in the nite, after there r less cust. if we didn't do it, e ppl in e morning shift have to do it. so anyway one nite teresa didn't key so i had to key e next day. we r supposed to key the date of sales we made. so there was one time i forgot, i was supposed to key e previous day, but i keyed e date on that day. so i reminded myself not to make this stupid mistake again. anyway, in e end i made a even more stupid mistake. the yr instead of keying 2007, i keyed 2006. then i was like something is wrong with this stupid computer.. haha.. but i realised it was me who is wrong. hai.. dumb amanda. in e future no chance to make this stupid mistake le!

ok now i shall talk abt my bday. seriously i m still afraid not many ppl will come. ok shall tell ur the theme of the bday. i m goin for a colour theme. since my dress is red. e theme is red. must wear sth red. or else i will paint ur nails and lips in red. there will be a best dressed competition that nite, decided by my relatives which one of my frens is e best dressed. rather tempted not to tell e guys abt the dress code.. hee.. so that i can paint their nails red. haha...

Oh ya abt my prez. pls don't give me soft toys, photo frames, deco items, voucher and cash. i hate this! i think they r the really mei yo xin (no heart) present. ok if u really can't think of wat to buy give me a voucher at most, don't give me cash. i m seriously not expecting my good frens to give me any of those not even voucher. and don't give the excuse of not being able to get sth i like. getting sth i don't like is better than getting me heartless stuff. if u really don't know wat i like ask my close frens.oh ya if u really don't have the money to buy prez then jus come, don't need to buy ( this does not apply to close frens and colleagues, cos colleagues r still working so sld have money)though i say this i still hope u buy la.. haha... ok that all..

Stranger than fiction

osomehow my entire post got deleted so i can't remember wat i wrote previously. oh ya, on mon went to watch stranger than fiction at cathay cineplex. it was not bad. i almost cried when i tot harold would have to die.. haha.. the seats there r great. there is couple seats. more spacious i suppose. and the cinema is quite new. not many ppl go there on a wkday.

Oh ya when we were at top shop we saw he chao yi and her husband. e plum guy fr alive... hee.. when sl told me i was looking at e guy first, he was rather familiar. then i saw he chao yi. umm.. this is not the first time i saw her.. but well quite fun to c stars in e midst of shopping.. haha.. but i think i quite blind at times.. i remember once when adella was telling me michelle chia and her bf i was like where where.. then they were actually standing rite in front of me.

to prove my point of me being rather blind at times. i will give another example. haha.. later when we were walking toward toys r us to buy some invitation card for my bday, someone shouted my name. i was standing in e middle of the street looking left and right, up and down until sl pointed to someone near me. realise it was cal calling me. hee.. cal damn entertaining. haha.. she asked me if i was goin to lina's daughter bday. but she didn't say lina. she jus remember it is a malay girl so she said siti. haha.. i was laughing like crazy. then she said she jus remember it is a malay girl so gave a random malay name. haha...

oh ya i need ur addresses for the invitation card. if anyone is reading this.. pls post ur address under comments. if i can c u i will pass it to u personally. oh gosh still really worried no1 will come. ok i shall talk abt this later. let me talk abt some other stuff first.

On tue, went to work. didn't put any eye makeup.. cos well i think i m going blind.. haha... actually i m kind of already half blind most of the time. but my eyes is rather itchy recently.. so well didn't put on much makeup. in the end when i go to work all my managers tot i had a rough night. haha... they were like trying to make me talk abt my "rough nite" but well nth to talk abt. jus that i m rather fed up of working, don't want to work anymore. well the stupid assis manager was rather rude again. i didn't know she was serving this cust. so i went to serve them. then suddenly she came by my side and told me i can go away i m not needed here. i was like wat the fuck. i don't even want ur sales. i was jus being polite answering the cust question. and u must chase me away when they r asking me question. wat the fuck! i think e manager knew i was a bit upset abt it, she came to talk to me testing waters. but well i jus kept quiet. no pt bitching abt someone who everyone knows is bad. jus like u don't have to smell rubbish to know that it smells bad. after that i think e assis manager was afraid i was angry so came talk to me abt some crap. well i yin chou her and laugh along. well i guess i m becoming a v gd actress.

last sun she also kind of pissed me off. cos she caught one of the newcomers playing e com when she is not around. in e end ask me to talk to her, cos she don't want to offend the newcomer. wat the hell. i m jus a part timer.. y must i discipline ur staff for u. seriously i don't give a damn. and i don't like scolding ppl. even if i scold someone they will know that it is u who wants to scold them. so well.. haha... hai.. she is such a villian. after that she still go to the newcomer and chat and laugh.. wat the hell. but i suppose everyone here don't really like her. oh ya adam told me he will come to my bday if she don't go. well i m trying my best. that is all i can say. i will ask everyone and persuade them to come, but well i jus kind of not try to persuade her. don't know if it will work. hopefully it does. haha... well first i must trick adam to come then plan other things later.. haha... adam better not be reading this or he will kill me.

Happy birthday liling!

Yesterday liling at a bday party and xin and yin's house. well the response was quite good. most of our jc ppl came. realise i m always e odd one out. everyone gave liling angbo except me. i already bought a prez for her. haha... her party ended relatively early at 9pm. so after that e guys wanted to go holland v for drinks. so we went oso.

it was kind of funny la.. cos there was a poor recruit junhong with us. then he kept saying that he want to take bus to holland v. haha... then when e first grp of guys got onto the cab, we were still arguing abt taking the bus to holland v. in e end, 3 ppl in one cab. somehow me yik and leong got into e cab tgth. jh, lam, pak were in e other one. then their driver turned e other direction. we were still discussing that they get con e driver go e longer way. haha.. it e end it seems like we were e ones who got con. all of them paid 7.40 for e cab fare, we paid 9 bucks!!!! stupid driver! haha...

We went coffee club for coffee then anyway we had this one bit of chicken left, we added ice cream and sauce to it. then we played zhong zi mi ma.. hee.. lam got it. yucks!!! luckily me and yik didn't get it. the guys were talking abt how chio liling's sis is. but liling sis really v pretty, even me and yik can't help staring at her. she really look v gentle and pretty. i guess their family have good genes. all of them look v nice.

when we went hm we have e same problem again. e guys in our class v po ma. haha... so we took like 20min to decide how to get home. in e end me and yik decided to walk to the 198 bus stop. it was rather far, but me and yik were walking v fast. when we were on e overhead bridge we still can wave to the guys downstairs.. hai.. guys.. haha... but ok la.. it was relatively fun. didn't expect myself to enjoy their company.

gosh abt my bday thing, i m having some problems. a lot of ppl r complaining that it is too far. but like my mom say if it is at a function rm it won't be that fun. can't play majhong or cards. can't go cycling. but then kind of afraid no1 will turn up cos it is too far. actually they can stay overnight if they want.. bt well i don't know la.. v ma fan... i m having a headache jus thinking abt it. my mom say if ur frens really have e heart to come no matter how far they would. but i really want to celebrate my bday with ppl who made a part in my life no matter how small. not that i want any presents or anything. i jus want it to be re nao. the thought that the turnout won't be good makes me feel kind of scared and sad. although liling's bday was boring, but it was fun cos there were a lot of our classmates. if let's say ai ya.. i don't know la. i suppose i will jus have it at a chalet those who want to come, come. those who don't want.. then there is nth i can do abt it. but please come la.. i hope ur come...

Happy new year

Went to watch death note 2 on the first. It was not bad... I liked part 1 better, there were more twist to it. Gosh was still sick on new year. Stomach still v weak. After we had lunch. I was like breaking out in cold sweat... But I forgot to bring my medicine out so didn't have it. Actually really don't like this feeling... Feel so sick and weak! Feel so light. There is so many things I want to eat but my stomach can't take it. it will hurt terribly, yesterday after lunch and dinner also. Didn't have a good night sleep at all. The worst thing is tat u c papal eat but u can't eat...

Yesterday work was v fun. No managers around. haha... We played with the mannequins hand. We put on a glove on it. I wanted to scare Cedric so hid it near the cushion... Who knows a cust was looking thru the cushion.. Saw e hand and get scared instead.. Shucks! Hope she don't go and complain.. Ha.. but it was really funny. Then after that there was this troublesome weird Indonesian cust. Then I was imitating her.. No no, ya ya, wait wait... haha.. so funny! gosh feeling a bit playful lately. don't have much time with them. Had to help my manager do a report oso. hai.. jus did crap.. haha... Seriously la... her job in e shop is so simple. Her report is so easy to do lo.. gosh i really feel like i m being underpaid.. haha...

dinner went to have pepper lunch with minli and sam.. hee... as ur know my stomach was not v gd... we jus kind of catch up abt the past. sam was late as usual. so his treats for drinks... haha... had coffee club mango tea.. tasted like mango smoothie... but i like it nevertheless.. minli drove us home... she is really not bad at driving.. hee... i tot those ppl who jus got their license would drive at tortise speed, but she was rather fast... and well... really great. so fun! this is the first time i took a car which my fren drove.. Anyone want to drive me too?!

Hai.. feel kind of depressed... don't know whether it is my sickness, or bcos it is e new year. hai.. i don't want the new year to come. i don't want to grow up. I m so immature all the time, but i can't change that! i want to be ambitious! i want to be hardworking! i want to be a successful career woman. haha... but don't think i can do so. i hate it. time is not on my side. i got so many things to do but so little time. gosh feel so tired. crying without any reason... i don't want things to change, but i supposed things would.