Tried very hard to blog last night. somehow when your luck is bad, even the website despise you. I jus can't seem to assess the site no matter how hard i try. I don't know y but it always feels like that when i m unhappy and try to blog somehow i will jus lose assess...
Feel super moody. I really think i have the worst luck. it was one of my unluckiest day yesterday. Went to expo for exams. it is damn far. you would be thinking from clementi to expo should have place to sit. especially since it was the afternoon. anyway, i had no such luck. had to stand till quite far before i had a place to sit. When i reach expo, had to walk to the inner halls. super far.
The place was so chaotic. we were told to arrive there earlier. the sitting plan and desk number was placed outside the hall. But u imagine about 1500+ people came for the exams, how messy would that be. i tot i saw the correct desk number, but i didn't. The door to the exam hall only opened 10min before the exams. Then the moment we step inside the stupid invigilator was nagging at us to get to our seats faster. hello!!! the hall is so damn big, to get to my seat i have to walk at least 100m. I walked to the desk that i tot was correct, then went to place my bag behind the hall behind the hall is like another 100m. anyway, i was at a wrong table. one lady came to tell me this is her sit. as the exam was starting and if i walk a l00m out again to look for the place i might not be in time so i sat at another table, then another person came to chase me out of the seat. hai... i then moved to a 3rd table. At this point, i was really about to burst into tears, with the exam stress. I mean seriously i haven't take a paper for more than 1 yr le. i m feeling v nervous le, then there had to be such a cock up! and the invigilator, didn't even give you enough time to settle down! wat the hell!
later the invigilator came to check our id. she told me i was in the wrong exam hall, taking the wrong paper. i told her i might be at the wrong table but definately not taking the wrong paper. they came to pester me a few times, i could hardly concentrate on my paper. hai... anyway later they found out i was at the wrong table so they jus mark my attendence. watever! The paper was really tough. i studied rather hard for it! Wat i studied didn't came out at all, this year is the first year the paper is taken. Hence, those old impt concepts might not be impt to them anymore. I walked into the exam room with confidence that i would do well, now seriously i jus pray to pass. i don't want to retake this! This is really exam luck at test! I mean you know a lot of important things from the old syallabus, cos you were taught that way, then everything that is unimportant fr the old syallbus becomes impt. And you barely know them. Wat the fuck! I seriously wasted one year of studying! i should jus take the old syallabus, maybe i would pass if i took it. No wonder only 60percent pass. hai.. i really pray that i don't fail...
Later on my way home. i waited 20min for the bus, then the bus though it was not full, jus drove off. wat the hell! i had to wait another 20min. by that time it was already 8pm, it was raining and i was hungry and tired and unhappy, but it seems the worst doesn't stop coming. sl consoled me saying the worst is over, ya right the worst has yet to come more like it. Today i will be having soci paper after that having tuition. Hai... Though it is my exam my tuition r rather frequent, not as lucky as some ppl can cancel their tuition for 3 wks. my student is having his exam, can't be irresponsible, your future r at risk so is theirs. Tmr morning i still have exams! Hai.. not as lucky as lp can cancel tuition for 3 wks and go stay at her bf house which is nearby. Seriously i m at my break point, if something small or watever happens, i jus might burst into tears.
