kids

damn! freaking irritating. rainy days so the com is super lagging la.. can't watch videos and stuff.. ok ok that's not the point shall jus use one para complaining abt it. hahaha..

ok today went to sch, on the bus there were these pri sch kids, peitong kids. damn irritating la. pushing here and there. their uniform v weird le.. their pants like 3/4. not short not long. makes me remember the brat i m teaching is fr that sch. wa.. makes me realised last time i used to want to be a teacher. now seriously.. a few of them is fine. one big grp of kids r jus noisy... oh ya i realised boys when they r young already like grping tgth talking crap. i jus think that somethings nv change even when boys grow up, they will still grp tgth to talk crap. hahahha.. ok ok. no offence.

this make me want to complain abt sth. my tuition kid (the kid i give tuition to), i seriously think, these days it is not only the kids that have a problem. the parents have a problem too. every morning when i supposingly goin to have tuition with the kid the mom will call me. well that morning she called me and tell me her daughter haven't finish doin her tuition work. i was like ok, so wat the hell is she expecting me to do. then anyway, i jus went there realised she didn't do her work. basically not fierce by nature. can't scold her, and when i scold her, her mom will also u know be protective of her. so no choice. then her mom was like telling me i must persuade her to do her homework. must ask her to write neatly, must discipline her. must train her to be more hardworking, must reward her. hello! i m the tutor remember?! i only come here once a week! how m i supposed to do all that! i m here to help her with her sch work. and u pay me such a measly sum, u expect me to do all that?! not only that, her mom bought stacks of past yr paper, ask me to sort it out and file for her.. wa. now i m not only a tutor, i m oso an admin assistant la?! imagine.. mouth cannot stop scolding/teaching her, hands also cannot stop fileling the past yr papers. wa.. i m really wonder woman.

seriously i couldn't understand one thing. how come there is such an irresponsible parent, or irresponsible parents. jus by hiring a tutor u expect her to solve all the problems for u? disciplining the child and upbringing the child is not my responsiblility. if u can't take the responsibility don't have a child. moreover, this mom is not a working woman, is a housewife. so can't u at least invigilate ur child to do her homework. i only go there once a wk, how m i supposed to do that. if she don't do her work i can't do anything. i can't sit there for 5 hrs to let her complete it. and not only that, she seriously spoil her already. since u can't bear to hit her or bear to c her in pain, r u goin to let me do the hard job for u?! not possible rite? u will most likely cane me after i cane her.

really pity those teachers working in a sch where these irresponsible complain. complain abt the lousy teaching. complain abt everything under the sun... parents should educate their child. nowadays parents jus spoil their children instead of educating them. then when they children r naughty or watever, not their fault, teacher's fault. seriously if i have a brat, i m goin to hit her legs until it break! in the past i believe in ai de jiao yu (love edu) now completely don't think so... it won't work lo..

oh ya sl was telling me her mom's fren v poor thing. cos recently she is a guardian to her relative child fr hk. then the child is really naughty. he did things that even a adult wouldn't do. anyway the aunt hit the child. then in e end got charged for child abuse. wa v scary.. like drama. anyway when the child parent's came they didn't want to bring their child back oso. wa lao.. it is ur child le... u let him go torture other ppl. and instead of discipling him, u dump that responsibility to someone else completely unrelated. ai yo.. so terrible. why did u even bring him to the world!

oh ya read newspaper. don't know whether it is true. a 9yr old gave birth to a baby. ai yo so scary. 9 yr old got boyfriend le and have sex! wa.. children these days really scary... v tramautising.. ai yo... really don't know wat kind of world kids live in these days...

boring day

well realised i really can sleep.. having habits like a pig.. hahaha.. slept at 12mn yest. then this morning 11am then wake up after that at 2 went to slp till 4.. really can sleep.. i know i m supposed to be studying.. but too bored..

today i was watching tv abt coming yr fortune for horoscope.. hai.. aquarius ppl is in the chart for the worse luck. we will have the 2nd worse luck in love and the 1st worse luck in work. somemore my chinese shen xiao oso in the worse for work.. hee.. i think quite true le.. the love thing was like i will meet some disgusting ppl. then they say must analyse clearly with my frens abt him b4 accepting. if i hestitate abt accepting him, i sld not accept him.. so true.. already met a few bastards this yr.. hahaha.. then in work i will keep switching jobs.. which seems true ba. i mean i quit my stable job le.. anyway main impt advice is 祸从嘴出 so they warned me against talking too much. which is kinda hard for me.. that is also quite true.. cos i realised i always offend ppl when i talk.. gosh gosh.. this is such a hard yr for me.. can't talk, can't pa tuo, can't have stable environment in work.. hai.. the worse thing is can't talk la.. i like talking so much. asking me not to talk is a fate worse than death.. hai... must remind me not to talk so much hor..

oh ya.. then teresa came my hse to do her project.. ok la.. we talked a lot.. teresa is also another worm in my stomach.. hahaha.. b4 i tell her e conclusion she already can predict.. haha.. maybe cos i m a predictable person.. hahaha.. i m getting thinner la.. too many worms in my stomach.. hahaha..

yik u r really a worm in my stomach.. hahaha..

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so bored...

haha.. not supposed to be at hm now. supposed to be at sch.. anyway jus some feelings.. i don't mind waking up to an empty house, but i don't like coming home to an empty house.. hahaha.. house is so quiet now, can jus on the tv and use computer. but jus didn't like this feeling today...

today had ibm at 1.30pm. then 6pm had mkting. when me and lp went for mkting, felt that it was rather useless so decided to pon during break. my brain cells have all died during ibm. today v few ppl attended ibm, nagab keep targetting me and lp. fortunately i could ans all his questions, though i haven't revised much yet.. but ibm is gd la.. make us think...

during e break we were talking in e toilet abt leaving mkting half way. damn it la.. e mkting teacher heard us... hahaha.. she was in e toilet but i didn't notice. anyway later when we were packing our bags she jus stood beside us. i felt a bit guilty. but i seriously felt i couldn't stay on.. i feel so restless. i need a break..

feeling a bit weird these days.. can't really describe how i feel. jus feeling weird.. maybe it is e holi cum exam mood.. making me v lost.. hahaha.. sld study..

jus some thoughts abt cny

hee.. i know i previously mentioned that i don't like cny these days... but for me it is already a tradition. visiting relatives and stuff, though they r boring i m used to doing it. i have to admit to some extent i don't enjoy doing it, but too me.. family is very important. though i might not be close to them no matter wat they r my family. so i have to make it a point to be there during chinese new year...

actually i m quite disgusted by wat one of my cousin did during cny. i didn't c her throughout this cny not even at her parent's place. this cousin is married for 3 yrs le... and fr wat my relative said they have been avoiding cny cos they don't want to give red packets... hee.. i seriously didn't observe that until this yr. actually i have so many relative, so who don't give me red packet i also don't know.. hahahaha.. anyway i think it is quite disgusting la.. cos the whole family is there but they r not there, moreover it is not like they r earning v little. it is like so stingy for wat.. only one year once ma... and it is not about giving hong bao. it is the atmosphere. i don't like my relative much. i wouldn't say i hate them, jus that not v close to them.. but i like the atmosphere.. the whole family gathering together, niece and nephew, uncle and auntie, cousins and even the maids gathering tgth to do housework, they seems to have fun tgth... how can they not be there how can they miss the "warmth" of the family. hee..

my mom was saying this youngsters so self centered.. now that they form their own family all they care abt is their family and friends... to some extent i kind of agree la.. i wouldn't say i m not one of them... but fr wat my cousin did.. i realised, i don't want to be like her... i don't want to lose my roots, i don't want to miss my chance to get to know my cousins more... gosh i m so easily swayed.. one moment i m having extreme feelings abt cny.. and now.. changed my mind so easily.. haha.. hopefully won't become like her.. even if i have to zuo xi during cny.. i will do it more willingly..

happy chinese new year!

hee.. happy new year... i wanted to sleep early last nite but somehow i couldn't sleep.. haha.. anyway thank goodness i didn't sleep.. managed to catch kang xi on scv. got my fav guy! kelvin cheng and bosco! hee.. they were in taiwan to promote the show under the canopy of love. it is a really great show.. anyway so happy to c them though they didn't make much apperance cos they couldn't speak much chinese... hahaha... that was wat i spent my ny doin, watchin tv...

anyway morning we went grandma place. played majhong with grandma.. won some money.. hahaha... tmr goin to my aunt's place to play mj with my cousin, and play with my nieces... i brought the kids down to the playground to play, cos it seems like no adults were accompanying them. though their parents say it would be fine, i felt worried.. so went down with them. so unfair.. my new shoes hurt.. and they r not for running or playing catching lor!!! the kids kept running and me this old auntie have to run after them, then keep telling them to wait for me.. hahaha.. so unfair la.. they keep say play catching, then ask me to be catcher... ai yo.. i told them how did i get involved in this.. i was only supposed to watch over them.

anyway i played with them la.. hahahaha... u can jus imagine, me in makeup playing catching under the hot sun in the playground. haha... i can't get down the slide la.. got stuck there haha.. and i can't catch them. cos they run v fast. not that i don't run fast enough. it is jus that they r v small built, then have no problem climbing up the slides and all that i keep getting stuck somewhere and my shoes r still so unsuitable for running.. my niece still scold me for wearing nice shoes. cos i the kind of shoes i wore not suitable for running.. haha.. but it was quite fun la.. really like being with them. when they grow older le.. even if i want to play with them they won't want to play with me.. starting to feel a bit sad at the thought of that... haha.. anyway it was good exercise.. haha.. my nephew shawn so cute.. when his parents want to bring him back. he kept mumbling he don't want to go hm... hee.. i remembered last yr he also cried when it was time to go hm.. it is like he not that sociable with the other kids, but secretly he really like the other kids a lot... and like playing with them a lot. i really could understand him.. so cute! the only fun thing abt cny is being able to play with my niece and nephews... and winning money playing mahjong. but it will only be fun if i win...

went shopping

today went shopping with sl to get my ny clothes.. actually didn't want to go out. but cos sl won movie premeire tic to dream girls. so decided to shun bian go buy clothes. gosh spent a lot of money... hee.. but i m happy spending it.. but really think that i can be a spent thrift at times. anyway bought 2 tops and a pair of shoes and a wallet. although i received a wallet for my bday didn't really like it.. so still bought one. it is damn idiotic. everytime i go top shop don't expect to get the 10dollars voucher then really don't know wat to spend it on.. but ok la.. bought a top that i rather like. but i have a same t-shirt jus diff colour. haha.. but it is ok la.. no choice ma.. i should have jus paid for the shoes first. then when i get e voucher then buy e wallet. stupid me didn't check how many pts there was b4 buying.. hai.. haha.. feeling the pinch on my wallet.. i want to spend but not so much in a day.. but ok la it was enjoyable.. goin broke.. hahaha.. now only got tuition, no income.

oh ya dream girls is really nice. it was a musical.. really sweet... about friendship, love and dreamz.. jealousy really kills friendship.. so ladies.. nv fight over any guys... no guys is worth it.. and seriously fame can kill friendship... oh ya the "blacks" (i m not making a racist remark, jus that i don't know a better word to use) r really good singers! everyone can sing! and they sing fantastically.. wa.. really wish i have their voice... i was quite suprised ppl like eddie murphy and jamie foxx can sing.. especially eddie murphy. always remember him as doctor dolittle. haha... they really got a soulful voice. but i think they use a lot of energy to sing a song. jus wonder whether they will get v exhasted after singing one song... jessica hudson really can sing.. really soulful.

oh ya this show really reminds me of choir.. reminds me of wat the choir teacher used to tell us. it is like the blacks r born with a good voice. at times i wonder if there is a tone deaf black.. i suppose not. oh ya that is not the point.. hahaha.. always talk out of point. anyway the choir teacher was saying the songs the blacks sings r often v inspirational. cos the blacks used to be slaves in america. so they sing songs, some is like secret messages to escape, and some are for motivation to work. they r really meaningful songs

oh ya really feel like singing k.. haha.. want to practice for sl bday... ah.. jus now so high... saw my lao gong! felt so down after not seeing him.. hahaha... he really handsome... really love him.. hahaha.. oh no... too high le... i think it is due to not enough sleep hee hee...

been thinking

this post may seem v unfillial.. pls don't scold me.. and lightening pls don't strike me.. i m jus giving my thoughts...

been really busy lately didn't have time to open up my bday angbo.. basically oso cos my wallet got cash so wouldn't think of opening it to use and i haven't been goin out lately so won't spend any money at all.. then today my mom mentioned that i haven't thank 4th uncle for his red packet. shucks.. but it is a bit awkward to thank now rite?? cos after so long le...

I jus had this thoughts... i rather not receive their red packet.. after receiving must do so much 表面工. it is so not like me.. then it is not like i m usually v warm to them. then suddenly cos they give me red packet i must express that i m v thankful.. i find it v fake la.. then it is like it seems that i m so money face. only cos receive money so be warm to them.

honestly i m not v friendly and close with my extended family. cos seriously i don't know how to express this friendliness.. it is like i find it v fake ah.. not that i don't care for them. but at times v sick of the big family politics... hai... blood is thicker than water. so it is impossible for me not to care abt them or not care wat they think abt me... but it is a really strange feeling. it is like strangers who have e same blood. haha.. it is like i don't know how to explain. and sometimes the conversation can get v insincere. cos my cousin in law ask me the same questions all the time. it is like they r asking for the sake of asking and not because they r interested to know. i hate small talks like that cos i seriously hate insincere ppl. but they r my family i can't hate them...

hai.. i really don't know wat to do now.. i don't want to seem ungrateful. but i don't want to fake warmness.. wat m i goin to do?? gosh gosh.. so bad at expressing my feelings. gosh i m a bit apprehensive for cny to come.. cos i hate e rountine. though i love e gathering i hate the questions, and judgement.. hai... i love the cny atmosphere but well.. man... i hate this double feelings.. making me v troubled..

Happy birthday yvonne!

Wait let me complain first.. haha... shit la stupid com crash can't go online often using sis laptop. i can't upload the bday pic either.. wa.. my ibm essay in that com then it crashed! luckily i haven't finish doin it so not too late to start again. must be my mom touch e com that's y it crash it was fine yest. today jus suddenly crash, then my mom admitted touching it. hai.. hate this com! want to get a new one, but quite pointless to get one now. oh ya tmr i want to go jogging with sl.. but stupid sis wear all my jj shorts! now no shorts to go jogging. must wear those fashionable shorts, which v wasted to wear jogging! ahh... i need to go back jj one day to buy jj shorts. haha.. don't know whether their shorts still good! anyone want to accompany me back for mee fen or sth?? haha...

ok ok.. shall talk abt evon's bday. yest we went to celebrate by going to bugis to have steamboat. had tomyam and pork ribs soup.. haha.. i love tomyam! basically the tom yam was mine. cos only shu qiang and i were eating fr tom yam. as always 没吃相。had sauce and ok cos the thing a bit spicy and i was having runny nose so i shall not say more.. oh no i should not provide this intimate details.. haha.. sometimes my frens bua tahan me cos i provide too much details abt some stuff..

Oh ya that day i wore the musical note necklace and treble clef earrings.. really like it a lot. i tot it was rita's prez to me for my bday so i asked her.. then she say no she gave me the bear and feb doll.. oh at least i know the bear that i have been hugging to sleep this few days is from her..

while waiting for me sl saw yw again, haha.. she says she find it quite irritating cos someone was snapping his finger beside her. then she was thinking which idiot. turns out to be yew wei. he still v weird. haha.. ask her not to tell us that she saw him. idiot. haha..

we had a lot of fun gossiping.. then we took a lot of weird photos also.. so funny. it was quite fun la...

yesterday i went sch to study with layping. quite useful. though we talk a lot too. ahh.. so tired now though i jus woke up.. went jogging in the morning, then after i slept i can't wake up.. haha.. so tired.. still got a lot of assignment to do! must jia you!

happy birthday to me!

hee.. shall write abt my bday celebration first then write abt my feelings... hee...

Ok it was on 3feb.. had tuition with the naughty girl in e morning. she v funny. she used to say it always rain when i go her place. then today she say everytime i go her place she will get stomachace... hee..

went hm to prepare the stuff i need to bring to the chalet. then waited for sl to pass me my bday prez. didn't open everything. jus opened e flowers it is beautiful.. but v afraid i can't maintain it. anyone knows if i have to put it in the sunlight??? ah.. really want to plant it well.. but so afraid that i can't do it. so afraid that it will die in my hands...

ok when we reached the chalet, sl helped me to do my hair. though my hair is already v straight i wanted to straighten it more... hahaha.. the hair straightner i won really came in use this time. helped me straighten my hair... then minli came to do my makeup... oh ya.. my mom was still telling her she lost weight. i was quite suprised she remembered minli. cos i really have quite a number of friends. and minli haven't come to my hse in 4 yrs or so...

hee.. while minli was doin my makeup sl chatted with my mom downstairs. the loose powder kept getting into my eyes.. v itchy... haha... my mom's conversation with sl v funny. mom asked how sl is celebrating her 21st bday. volunteered to make some dessert for her... hee.. then they chat abt 5566 haha.. cos tv was showing 56 programme. sl still sad 56 not famous le. fareinheit more famous then they discussed abt that.. haha.. my mom actually quite outdated and forgetful de. soon she will forget abt fareinheit too. oh ya.. then fr their conversation sl told me that my mom mistaken le.. tot mei hui is minli. mei hui is quite plum. whereas minli is meaty. if meihui become minli of course lost a lot of weight. haha... i guess my mom remember meihui cos mei hui love my mom's cooking.

my relatives arrived first... then after that i think yanhua and layping came. after that elin, hou quan, yik. then yew wei, wei jie, poh wai. haha... v funny when yew wei was wishing me happy birthday he was saying oh shit u invited rita. then v funny ( i felt a bit xin xu) then i discussed with sl how he knew i invited rita. he couldn't possibly be in contact with her. then i saw rita fr the corner of my eyes.. haha... when ex lovers meet things get funny. rita brought her bf shu qiang here, they r tgth for v long le.. haha... i asked sl if they felt weird or anything. then sl say yew wei and rita were flirting lo.. haha.. in front of shu qiang. yew wei still wink at rita. this yew wei ah.. really nv change still v flirtateous. haha..

oh ya i was playing mahjong with my relatives. so funny. laura ashley colleague wanted to tricked me that they were not coming already. they called me and told me they r not coming. i suspected sth. but well even if they can't come there is nth i can do. oh ya they called me in the midst of my mahjong match. was concentrating on the game, really wanted to hang up asap. haha.. so didn't really care abt wat they say. then adam msg me, then i realsed he was meeting lynn and cedric so it isn't possible that they r not coming.

oh ya then slowly the rest of the ppl arrived. hee... i was so busy running here and there. seriously can't remember wat i did.. jus remembered that i had fun. haha.. oh ya a funny incident is where my uni fren joyce put some choco on the fried fish. then i was v shocked. i was asking her wat she was doing. y put choco on fish. then she say not goreng pisang meh? haha... really made me laugh. i have such cute friends! i think she ate half of it in the end ba..

oh ya mh and samuel helped me bbq food.. i wanted to bbq but sam didn't allow me. hee.. though they bbq a lot of burnt food, but it seems quite sweet.. i heard they v funny tgth.. oh gosh i m so happy to have the two of them as fren they r so cute. not as a couple la.. jus 2 of my cutest fren tgth. haha..

Oh ya some of them were playign a card game upstairs call saboeur. or sth. haha.. samuel's prez to me. quite a fun game, but for ppl who r quite slow not v suitable. cos u might be helping ur enemies. haha...

actually i was kind of busy goin here and there so don't really know wat happened. gossip with some ppl, but well didn't have time to stay to hear much gossip. haha... when i was looking for john, rita and gang told me to find sl. then they asked sl if she finished counting stars with him. haha.. but i think john is like that la.. will always give ppl e wrong impression, cos he is overly friendly, my pri sch fren minli, oso tot he was interested in her, but no la.. oh ya john asked me a funny question. he said he made me cry b4, but can't rmb wat we argue abt. when he mentioned it i had some impression,but can't really remember either. now i still can't rmb. haha.. but i think it was over some small things la. ahaha.. i guess that's wat frens r like though they make each other cry, they can't rmb a single thing abt it, cos we only rmb e good stuff, not the unhappy stuff. seriously i asked a no of ppl and they can't rmb wat me and john argue abt.

oh ya kok meng came late. then e moment he come jus in time to take pic. then left me and him only. wa... cousin still tot he is my bf.. no thank you ok. not that he is not a nice guy. jus that we r not suitable for each other. i treat him like a younger bro. i suppose he treat me like an older sis. this kok meng ah.. still the same v talkative and v kapo. haven't talk to him in 2 yrs. but he still v interested to know wat is happening abt my life. me and sl were talking abt guys. then stupid kok meng butt in. then he keep kapo so loudly. still tell my mom he gossiping abt me and some other guy! idiot la! always get me into trouble. so kapo! haha... i m not angry la.. jus feel that v irritated. then make things so awkward. there is really nth lor.. my love life v empty, not that i m complaining. i m happy this way.

oh ya when it came for the best dressed. asked my cousins to help me. my cousin in law helped me a lot. they suggested choosing 2 ppl instead of one. actually was quite suprised by their choices. cos their choices were not mine. i was quite suprised they choose danial. anyway they chose danial, yew wei. girls minli, kathy. hee... yew wei won. because he knows more ppl. haha... and minli won. actually all my fren felt that kathy should win, but minli put in a lot of effort. she was in red thoroughly. hee.. so my sec sch fren voted for her.... actually don't think minli will be looking at this so i shall say. a lot of ppl tot minli was older than she looked. my sec sch frens, uni fren and jc fren all asked me how old she is and well some not really nice stuff. hee.. all my relatives felt that danial was not bad.. haha... so funny. i guess they like e muscle type. yew wei really shouldn't have won. ghahaha...

oh ya weiming rushed down, but he only stayed awhile. ai ya... should have asked him to stay longer... that poor guy. oso don't know wat he is hurrying for. didn't even take much photo with him. hee... oh ya.. was quite suprised that roxanne, jiayi and nicholas came. hee... i saw roxanne and jiayi, then was serving them. heard nic say that i passed by him twice, but didn't even c him at all.. haha... i intro nic to kok meng, cos find them v similar.. haha.. they even take pic tgth. then sl was saying nic looks like na dou fr 全民大闷锅。haha.. so funny. i asked them to stay. but well only nic stay.. actually i didn't expect him to stay.. jus ask ke qi (polite) only.. hee.. but ok la.. he quite funny oso. he and kok meng got along so well. like he said today all his pay go to me. haha...

oh ya i oso opened elin, hq, xw and yik prez to me. oh gosh so sweet. though i didn't cry but i was really touched... so nice! so sweet! haha.. i heard fr lp that when i was opening it. this yw still said better not give him that for his bday or else he will go crazy. hee.. but really v nice ma... ai ya.. yew wei worry too much, no1 will do that for him oso. hahaha... jus kidding ok. if u happen to be reading this don't get angry. so many nice pic that i didn't even know exist. oh my god really thanks for the effort. everytime i look at it it will put a smile to my face... hee.. jus thinking abt it makes me feel so "warm" thanks thanks. could nv thank ur enough for it. actually really didn't expect hq to help with it oso. cos hq is close to the rest but not me. haha.. so thanks thanks. really didn't expect such a special prez fr ur.. hee... i think i have a lot of pic that i want to destroy with elin. hee.. so many ugly pic of me! hee..

oh ya later played heart attack and snap and sabourteour. v fun.. haha.. scream until i got no voice le. my reaction v slow keep getting hit. stupid kok meng hit so hard.. hand all red le.. hee.. later when he go to slp. we tried our best not to wake him up. he really v talkative.. if he wake up ah... hai.. too much noise. haha... elin and gang left at abt 6 cos anlin got piano lesson to teach. though kok meng told me to wake him up for church i didn't.. cos i want him to pei me.. hee.. when me and sl were clearing the place sl wanted to throw e durian cake fr e fridge. then i say don't throw kok meng wake up first thing he will do is eat the cake. hee.. i really understand him so well.. when he woke up e first thing he did was really to eat the cake. but anyway must really thank him for his help. oh ya me and sl oso went to the park to chat chat. we really talked a lot... guess best fren r such.. even when there is silence is cos we r thinking of wat to say. cos we really have too much to say to each other. hee...

anyway when we left, kok meng help me carry the majhong. me and sl were plannign to go to a flea mkt b4 we go for jap class. so we went for breakfast. then went to the flea mkt. the mahjong set a bit heavy. haha.. ya when we get to the flea mkt. i heard ppl behind us kept sayig that we really bought a lot. but actually we didn't buy a lot.. it is jus that there were a lot of things fr the chalet. saw this guy fr our jap class.. seriously don't like talking to strangers. so when sl talked to him i jus kept quiet... i kinda feel intimdated by ppl like him.. cos they a bit act cool, then a bit over friendly. in simple words. not my type of ppl. hee.. keep dozing off during jap class. then v weird doze off still can dream.

oh ya now abt the prez.. received 5 bags. a lot of accesories. 3 homemade gift.. hee.. i have to say the homemade prez r the best. sorry to say but the gifts that r bought pale in comparison anlin's cookie, elin yik, xw, hq big photo frame and calender really the biggest homemade gift i ever received all my life. and of course sl storybook and photo album. really v nice... sl made me a story books so cute lor! i still remember when we were in sec sch we always make each other bday card. almost like our tradition.. oh ya last but not least sy photo frame... really v nice. ai yo.. got my tan chi photo. oh no so many bags don't know wat to do with it.. guess i will used it one by one. mh and joyce really thanks for e expensive bag. i heard colleen and danial went to buy prez tgth. so sweet.. hahaha... heard colleen can't stand danial he v pou ma.. i will use it oso...

oh ya must really thank my ma.. she really hen teng wo.. (spoil me).. she bought me diamond necklace. i tried to choose e cheapest but it is still 400+ then chalet and everything.. the food she prepared.. really don't know wat i will do without her... really feel v contented... this life really have a lot of ppl who care abt me. who really help me without asking much or complaining. really thank them a lot. i must have done sth right in my last life to have so many kind ppl around me. gosh i m so grateful for that. seriously don't know wat i will do without u guys... living would be without meaning. i seriously feel that i m so happy now that even if i were to leave the world today i wouldn't mind. hahaha... rubbish i talking crap again.

oh ya on mon i didn't go class when lp msg me i told her i will go class, but after replying her msg i feel .back asleep. then i still dreamt that she called me.. haha.. must have dreamt that i took the test too so skip the class

oh ya, on the actual day of my bday i didn't realise it until mh called me and sing happy birthday. taht poor girl still stuck in the office. poor thing... thanks for reminding me it is my bday. ahha.. seriously forgot abt it was chasing some hk drama on youtube.. thanks for all the bday msgs..

actually i heard a v sad news on mon. ching's dad die naturally on mon. hai.. so sad. actually i wasn't v sad at first. cos dying natuarally is a good thing. i want to die naturally oso. but then when i tot of all the pain the family will suffer due to him gone... felt v sad.. seriously i can't imagine my life without my mom. if anything ever happen to my mom i don't know how i will live. i will jus cry and cry and cry. recently there has been a lot of natural death. actually it is kind of spooky le.. like death note. except the difference is ppl who deserve to die didn't die and ppl who did not deserved died. ok it seems a bit mean to say deserve to die. i suppose no1 deserve to die. wat i m trying to say is, ppl who r kind and whom their family need have to be gone and ppl, who might only give trouble to their family still alive. the kind ppl r gone. hai.. if there really is a death note. pls do some justice. hai.. maybe this is jus fate. ok this is really a v long entry... take time to read...

Thank you all for all ur wonderful gifts.

oh no.. i really don't know wat to say... jus feel so touched by all the handmade presents. fr eileen, yik, xiwen, hou quan. from my best friend suat ling. and from see yee... really feel so speechless. it is beautiful lor... of course, i also must thank those ppl who gave me presents. hee... i received 5 bags.. haha... don't know when can use finish i supposed now i have 20 bags le ba.. hahaha... gosh.. now suffering fr withdrawal symptoms...

don't know y i feel like crying. don't know whether it is because of the presents. too touched by it, and a bit suprised by it too. haha.. then again, it might be the fact that my bday is going to be coming and goin soon, that all the celebrations r ending, the fact that all the fun is goin to be gone for the moment make me feel a bit depressed. maybe it is e fact that i m growin up.. ok maybe because i m too tired.. haven't slept since last nite.. haha... oh no don't know wat i m talking abt now. when i more alive then i shall continue writing. haha.. shall write abt wat happened next entry.. hee..

oh ya thanks everyone for helping out and for coming. i might not have been a good host having all the fun myself. but well i hope ur had fun too. hai... ok la.. thanks a lot everyone go sleep le.. when i m feeling not like crying that i shall write more.. haha.. don't know wat i m saying also...