Friday, March 25, 2005

It is lp bday. Happy bday to u!

Anyway today we had lunch at swensen. Hee.. I was e earliest. Basically waited for e rest to arrive. When the rest arrived got suan by a certain person! Anyway tot that he wasn't goin, and was glad. But well as chinese say kong huan xi yi chang. Anyway had a filling lunch. Kind of funny when we try to use e birthday benefit coupon. That zhengjia and hou quan so funny. Keep arguing over a banana split.

Later we went to watch a movie. E queue for e movie was really long... When we got there, there were only tickets for e first few rows. So in e end, ended up fighting for e tickets. Really funny when we fought.

When shopping with yik. We r really terrible. Bought lots of clothes within 1 hour. Then we keep say things to make each other buy e clothes so funny. We bought e same pink blouse. But as long as we don't wear it together it should be ok.

Anyway sat beside zheng jia and yik. That zheng jia v funny lor. He told his fren over e phone that he was in e movie, when he meant he was in e cinema. Then me and hou quan laugh at him then say u actor ah! Hee..

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Haven't update for a v long time. A lot of things have happened. Unhappy and happy things..

Ok most recently went to watch hitch. It is a great movie. Really funny. Bought a pair of ballet flats recently.

Then last thur. A stupid, fussy, unreasonable customer made me go woodlands to sort. Upon ariving that idiot say that we would dirty the place with our parts so told us to go back. When he show us e rejected parts, e part were rather ok. He is really an idiot. When i become a manager, my collegue to me not to act like him. Hee.. In the end have to go woodlands branch dynacast to sort instead. Luckily my collegue took me there and took me home. Or else e travelling would be terrible.

About unhappy things. My grandma have intestine cancer. E situation have worsen and she will not be able to live for long. Went to e hospital. Really afraid! Really hate hospital. E machine keep making weird noise. Every time e machine make a weird noise my heart skip a beat. So afraid the person in front of me will jus suddenly disappear. Jus go off like that. My grandma seems to be in a lot of pain. But there is nothing anyone can do to alleviate her pain. No1 can help her. E feeling is really bad. Really felt like crying. But i couldn't cry. My grandma doesn't know that she has cancer. Crying will only make her worry. My grandma could have said to have lived a fufilling life. Afterall she already have 4 great grand children. But to me it is not enough. I haven't get married, she haven't c me get married. I don't want her to go off now. Everyone in my family think this way. Although she have already enjoyed most of her life. We don't want her to be gone. I don't want to lose e ppl i love e most. So afraid that i will breakdown and cry. God pls let miracle happen..

About maids.
Recently my cousin and her family went abroad for a holiday. Her maid was staying with us. Her maid is really young jus 20. Actually i don't like having a maid around my house. Not bcos she obstruct my living, but bcos i always sympathise with them. Imagine she is so young, yet have to work as a slave for ppl. My cousin is a v strict person, she will really make e maid work, when her maid is at her house. My cousin have camera in her house, to survey e maid. When her maid "eat snake" she will scold her maid when she get back from work. I really pity her maid. Everyone needs a break at times. The maid is jus unfortunate to born with this kind of background that she needs to work for people. She didn't choose this route. She is not like us who r fortunate to choose wat we want to do. E maid at my house can watch tv. So every night she will watch e korean vcd with me. She doesn't understand korean nor chinese but she enjoy watching e vcd v much. She would always laugh at some scenes. Then she told my mom that when she earn enough money to go back to indonesia she will buy e vcd. Although wat she say was really cute, i couldn't help but feel a little sad by wat she said. She can't watch tv at my cousin's house.

I don't think i will ever hire a maid. She really don't know how to treat them. If u treat them too nice they will step all over u. But u can't treat them too badly either, cos it is morally incorrect. They r jus like us. Except that our fate r much better than them. All i can say is i pity them. And hope that they will be born in a better family in e future. Those ppl who abuse their maid r truly inhuman. How could they treat people who r weaker, and more unfortunate than us this way. They r human they deserve to be treated like humans!

Friday, March 04, 2005

Got my a'level results.. It isn't good. Not bad either. Neither is it average. Can't really explain. All i can say is i reap wat i sow. Thinking back. I think i was struggling in e jc. Always failing. So to get my results. It is kind of i deserve it. Of course i hoped for e better. But I have to be contented...

Really surprise at myself. Didn't knew i could be so optimistic and brave abt things. Consoling those ppl who did better than me. I think a lot of ppl expect me to do better. Well e exams conditions wasn't good for me.. Regrets, ok la.. Bittersweet feeling. Kind of regret and yet no nv regret. E only regret i have is most prob losing my will power towards e end of e exam. This results r only impt now. Most prob 10 years down e road no1 will even care wat i got.