yesterday went to give tuition. my very first time... actually i had to lie abt my experience teaching pri 6. hai... i heard that e boy fail all subjects. but when i do assessment with him, i actually found that he understand wat i teach, and is able to do quite well.. to be frank i don't know much abt him. i don't even know his name yet. i only know the mom's sir name is ng. haha.. shall ask him his name e next time. haha... their hse is really small only like 2 room flat. their whole hse is most probably e size of my living rm pls dining rm.. then his mother willing to invest so much on him... but when i got there, he got assessment bk le... actually i don't really think his eng assessment bk is suitable. cos e eng bk is all grammar... i think he sld have those compre composition bks. but his mom think it is enough le.. looking at their family situation i oso dare nt suggest much. hai.. gosh i m so worried that i can't teach him much. don't know how to teach him... hai.. worrying so much abt his future.. i guess i can only try my best...

During the week small, major things happened. haha..

On mon went to celebrate mh and sl bday at lau pa sat. we super funny, at first at there eat dim sum then moved away went to eat other things. we ate satay and stingray and stuff.. as always we had a lot of fun together catching up and gossiping. we were like super happy. the four of us, sy, joyce sl and myself decided to go taiwan tgth. we would most likely go in july hopefully someone don't back up or else can't go le.

on tue and wed got e same class as liling, yin, xin, zw, lp. wa.. one big grp v noisy. haha.. especially this liling, yin and xin. they ah... v fun to be with. anyway we were talking v loudly in e lt. liling la talked so loudly, then gossip about jj ppl. then suddenly kaiyan who is sitting in front turned to wave at me. haha... then i said loudly, liling u c la talk so loudly then we bei ppl fa xian le. anyway i was saying this in chinese la. then ky and lp start laughing. i think cos they realised wat i say didn't make any sense. haha...kaiyan and us really hi, bye fren. as in will say hi to each other but actually don't really know each other at all. and won't stay and chat. But i seriously think ky is a nice person. haha.. at least she doesn't pretend not to know u! haha.. cos i rmb this lp try to make frens with this grp of jj ppl then they jus ignore her. i actually felt pai sai for her oso.

Oh ya on mon my neighbour passed away. as i was on my way to meet my frens i saw e lady wearing white t-shirt (e usual mourning clothes) anyway when i saw e lady who is maybe 50+ i tot her husband passed away. cos i eavdropped on her conversation. she spoke rather softly and in hokkien to the other neighbour, so i jus assumed it is her husband who passed away. after all though 50+ is an early age to pass away it is not a weird age to pass away. when i got home i told my mom and dad abt it. haha... then on wed, my mom asked my other neighbour. then realise e one who passed away is e lady's father in law. Ai yo.. i gao wu long... At first i was quite upset cos i suddenly can't recall e face of e person who i tot passed away. then i was still thinking i won't have the chance to recall le... Oh anyway when my mom told it to my dad, my dad tell me luckily i didn't meet e uncle(whom i told him has passed away) during this few days, or else he would think that e uncle's spirit came back. haha... then i was like me 2 me 2. luckily i didn't meet e uncle this few days or else i think i will start crying and get scared he would wonder wat is wrong with me. haha... next time i shall not kapo on my neighbours le.

Anyway i heard sth abt my excolleague. e one whom i said everyone don't like. i heard that when she helped me and another gal buy e pohpiah she told e person to add more chili then when e auntie say will be v spicy she jus asked e person to add more. haha.. when they buy back i still say v nice cos v spicy. anyway i actually kind of know it le la.. cos she bought one for us and one for herself. ours was super red. wa lao.. she really damn evil. hai.. but she quite dumb she still thinking i m standing on her side, but actually i never was standing on her side. was being an internal spy. hee..

Sometimes jus because i appear to believe you does not mean that i really believe u. And sometimes i m willing to listen to ur lies, is not because i don't know you are lying, it is because i choose not to believe you are lying, i choose to believe ur lies. But seriously don't go overboard. if you want to fan lian with me i won't save any face for you either. jus because i pretend not to know doesn't mean that i don't know. so if you know sth abt me that you think will make me mad, pls jus shut up and keep it in ur heart. don't ever betray me or hurt me cos you will nv know wat i will do in return to hurt you. when i m angry at times i don't know wat i m doin either. hee.. suddenly i sound so scary rite... hai.. watever la. this is a polluted world.

today is mh bday!!! hee.. and oso my last day of work at laura ashley. though i told them i m quitting temporary. they bought me farewell gift and bought me a farewell card. everyone signed on it.. hee.. so pai sai.. then when e assis manager pass me e present. i asked her.. does this mean that i can't come back to work?? haha.. then she say she didn't say that... but a bit weird rite one month later go back and work.. like v thickskinned.. but i kinda scared that i can't find any job during may. i can't be jobless!!!!! i need money!!!

it is funny how we kinda dislike working there when we were working.. but now when we r not we would kinda miss the people there.. i was v touched by their farewell card. and oso a bit sad of leaving.. hai.. i really hope i manage to find some admin job during e holi... but somehow i know my luck kind of bad in finding for job. it is like e tuition agent.. they got give me assignments. but somehow would be rejected by e parents or sth.. as in.. it is like always almost a done deal. then sth happen.. these parents sld give me a chance! by jus hearing wat e agency say wat do they know abt my ability to teach.. hai... jus hope i manage to find a job during may. seriously not used to being jobless!!!

yest sl came back from thai.. yea!!! hee.. she bought me some stuff! i really like e skirt she bought.. here e skirt cost 35 there only 8..wa.. so happy!

today went to sch in e morning.. was suppose to have a full day lec.. but skipped class halfway to go have buffet with jerome, lydia, hj, sl... haha.. we got lost in e building at marina.. then so qiao i saw my sis walking in.. then i call her.. haha.. we didn't even discuss where we will go eat.. but we ended up goin same place to eat.. i think this is fate.. haha..

after that we went suntec walk walk.. wa i heard a lot of gossip abt my ex colleague... we oso went esplanade take pic! so fun.. we sneaked into fullerton and sit there and chat.. haha.. we sat there for quite a while. was kinda afraid we get caught.. anyway later walk out through e garden we kind of get lost... haha.. so fun.. must do that more often

today went to sch wanted to have zi bao ji. but it was raining! hee.. so went to have beef horfan instead. v delicious! met liling, yinyin and xinxin at e canteen. hee.. had lunch tgth. so funny. liling was saying that vivian doesn't have a vivian looks. she has a rachel look. haha.. but i think liling got a lynn look. cos my assis manager lynn oso called lynn and well she looks like liling. her teeth and character v similar to liling. so i asked liling if i had a amanda look and she says ya i have a amanda look. haha.. liling was having a headache. she was like where can i buy axe oil. then at e moment ziwei came then she placed e axe oil on e table. me and liling forever v drama. we jus grab each other hands and exclaimed ziwei got axe oil! haha.. so excited over a bottle of axe oil.

after class i went to work. gosh.. it was major drama at work! imagine i started work at 6-10 only four hours, but e four hours before i came there was major drama! well in brief, lynn unhappy. mai unhappy with lynn. yusi and lynn unhappy with each other. haha.. then i oso heard a lot of personal live secret abt ppl. i think it is tue thing. tuesday they r goin to have a meeting, e agenda is tell all day. in other words, give all the dirt about each other. thank godness i m not involve cos i m resigning. gosh, yusi and fad wants me around she say i m e only chinese who will support e malay gang. but i was like actually i really don't know who i support. actually i jus feel that yusi is trying to save her ass. by doin so she is goin to pull racism into work place to get more votes. then e malays working there r listening to her. i know i shouldn't write all these i may get fired. but to me it doesn't matter. gosh i really learn a lot working here.

Today worked a shift with lynn, teresa, elaine, evelyn. all chinese today. kind of feel weird.. cos it is like don't know le.. though i feel more comfortable working with them. i jus feel kinda out of place, cos i usually work with e 'malay' gang.

lynn told me sth weird today. i couldn't quite understand her. she told me i m on both sides and yusi likes to gossip so she say don't follow yusi. then i was like wat?? then she was like in other words don't gossip so much. then i was like huh? ok...

after that when e bshift came, yusi and mai kept teasing me. saying sarcastic things like, u on e other side already rite, workin a with them... i was like i didn't choose to work a though i would prefer a. lynn decided when and wat shift i work. then i was like.. hai.. don't want to care about them. eve wanted to tell me sth, but mai came at that moment, so i didn't know wat she wanted to say.

hee.. went shopping at mango during break. lynn knows some1 there, so we got stuff discount, after discount e things were quite affordable. hee.. anyway went shopping with lynn and teresa after work. shop till quite late.. i didn't notice e time. well heard some gossip when i was shopping with them. u c e person who warned me against gossip oso gossip. haha.. but ok la.

Today was working with teresa and yusi. both of them have kinda bad blood with each other so i was really scared that i will be involve with their bad blood. gosh.. but it was ok la.. hee.. don't know y when e assis manager lynn is around i will make a lot of mistakes. hai.. today for example. the moment we came back for lunch, lynn called me over, asked me wat e rack of garments i was supposed to replenish doin outside. i seriously didn't know wat e rack was for. haha.. then later i overcharge a customer. then lynn saw me made e mistake. then she was like y i so agitated then make mistake. then i told her y must i always make mistakes in front of u. later while i was pulling e rack of clothes e whole rack collapse. in front of lynn again!!! ai yo.... then lynn was like amanda don't have to be scared of me.. haha.. not that i want to be scared but i think she is my jinx if there is such things. hee.. cos i always will make major errors in front of her.

ya i think my ears got problem again. i can't hear clearly again. today farina asked me if it was raining outside. i told her can. then she was like wat can? then actually i tot she asked me if she could bring e plastic bag back, so i told her can. haha.. then later when yusi asked wat shift i was working on thur, then i told her i taking bus. haha.. hai.. i really deaf!