3rd day

I honestly can't remember wat was on the third day. i kind of remember sleeping on the bus.. ahhahahhaha.. ok that's not the point. anyway in japan the highways have sound protector walls all over so u shouldn't wouldn't be able to see much scenery on the bus.

I think we went to the foot of mount fuji. Oh ya we went to hakone. ahhahahha.. hakone is the foot of mount fuji. there is a sulphur thing there that turn eggs into black eggs. something like that la.. i was sleeping on the bus so didn't remember much. hahahha.. anyway the black eggs is believed that if u eat one it will extend ur life by 7 years. the black eggs is cooked by the sulphur water or something la. anyway it was quite cold there. very comfortable. the black eggs actually tasted like normal eggs jus that e shell is black.

after that we went to an old village. there was hot spring water there. the cao bing there was really nice! was able to see mount fuji from there.. it was really beautiful. after that we went to the hot spring inn. hee..

I think we went to the outlet during this day. hahahah.. really can't remember. bought a lot there but there was honestly not enough time to shop. outlet things r really cheap. but i think the outlet place is quite out of the place. as in it is located in a ulu part of tokyo. the sales man was really cute! ahhh.. don't know how to describe his cuteness.

had sashimi at the hot spring inn! was really nice! so much better than singapore. in singapore the maguro jus taste like canned tuna. but the maguro there was great no fishy taste at all. would not eat sashimi in singapore liao. after that went for a hot spring bath. really shy must go naked in there. hahahhaha... yesterday when i talked to alan, alan said he didn't dare enter the hot spring cos it was muddy inside. gosh, how could it be muddy! the guys must have did something to the hot spring dirty it or sth. gosh e water in e hot spring was really hot. felt a bit giddy after getting out. giddy spells nv ever left me. hee.. anyway there were 3 guys around our age in the tour. then so funny, their mum tricked them into wearing the yukata down for dinner. heard their mums saying when she tried to tie a ribbon for her son, he said "mummy i m not a present" hahahhaha.. really funny! anyway the yukata was a bit too big for me and my sis didn't like it. hahahha..

2nd day of e trip

On the first day at the imperial palace, some taiwanese ah peh came to talk to me.. hahahha.. he tot i was taiwanese.. so weird.. my mum and sis were beside me but he didn't talk to them jus me.

ok back to the second day. actually due to being too tired i can't really remember the itinerary that well. i think we went to nara on the second day. there was the nara deer park and a temple. the temple was quite interesting. there was this hole in the pillar. it is said that if u can pass through the hole u will be blessed with good health and brains. anyway the hole was really small some people got stuck. it was rather stressful cos ppl were standing around waiting for their turn and looking at u to see if u can pass through it. hahahha.. ok as u can guess managed to pass through it effortlessly.. hee.. quite interesting. At the deer park there were a lot of deers.. the deer weren't afraid of us at all. anyway the droppings smell quite horrible. hee.. after that we went to kyoto..

On the way to kyoto a geisha joined us. i think the geisha was kind of scary. hahahahha.. ya we took photos with her.. ahhahah.. it is really rare for a geisha to go on the streets due to rule or sth. so basically a lot of people were following us cos of the geisha.

I really like kyoto a lot!!! i think disneyland and kyoto were my fav places. at kyoto there was a temple called qing shui si.. really crowded temple. really tot it was beautiful cos it was like watching something out of a jap drama or sth. anyway there was a yin yuan place in there. then there were two stones very far apart called the yin yuan stone. there is a legend that if u think of the person u like and shut ur eyes and manage to walk from one stone to another u will be fated to be with him, if not it means you should jus give up. anyway didn't c anyone trying.. i don't think it was possible to reach the other stone. the stones were really far apart. i think it was at least 100m apart and the temple is really very crowded before u can walk to the stone i bet u would bump into a lot of people. honestly don't think it is possible to walk fr one stone to another.. hee..

After that there was this water fr the fall where u can drink for blessing. 3 types of blessing, intelligence(academic), health and love. u can only choose 2 or else it wouldn't come true. really interesting.

I think at night we went to gifu.. hahahah.. gifu is a beautiful place! very country side. really quiet and peaceful, very different from osaka. after being in singapore for so long really enjoyed being at the countryside. we went on a boat at gifu. was supposed to go look at a bird catch fish.. it is a traditional trade. quite interesting. had a bento on the boat. the food was quite good. ahhahah.. so cool sitting on a raft like boat having dinner. anyway the people at gifu were also very sincere very nice.. liked gifu a lot. the hotel at gifu was also bigger than the rest. slept very well at gifu.

Japan trip

First day of the trip was spent on e plane.. hahahha.. gosh. e flight stewardess there were terrible. as in they couldn't even understand and speak simple english. I asked ann ling my pri sch fren who is also a jp flight stewardess.. she told me that it is a fact tat the japanese stewardess do not need to learn how to speak english. cos the jap believe that their language is the most superior. so the flight towards there it is not surprising that they didn't know how to speak jap.

Anyway we touched down in osaka. Didn't really have a good impression of that place. The moment we walked to the immigration, met lousy japanese immigration officers. there was this 83 yr old auntie with our tour. then cos she didn't fill in some parts of the disembarkment form. The immigration officer pushed her aside! like really push not tell her.. wat the hell. then can see her rolling her eyes and the way she talked v bu nai fan.. really felt like slapping her! ok but if i were to do anything i bet i would be sent back to singapore right away. really feel like lodging a complain, but really no time. hee..

Went to the osaka palace. was quite pretty but really v small. ahhahah.. didn't go in to look. anyway after that went universal studio.. really was too tired. so didn't enjoy the rides much. anyway there was this hollywood dream a rather big roller coaster. i really didn't want to ride on it. cos it looks scary and giddy.. hahahah.. as expected after it ended my whole body was shivering and i felt like vomiting.. it wasn't very scary, but v terrible. realised i m really not a theme park person, as in those thrill rides places i m completely not interested in them. used to like them lots when i was younger. anyway the wizard of oz show at universal was really nice! liked it a lot.. quite interesting. after that we went to a shopping street in osaka.. quite interesting. hee..

shall blog more about my second day later.

Back from the land of the rising sun

Yes i went to japan for a wk or so.. had a lot of fun.. actually the biggest thing i learn from that trip and is e reason for me missing japan so much is that there is handsome guys there everywhere..

gosh jus a few days back from japan looking at singaporean guys i feel kind of depressed.. hee.. people i tot were average, i suddenly feel that they r ugly! i realised my standard has been lowered by singaporean guys. hahahhahah.. gosh.... i want to go back to japan! really fan hua chi there.. keep getting stares by jap girls. cos i keep staring at their boyfriends.. everyone in japan is in a pair. as in there r couples everywhere. then when u look at a good looking guy u will usually c a girl beside him or he might be pushing a pram.. feel so sad la.. but at least there were good looking guys to ogle there.. now that i m back i feel so hollow!!! hee... suddenly jap dramas r not enough to quench e thirst for good looking guys. cos honestly the guys there were better looking or equivalent to j idols.. ahhh.. i miss japan! i want to go back there now! hee..

gosh i secretly think e devil kidnapped my soul. i m seriously not like myself after i came back. suddenly so hua chi.. and i tot i was over that phase le.. ahhh... i want to go back to japan.

Realistic

Recently i realised that people around me think that i m very 現實. M i really that 現實 i wonder. Anyway today i came out with a reason to defend myself... hahahha...

Actually i really kind of don't know wat xian shi means. Does it mean that i m realistic? does it mean that i m materialistic? or does it just mean that i m practical? we shall see about that.

ok most people say i m xian shi when they hear my view about love. Honestly, i hate to say this but i kind of don't believe in love. as in i don't believe in "love" in the way people always 把愛輕易的放在嘴邊. like they think that love is so simple that love is so easy.to me love is something very sacred very pure, very hard to explain. For example, i don't think people marry truly for love, and people shouldn't only marry solely for love. As in when people get married there is other factors to consider to like maybe the woman is pregnant. they want to start a family together. marriage isn't all about love, it is also about responsibility isn't it? i mean if a marriage is only about love, then how come there is a divorce. i hate it when people keep talking about love in this way, when they say they want to do something for love, because i always think that there is a hidden agenda behind it. it couldn't be only and solely for love could it? I m not trying to say that love is not important it a marriage, because without love there wouldn't even be a marriage, but love is not the only factor to a marriage. so i really hate it when people talk about love so likely. cos i think it is stupid, and they will most likely fail, cos if there is only love it won't work. So m i very materialistic or realistic to think that way? I don't think i m being realistic it thinking this way cos it is a fact.

Another example. recently someone told me she will only have kids because of love. honestly, it sounds a bit stupid to me once again. isn't it a bit naive to think that you will only have kids because of love. as in there must be other reasons y some ppl have kids. like due to accidents, want to keep the marriage together, family pressure. it is again naive to think that to have kids only because of love isn't it? of course once again without love there won't be children but well not the only factor ba.

Honestly at this age i don't believe i would fall head over heels in love with somebody. cos it is not possible. i m old liao. ahhahahha. And i really don't believe that anyone can just survive on love. I believe that the only kind of love that is pure and unconditional is a mother's love. well tat is sth i think i can promise at least. i really hate it when ppl treat love so lightly, always 把愛輕易的放在嘴邊. really hate that! unless you really can do it then say it, if not jus keep your mouth shut. love is not so easy. actions speak louder than words people who can really love, will not always talk about love, or mention love that easily. cos truly loving is really difficult. love is to think of others before yourself, seriously how many people can even do that. hate it when people jus foolishly keep giving thinking it is love. ok maybe that is wat truly love is. jus that i m unable to do that. ok maybe love isn't so difficult, it is just me. because i m a rather protective person of myself, so i would nv truly love..

Seriously, some people tell me they will truly love if they meet their ideal type. Isn't that already rather contradictory? like if that person is not your ideal type so you don't like him la? and you profuse that you can truly love somebody? don't make sense to me. I admit i might only love a person who is my ideal type because i m like they say xian shi. well at least i m being honest. People say that i m rather high maintenance. but i don't think so le.. as long as that person is sincere and i have feelings for him nothing else matters. sometimes would hear some of my frens say wa he like tat woo the girl v lousy, but it is not abt the method he used to win the girls heart it is wat he has tried to do to win it that is sincere and matters, so who cares about wat he did to woo her, as long as made the effort isn't that enough? ok this only applies to situation where the feelings are mutual. if not no matter wat he does he is jus being an idiot. I only have 2 criteria in a boyfriend le first is sincerity, next is feelings! so wat so hard about that. at least i m not materialistic and expect him to have a certain income or drive a certain car, but i do believe in 門當戶對. as in if he is not a degree holder, he must be hardworking and able to work better than me. to me 門當戶對 is not that i have a degree he must have one, they may be other stuff that he has that i lack. he has to be someone who has nearly the things that i have. so is that very hard to be fulfilled?

gosh after all this maybe it is just me with the problem. i think i tried to prove i m not xian shi, but failed to do so. i kind of proved that i m quite xian shi instead. hee.. ok i shall not try to defend myself. but honestly, when ppl say that i m xian shi, i would think they r naive. hahahha.. i always tot everyone feel the same way as me about love and stuff. well apparently not. but i don't want to be naive! don't whether it is because i m too xian shi, that's y i think they r naive. gosh.. i feel very puzzled now.. well all i can say is i think i m xian shi, but i m not materialistic. i think there is a difference to it. when those ppl who say i m xian shi, do they think i m materialistic too? is being xian shi equivalent to being materialistic? can anybody answer my question??

Yea the exams are over!

Gosh.. longest time i had exam for. they are over at last!!!! Yes.. lots have happened recently.. making me feel very "unstable", in other words in a state of confusion.. feel very lost and empty now that exams are over for good honestly kind of prefer exams to working.. ok shall talk abt this later.. hahaha..

gosh last sun went to celebrate grandpa's bday. basically e family is divided into 2 political groups.. so ya.. like cos e 2 diff grps got grandchildren. which is basically my niece and nephews. which baby u carry shows ur loyalty to which political party.. hahahah.. actually they were kind of mean. didn't tell my big uncle abt e celebration. really think they r v childish.. afterall we r family. y argue and cause divide like that. in the end everyone jus felt uncomfortable gathering together. hai.. really don't know when it will blow over. since grandma died the family has been like that. sometimes i really hate my family. hate them so much that i feel like slapping sense into them! unfortunately the younger generation don't have a say in this. gosh..

Hee.. my niece is really cute.. just a yr plus learning how to walk and talk.. she is really very curious and would jus walk and follow ppl around. then she walk in a haphazard manner.. bumping into things and almost falling down in e process. she is the niece whom i mentioned that wouldn't cry, jus talk in baby language when u didn't feed her and stuff.. anyway when she bumped her head accidentally she didn't even cry but the bump seems loud and painful. and also when i carry her she tried to wriggle herself out to walk though she could barely walk. gosh i really want to have a kid. feel like kidnapping her.. she is so adorable!!!! Actually i can't understand married couples who decided not to have kids cos they want to enjoy life. I think i heard someone told me her fren don't want to have kids after marriage so that they can buy a car, afford more luxury. honestly wat fun is it to have everything in e world but without kids to share it with. honestly, i think it is very selfish to not have a kid jus cause u want to indulge in luxury. and i can't understand how anyone could feel that way. I think kids r catalyst that brings a marriage in place, when u have kids then in some sense it is truly a family. your children are the only people in e world u can love unconditionally without any reservations. honestly, couples breakup, even married couples, but it is the hardest thing to disown a child. someone whom a woman suffer to give birth to, undergo the difficult process of pregnancy and bringing a kid up is never easy.

Gosh today went to ktv with sl. really fun.. haven't gone out with her for a long time. as in though we meet in jap class to me it is not enough le. hahhahah.. not enough to really chat. the best time was staying at her hse can chat longer.. everytime after jap class, after warming up she have to go home le so sian. managed to sing a few jap songs.. can sing utada hikaru's flavour of life and ken hirai's qing pi shuang yan, can rmb e jap title. that ken hirai's song really make me have goosebumps all over the moment i hear it though i have heard this song for a million times. Anyway we chat was telling her i m v afraid of my future.. seems to me that everyone's impression of me is that i will be a career woman(nu qiang ren) i don't think i look like one le.. but a few of my frens told me i look like one. i think i will make a lot of mistakes at work then eq v low so no one will like or promote me.. maybe i m too domineering.. ahhahah.. gosh... honestly don't think i will succeed at work or at life or at anything.

gosh really worrying about my future.. met ppl who can't wait to stop studying to work. but honestly i don't like working at all. rather study all my life.. hahhhaa. in e past when i work i would always think that i can escape to studying, but now completely can't.. i hate that! some people have passion in life know wat they want. ppl like my sis. usually ppl who knows wat they want and work towards it would be able to get wat they want, but i m not that kind of person. this ppl have a passion in life and is living for it. this really makes me wonder wat m i living for? honestly if i were to die this second i would tell u i wouldn't miss anything. might miss my frens, but honestly nth is holding me back. i think u can only work for yourself, but i couldn't find a reason to work for myself at all. work for the money is pointless. u have money but might not have time to spend, to me as long as u have enough money it is enough, don't need to have too much, cos afterall u can't bring it into ur coffin with u. work for the status? i don't want to, when u climbed higher e ppl u meet r more insincere and at times it is really hard to put on a front, you would be too afraid to let anyone see your true self then, for fail that they will have known ur weaknesses and have things against you. honestly wat is there to work for? is there a future in anything. i wish i have kids! then i can say i m working for my kids for their future.. ahhahaha.. feel so empty not knowing wat i m working for. honestly don't want to work for the sake of working.

oh ya another thing i m very angry about is hrm. there is 3 essays to write during e exams. i spotted 3 topics, but only 2 came out. and i think hrm is really a subject where if u don't have e info no pt writing, cos u really can't crap. theory and case studies can't change no matter wat. anyway angry of myself. i told myself to study 4 topic b4 the exams but somehow i forgot or don't know wat happened to me la.. i didn't study. gosh it will badly affect whether i get 2nd lower or 2nd upper. gosh i hate it 2nd upper was so close that i could almost touch it, but now i can't cos i did badly. i rather i did badly for all then i would feel better. ok shall not curse myself!

anyway i m goin to whine about my life again.. really feel that my life jus ended so abruptly after i go to heaven i will soon go to hell.. hee.. gosh i really hate worrying for this stupid stuff! i really hate life!