IT

Yesterday i mentioned that i would be fully in charge of IT. I did mentioned that i m quite happy to have a chance to be in charge of something, and also it is a chance to me... Today e ae told me she talked to the boss. About my workload.. She is worried that i m overloaded. Actually this gesture should be read as she worrying for me.. But in my mind i was kind of unhappy with what she did..

In the first place if i don't think i can handle it i will feedback to her. But i didn't, because i want to try. And honestly the work i m doing is minimal. I totally can't understand y she is so busy but won't delegate any more work to me. The shipping assistant once told me e ae was always had a lot of work to do in e past cos e ex-accountant gave her a lot of work. But if i m supposedly taking over her position as accounts assistant and this is the workload i honestly think it is not even enough. I have to say i m learning quite a lot, but not enough to me... To me no matter how selfless a person wants to be or try to pretend to be, i think there is always selfishness and fear. Furthermore this ae don't even have a diploma. In other co she is very unqualified to be an ae. Maybe she do fear me. I feel that at times she is quite worried that i might overtake her.. Cos i asked her if i sld do acca, and she said i shouldn't since i have a degree.. but then when i ask other ppl for their opinion they think i sld learn more. And also there were some reports that my big boss ask me to do directly then she would ask me wat i m doin and like how she cld help, but the thing is her currently workload is already up her neck still ask me. To me she seems worried that i m not under her..

Ok la if i m a boss i would be afraid. And my character i think when i work i get a bit aggressive. If i were given a chance i would treasure it and want to perform. So far i don't believe i will fail. Actually i nv tot i was agressive until e sales manager at laura ash told me she thinks i m v agressive at work.. True.. I kind of feel quite happy when e boss ask me directly.. cos it means he kan de qi wo.. Oh ya i was quite pissed cos i did mention yest that in e future i might be in charge of both sap and server.. then in e end she discuss w e boss she told me in e future she will be in charge of sap she might need my help. I was kind of pissed off.. Like it was supposed to be under my care now she took it and become i help her... Actually i really don't understand y she have so much work but won't delegate. E only reason y i think is cos she don't want me to learn too much.. Actually if she is that unwilling to teach me and i can't learn that much i will resign and join another co.. Cos being here for 8mths i think i need to learn more still.. And my workload is too little liao i m super bored..

Actually i m kind of plotting liao.. Hee.. I m plotting to be very prepared for the meeting with the boss and any training on sap. So that if my boss sees my attitude and confidence he might let me take over... Gosh i nv knew i was this agressive. Hopefully my fight for the workload i can manage is successful.

Something embarrassing

I think i m still in dreamland.. As in i still feel like I m not really myself still hahah.. Still did some stupid stuff...

Today i did a good deed. I helped the dirty male toilet, toilet bowl flush it.. ahhhahhaha.. Today me and teresa went to vivo to have dinner. Then i pulled her to e toilet. When i went into e toilet i tot how come so few cubicle. Then i went into a cubicle and i was like yucks e toilet bowl so dirty... Suddenly Teresa started shouting from the toilet entrance.. Amanda wrong toilet this is male toilet.. I was like huh weird teresa.. I already locked e door. Anyway i was still thinking she must be thinking e toilet was dirty.. But then something weird happened a big fat man was in front of me.. Gosh i literally followed the big fat man out of the toilet(I think he didn't wash his hands.. Yucks! ok that is so not the point) So embarrassed! Then when i saw e urinal then i was very sure i was in e wrong toilet. i should have jus stayed there and die.. I still pull poor teresa into e male toilet.. Gosh i seriously tot it was e female toilet le! And teresa said this was e first time she walked into e wrong toilet... Ahhh.. i want to die... And gosh guys r really dirty! i tot the girls toilet was seriously dirty ur sld totally go c a guy's toilet.. Totally yucks... E sight of some things in there really want to make me puke.. ahhahha..

Oh ya today e jap colleague told me i will be overtaking his duties of IT apparently.. E big boss haven't announce it to me yet.. Anyway I m supposed to be in charge of the whole co's IT... I tot he was joking, but i think he was quite serious when he said that.. Gosh and i asked him y m i e choice.. He said cos e other 2 ppl good in IT are always overseas. So since i m always in the office i m in charge.. Gosh. I tot i was only in charge of e server but he said both sap and server.. gosh.. faint! He said e other 2 ppl good in IT it means he thinks i m good in IT too.. Gosh he haven't seen me inject virus into my sis laptop a few hundred times causing it to crash.. hahahha.. I think i will jus keep asking them to reboot their system.. Hee.. But ok la.. quite good experience.. But it is such irony.. A few wks ago when i know e 2 jap were leaving i was still laughing.. cos it means big boss must be in charge of IT then imagine we ask him when we encounter any small problem.. Hahhaha.. In e end.. It must be karma! but ok la.. Hopefully can learn more...

Memory Loss

Gosh the past 2 wks i was rather sick. Was always sneezing and coughing, worse still i had memory loss! gosh...

I honestly can't really remember what happened last wk. I made a few blunders at work due to being drowsy and well..

Last sat sl and i went to watch a concert, we bought tic the wk b4.. Well when we reached there was about to go in when i asked sl to take out both our tic. She was like ya i have my tic so y aren't u bringing out yours. I was like isn't the ticket with you! And gosh it was a totally panic moment. She thought i forgot to brought mine, while i tot my ticket was with her. hahahha... we were rumaging through my bag trying to find the ticket since when we bought the ticket i was carrying e same bag, but it was not there! Fortunately we r able to get replacement ticket for the price of $5. When i went home i found the ticket.. Gosh the memory of me putting the ticket in my bag was totally gone. Very scary! Especially cos i have a very good memory. This is wat a throat infection could do to u!

The performers were soil and pimp and jazz band from japan. Anyway the ppl there were weird. They were shaking away to the music and were very high, but i really feel that their music is not that up tempo (upbeat) so i seriously couldn't understand how they could be so "mad" almost equavilent to fans of a rock band. Hee.. We sat down throughout the concert cos i seriously don't want to stand and shake. Hahah.. Anyway the saxophone player came off stage and he stood on my armrest playing the saxophone. was so shocked! the ppl in frt ask us to stand up but i think if i stand up while he was playing on my armrest, i would most likely anchor him down, as in knock him down with my arm. ahhahaha.. his sweat kind of splatter on my hand.. It was really quite an experience. hahahah.. Have to say the music was really not bad...

Gosh more not so happy news at the co. My brother is leaving.. hahha.. happy for him oso la.. Better prospects. Hai.. too many bad news liao.. Till seriously not much feeling.. Want to get excited about something. Gosh... Let's hope there will be good news soon.

All good things must come to an end

Was super sad yesterday morning, when our boss broke the heartbreaking news to us. Two of our jap colleague have to be posted back to Japan, due to the cost cutting measures. Gosh almost cried in front of everyone when e news was said. the service manager looked like he was goin to cry when they announced that he have to go back. He is honestly the nicest guy in the company. He is a good father, a good colleague. He really love his children a lot and his really sincere to all of us. He is e guy who will speak in jap to me to train me to speak jap. Very grateful to him for all e help he gave me with my japanese homework. Hee..

Realised that when they go back their position will be lower than their current position. As there isn't any excess space in the company they will go to where ever that needs ppl. I heard that ppl might go back to be a storeman. Gosh really ridiculous. Hmm.. Also the service manager's eldest son might not be in time to enrol to a jap high sch over there. So well e sch might be alone here. Quite sad! He love his family very much and i don't think he would want to leave his son alone here, but no choice. So sad.... Gosh will really miss him when he go back and with two people gone there might be a lot of ppl trying to gain control of the dept.

Actually I was a bit pissed with the sales manager.. When e announcement was made, he was quite wu qing. Instead of feeling a bit "will miss them" he immediately tot of who will take their places. Seriously y must make the place so political. Furthermore it is none of his business he is already a manager he can't get promoted any further. Anyway it will no affect me in anyway so jus let it be.

Today i told my colleague abt a show i watched on tv abt darren lim and evelyn tan. They visited their house then they r currently living in a bangalow. Then the ae suddenly say girls don't have to be so smart jus have to marry good. Honestly!!!! What age is it now! Still got people think this way... I realised the world is like that people who have old thinking will bring their old thinking and superstition to their children. And somehow these superstitions will never die. Those people who "can't study" wouldn't think much about studying, likewise people who "can study" will think highly of studying. my other colleague rebutted her saying need smart people to have smart offspring. Hee.. In my heart i was thinking not everyone can marry good. If you are not able to depend on someone you must at least have some capabilities to survive. And studying open up your options, and having more knowledge is better than having no knowledge.

Actually i think studying more give people confidence. A person who can study more have more confidence than people who study less because they have knowledge. In a sense i think knowledge is power, one way of gaining knowledge is through experience and the other is through education. So likewise a person who didn't study much but have lots of hands-on experience is as knowledgable as someone who study and only have book knowledge.

E ae also said don't need to learn english. Actually another of my colleague who couldn't speak good english feels the same. But in singapore e education system is in english, w/o english the person's math and science would also be in trouble. And if you are able to speak in english you will feel more confident when a foreigner speaks to you. Actually it applies to chinese too.. So i think we have to be bilingual and be very good in both language.

I have to say I have trouble communicating with these people at times. Not that i think that i m smarter. Just that i couldn't understand their way of thinking. Like she can tell me study so much jus for a cert. To me i don't study for the cert i study for knowledge i don't want to be dumb. Urgh... i can't stand dumb ppl, so i can't stand myself being dumb. and i totally can't understand their weird logic. Maybe it works... but then the people will nv improve..